At this juncture

It has been days and more than a week for me to self quarantined myself at home by the sudden attack of sickness. I had a disasterous moment tortured by illness , likewise, it is just a golden chance for me to have a rest as i always desired to. It is sheepish and fatous to claim my sickness eventually bring me some kind of benefits, neither i myself declare myself is no different with a weirdo. It brings me into awakeness and realisation. It leads me live a day, at least a day with gratefulness. To be frank, as an egoistic person who always think himself doing the right thing and claim others who agaist his ideology as wrong will of course have some conflict with people. Life full with grievance and disatisfaction. Yes, i always have conflict with my family's views as i will invoke my theories on something. In another word, i will make sense out of non-sense. Till now, i can hardly remove all those theories in my mind but just setting it aside and feel some love from them. Being anxious about my sickness, i am worry that my parents will get infected from my influeza since i am not sure whether do i got AH1N1 infection. However, they have taken care of me by ignoring the possibility of being infected. Yes, i had a tough time for being in pink of my health, so do my parents. While i was in fever severely, they barely sleep but keep on leaving their room and come down. They touched my forehead with their warmful hand. I was in dream that time i guess, but, i can somehow feel it. Though i do aware of it, still, i was so inconcious that time. What i know is, i need to sleep more as i can finally fall asleep.

Hooo.....i took a deep breathe, it is the first time i ever stay at home for such a long time this year. I cannot make it to temple , basically, i cannot make it to anywhere . So, it leaves my no choice but to stay at home. It is so rare that i stay at home , so, i would just sleep and lie on my bed. I mean, even if i stay at home, i must have something to do. To be exact, it is the first time i ever feel free which i think is bad as i almost lost my direction of life. What is life if you spend time doing nothing? Thats what i told my mum when she complains that i have been too busy with activities and friends. Yes, i has been going out quite often. At least i didnt go for clubbing ? I have my own jurisdiction on what i am doing. Whenever i discuss about time with my mum, there will be at least disagreement between both of our viewpoints. Well, its because the side effect of medication. I took a lot of supplements while i am still sick. Stolle milk which my mum believes it can strengthen my immune system , Honey which my mum thinks it can kills viruses or bacterias and some Chinese traditional medicines that i dont have faith on it. Haha, at that moment, i really dont have much choice, what i want is to get healed. Till now, i am getting better, but i have zero idea on which one works on me though. I feel like i am staying in an asylum which full with all kind of medicines.

This 'holidays' has also given me a chance to sit tight on the sofa with the TV remote control on my hand and press it . I have the chance to watch some programs like some forums held between some famous authors, some documentaries programs and some drama of course. Last time, i really dont have time for that. Of course, i was spending my time on the bed and in front of my laptop more. How about books ? Not really, maybe a few Reader Digest. I read it , flipped through and fall asleep. I also notice that i have not been really reading last days, not even newspapers. Erm..so, this sickness dont really bring me on a wistful venture, but it brings me to do more things. The most relieving news i would say is, when the doctor soothed me with the news that ' I AM NOT INFECTED BY H1N1 INFLUEZA'. Yahoo.....Now, i am pondering whether should i go to college tomorrow. I missed a lot of classes last week. Especially EC law ! Well, most probably i will going tomorrow though. Miss my mates a lot also ! They will see me with a spooky look tomorrow as i will wear a mask there. I know it looks weird. For the public's benefits, i shall practice that.

Apart from that, i went to clinics 3 times in this 2 weeks and have taken X ray to see whether my lung is in good condition or not. The daunting moment is , all clinics are so crowded man ! I think it is not only H1N1 is spreading but other viruses as well ! What happened to the world ? My mum and i were waited for 1.30 hrs and i was there with antsy feeling already. Finally, it was my turn, they took my weight as usual . The doctor is one of the greatest doctor i have ever met, the way he treats patient is very different than other specialist. His name is Dr Ludher Inderjit Singh, he was the only doctor in the anti-communist military that time. Thats what he told me, those communist wanted to kill him as he is the only doctor and therefore he needs to protect himself by wearing the same shirt as those army. He really check the patient from top to down unlike others General Practitioner. Though he is practicing as a GP , but, he himself actually is a specialist. He always chide on my dad since my dad has a big tummy resulted from beers. It is because of him, it is one of the major reason why my asthma getting better. I have been his patient for at least 10 years. If my asthma ever get healed completely, the credit should really goes to him.

Anyway, i had my holidays started earlier and i think i have enough of rest ! Time to move on! Thin time has gone ! I really need to know how to take good care of myself. Seeing my parents worry isnt a good thing. They have done more than enough. See what i have now ? I am not being high profile on what i have. It is just an feeling shown to express my satisfaction and appreciation . Thanks a bunch to everyone!

Ohya, i bought a guitar and will start to learn playing every Saturday in the temple. It is a Hofma guitar model 260 which cost around less than RM300. My friends told me its cheap as the market price is around RM400+ . Nonetheless, my classmates who known as a walking encyclopedia - Freddy, told me that it suppose to cost only RM190. He claimed that i was being cheated already. He dont know how much faith i have on my friends, then i have abit of surveying job and found out that RM190 is the price for USED GUITAR. Haha...i guess he got it wrong this time.

Bed time now, share with you all my thoughts next time. I really have lot to share here.

I hope the ailments will leave me forever , no, leave this world forever.

Numerous of Thoughts (2)

Argh....I was exhausted. All these are suppose to be so simple and it comes t become complicated when it happens to me. Oui (In french means YES), i am living in a world which requires a lot of choice choosing. I know this doesnt apply to me as all of us will experiences. There's too much that i need to be considered on as i know, it is not me myself making my life but it is all of u making my life. My life is just so lucky and being fortunate to have all of you. Yes, as my title of this post stated, numerous thoughts in seconds. Till now, i am still waiting for the entry into UM Law Faculty which i still doubted whether i have made the right choice as i know the quality of UM is exceptionally low amongst all the law schools in this world. Knowing it's quality especially for the lecturer there is bad and why would i still taking such steps ? What is amiss to me ? In fact, there is nothing wrong with me as i know both are wise choice.

My college friends now has been working really hard in their law studies, as they are aiming really high. They are aiming for Kings Scholarship which i think i myself dont have faith on getting it . Nevertheless, i still cant stop dreaming about it. Dreaming myself getting into Kings College, London. At the same time, i think i should stop dreaming this since i am still unsure whether will i still continue my law studies in BAC. Yes, half hanging again. Study abroad has been my dream since small especially UK . It may be beneficial for me if i got the chance to read law in UM , i may not be burdened and stressed as now by what my friends have labelled me as. This is simple on the grounds that, Kings Scholarship will not be awarded for top scorer in UM. Well, of course, i would be very happy if one of us gets that. We all get enthused on the Kings Scholar topic. We all study in the same institution, we have the same source, we have the same lecturer ! It is in general that we stand equal chance on getting Kings Scholarship. It would not be fair if one being labelled as Best candidate of Kings and others are not. What makes the different is, the effort one has put in , it is the efforts one has given that makes a genius or in another an intelligent. My friends, lets start moving ! ( I knw some of u have started though) , I believe you all can create a record in the history of Kings Scholar , a Kings Scholar may not need to be a nerd ! Work hard is neccessary at this point .

Hais, i have very much to write. All this while, i has been a very good anti-lecturer in my class. ( Which lecturer? lolx...u will know it). I admit that i myself is in ego naturally, but, i just cannot accept when an experienced lecturer make such a fundamental mistake and yet not willing to admit his fault. How could a unilateral offer becomes an Invitation to Treat on the case of Carlil v Carbolic Smokeball Co ? In this case, it was held that, a unilateral offer which has done by advertisement to world at large maybe an ITT, however, in Carlil, it makes a different whereby it requires an act for a promise. So, it is amount to an offer. Another case on this would be Bowerman v ABTA , it illustrates the same issue as Carlil case.

Yes, most of my classmates enjoy his class because he gives funny example on case . I as always, being so serious, i dislike that. It is not because of the jokes he told is bad but, if jokes and facts mixed together , that would lead to a serious consequences ! As long as he can tell jokes and deliver the right fact , i would probably listen to what he said. The notes he has given to me, i have not even touch on it . Well, the same applies to me, i just hate teaching people when i am unsure about certain thing. Last tuesday if i am not mistaken, I came to college in the morning as usual. I was asked to teach Tort and that part is remedies ! It is the girl, MJ, who then keep on asking me to teach her to write an essay on remedies which i am so damn not sure about that as i dont really study on that chapter during my A-levels. I tried my best but i felt so guilty at the sametime as i am afraid that i taught her the wrong thing. If it is for me to dislike people teaching wrong stuff, then i would hate myself as well. Nevertheless, that day has really makes me come to realise that, i should know everything in detail.

There is another thing which i would like to share with you all, BPTC in UK will be comes into effect by next year while it was being proposed by this year. BPTC stands for Bar Professional Training Course and it is currently being known as BVC ( Bar Vocational Course) . BVC has been a great course for those who wants to become a barrister, it is very practical and intensive training on advocasy skills and so forth with 13 subjects. However, UK doesnt seem to satisfy with it and looking for improvement. It is said that , the BVC graduates do not reach the standard which they are lack of advocasy skills and writing skills. I can now understand why UK education are much more prestigious than Malaysia . They always aiming high, scrutinise their whole system, analyse it and correct it as soon as possible. Whereas in Malaysia, the Great Britain makes Malaysia such a tiny country ! Come on ! Malaysia, dont live in comma ! wake up ! We need a change ! We have gone through Industrial revolution , why not we have an education revolution ? Yes, i agree we should love our country ! The way we love it is totally wrong ! We shouldnt be satsified so easily as there's room to improvement. We must know what is our mistake ! Just admit it if we are in problems ! Why hiding it and still claiming that we are doing great ? I wonder why a professor can come out with such words. Ok, i have been talking too far, well, my point is, if BVC is of least satisfaction standard, what about Malaysia's Certificate in Legal Practice which is not practicle based ? If Malaysia wants to change , why not being efficient on it ? Yes, they proposed a CBC Scheme , but it will only be coming into force by 4-5years later! Malaysia, please change ! If we have the vaccine of the virus, why not using it as soon as possible ? Lets have a fair meritocracy system!

What i can say is, Malaysia boleh. The only country which has a written constitution but without separation of power. The only country which can use power arbitrarily. The only country knows its problems but has not taken any steps to overcome it. I really cannot anticipate on what will happened to Malaysia in the future. Why would they still using Malay to teach their law ? I had a glance on the law books and the way they contrued the sentence is so problematic. If they were with the will or intention to make UM a international recognised university, they should do it in English as it may be the best way to decribe the law.

As i promised, i will write on the role of a judge, i couldnt recall what i wanted to share as i have forgotten whats the arguments i had with my friend. A judge in my view , should be impartial and without realising himself hold a pose called JUDGE but with the realisation that, Justice must not only be done, it must be seen to be done. The lust for craving for power shouldnt exist in the judge. As per Lord Nolan , judges are not interested in the pursuit of power.If they were, they would not have become judges.

TO BE CONTINUE................................................................

Numerous thought in seconds

I feel like taking a rest. I am really mentally tired which is undescribable.

Sava bien ? Sava !

I hope all the respective readers are enjoyed reading my blog. Though some of my friend do think my blog can hardly be understood and it is a way too long ? I really appreciate those who has discussed with me on the philosophies and left some comments. Thanks abundantly for your typing efforts. Can't imagine all thing can be so furious and extremely prompt. By viewing and reading this post, you will get to know me better. Especially, this post....

Below are what am i gonna jot down in my blog :

~ The negative side of me will be disclosed partially here now and in this post itself. Dr Jekyll is back! It is reveiled by a wise man who happened to appear in my life at one point of life. The one who keep remind me stay away from egoness and self-centredness. The one who has lead me all this way till now. The one who has enlightened me along when i faced obstacles.The one who teaches me to take off the thought of " An eye for an eye". The one who knows me the best !

~ Another issue i would like to discuss on would be realitivity whether does money is the only source which satisfy your needs? I, personally think on this view is fatous as you would fall into an deep abyss or may even buried in it. Isn't it is just so undignity ? Lets seek for further discussion in below. However, it is just plainly my two cents, dont take my words wholly as a little knowledge is a dangerous thing.Ermm.... Albeit what i have shared might not be idea or realiable, but, i think as long as it leads you to think, then i fits the purpose of me posting these.

~ Next, i would like to bring on some thought of mine of a role for ' Judges' and stage of life which people may come across to.

~ Whether are you pretending ? The fakeness you are having is true or untrue ? if it is true, are you pretending ?

~ All about my dad

I have bunches of things , thoughts, or incidents that i wish to make it in written but we all just have 24 hours per day. Neither do i as an ordinary man, i have not enough time to do whatever i wished. Look here, some of us may opined that, we actually own 24 hours.By having this thought, man sebsequently, in a way, think that time is beyond their control. No, within OUR control. Lolx...i am man as well. The fact is, do we indeed own it ? Time is a scope of our life in nature where we are given such amount f time to complete your mission. We wont be here if there is no reason as of law, there is law when there is reasoning which make thing or justice to be seen. Where there is a principle of reasoning, it indicating the rule of cause and effect. The nature of law itself is to make justice to be seen, i think those who can near this testimony is natutalist. ( Note: i havent read on Jurisprudence yet, it is just merely a silly view !) . To make thing short, we are here for some reasons.

In the public eyes, people used to view me as a very good human, smart, or hardworking which i am not indeed. It is recently something had happened which put me into awake ! Last time, i dont used to believe in horoscope and now, i think it is quite accurate and true in a way. It is especially when it describes on Leo's characteristics. Egoistic, can hardly being humble, Self-centred and so on. Tell you what, it is true. Sometimes, egoistic is just driving me to criticise on certain issues and ignore other's view. As a buddhist, i learnt a lot of theories on it and it cant seems to be practicable for me. From now on, i really dont dare to declare myself as a Buddhist. I hope to be a better man but yet, i cant make it. I cant see my own mistake ! Where there's a conflict between the Buddhism Teaching and the way my family brought me out. I am trying to lighten up this negative side of me and therefore you can seldom see me giving my views but remain silents. Try to be as low profile as much as i can. I know , my attitudes may have already hurted someone and i am sorry. I dont mean to let you all down. See ? i am bad and stupid and dumb actually. However, i am trying to improve myself.

To be continue on others issue.......

The Social Animal - Emile Durkheim (2)

From the last post, i have got a comment from an anonymous user which he/sh has got a point there. There used to be an ampersand that Man is the lord of all kind. It is opined, that, this phrase is invented by man as a tool of motivation to do their daily rountine chores in a positive way. Too much of sugars will cause diabetes, so do human, if they don't use something within the limit, it tends to make negative issue arises. Man will therefore , ultimately, use that phrase to avoid from problems and negate other views and hence become self-centred . The purpose of that phrase is now goes out of the window. Whether does man is lord of all kinds will be a great debate whereby i think everyone is equal and not only man. I am, in a way, a supporter of functionalist, as what Talcott Parson has expressed, he opined that this society is like a human body with organs , every organs has their own fuctions to make sure the body functioning well. 

Everybody serves as an important part in this society. It is just like your heart can never replace with your lungs and the other way around.  It is indicating that the everyone of us is special with no differences as it cannot be made into comparisons. Hence why i am very curious why and still there is some group of people fighting for their rights. I will lay down the examples here and you may just think of it. If i ever jot this down in my blog , i am sure someone will not be able to digest it. For me, it is not a rational to find a way when there is no way or there is already a way in front of you. 

 As per Auguste Comte, the society itself is a 'social system'. It is again affirmed what Parsons has stated. As a result, please be positive and do whatever you can to achieve ( or i shall say, do what is neccessary) and you are done. You have completed your mission. Therefore, nothing is impossible is quite true is a sense. Haha...why is that ? If you do what u suppose to do and within your limitation , why couldnt it be done ? This does not mean that one can underestimate themselves . You must believe in yourself as u must know you will never know the outcome. It is doing your best that makes you different. Trying your best is just an excuse for you to get ready on failure. Do believe that ....   You are special ! 

The Social Animal - Emile Durkheim

Time flies and water continues dropping. It has been 2 months since started my LLB life in Brickfields Asia College. I am blogging again , last time i used to blog only once in a blue moon. In next to no time, the IPTA( Local Public University) list is going to release . My friends urged me to apply Law in UM and i did so. Since i have not much of faith getting a sit in UM( University Malaya for your knowledge if you dont know), so i get enrolled into BAC which i think i have a great time over there now. It is going to be a herculean task for me to choose whether should i stay or leave. As what people said, it is always hard to say goodbye. Isnt it sounds so sheepish as i know myself won't be able to secure a sit in UM and yet think of that. Am i thinking too much ? I would not deny or neglect your point of view saying that i am anyway. In regards on this issue, one of my friend who always said that i am thinking too much who is Jxxxxxx ( he dont want me to cite his name here,sorry). Well, he taught me a lot of things and maybe some philosophy of life i would say. I should really thanks him profusely on that even he still strongly says that he did nothing. Yes, thinking too much will indeed may bring some complication of feeling. In another view, it is a must to think that much, i think considering is a better word. Instead of saying i am thinking too much, why not saying that i take more things into consideration so everything is under control ? Isnt that one of the requirement of a lawyer is to think ?However, Thanks a bunch to those who has given me some advice and helps ! One of the principle of my life is i will never forget people who has helped me. I really appreciate it. Friends, i will definitely help you if i can do it. Remember my words. Howsoever you all may adviced me not to think so much , i will take it for the usage in the future. Till now, i am still doing what i think i suppose to do and think what i suppose to think. How stubborn this creature is , its me, Junhong. Lolx.... Besides, i am also glad that i have 'Heng dais'- BROTHERS& SISTERS in my life where they have guide me a lots in my life. They are important to me ! Very important. They know me more than my family members. They play a significant role in my life on whatever i have faced, Studies, Personality or Characteristic , Family, Friendship, or recently they even help me in dealing with love which torturing me these few months.( Trust me, u will be surprise what they have done!) Therefore, sometimes you will see me remain silent. I just cant control myself. Excessive thinking has controls all over my body even my mind.

Last time, i used to hate sociology very much. After November 2008, i started liking it. Learning all those philosophies and sociologies is indeed one of the best experience ever in my life. Why ? It will be useful in my law journey or my entire life. It is sad that there are less institution offering this subject in A-levels. In my honest opinion, it is important for future lawyer. It is not to point out that i may be excel in sociology which in fact i dont, i failed once ! The marking of sociology is very stringent and it commonly known as one of the toughest subject in Cambridge A-levels. I tried myself the best to understand this subject and finally i got through. I got a D , I am dare to share this out is not to show that i am good enough. But, it is just simply want to prove those who think i am bright and smart is definitely wrong. Honestly, i worked my fingers to the bone and yet, I got a D , not an A. The fact tells everything. I still need to thanks to Mr Shankar, he makes sociology no longer a total stranger to me and i passed, most importantly. Hehe...

Just not talking too much on that, Emile Durkheim who is a french sociologist and known as the father of sociology used to describe human as the social animal. Why is that ? My knowledge is limited and have poor memorising skill, so, i have no idea whether can what i have laid down here hold much water. Anyway, i will share whatever i know. Society basically forms by a group of human with collective conscience along with norms and culture that is established since time immemorial. Criticism may be arises since he uses the word 'animal', it is quite true in a sense. Animal can hardly live alone , neither do man- The Lord of all Creatures ? . People need to stay together to make a strong society. Therefore, we need socialisation. Socialisation in sociology brings another meaning as what we used to understand it is. We need socialisation to make sure we can live together in a crowd of people so life easier. Of course, it depends on the society's norms , values and cultures on the way people socialise themselve and it changes from time to time as well. In short, it states that human can hardly survive alone. It is essential for ones to socialise and get to know each other in this society. Ooops...when it comes to this question, i shall remain silent as i am not good in socialisation. However, i would still give my two cents on this issue. First, how would you define socialisation? I was once being told by my friend that i am kind of passive. I wonder how does that jurisdiction come from and she never gives her reason for that. Maybe she has her own reason for not explain it indepth. It is rather unjustified whereby ones should notice both sides of a person, whenever you see there is an introvert side of that person, it does not mean that there is no extrovert side in that person. Human is a complicated animal where one words cannot describe it clearly. If ones dare to give me a one word judgement, i can swear he or she will get a lot of question from me.

Second, What is the purpose of you getting socialable ? In realitivism , it states that human is selfish, Glaucon's view is, Essentially, he believes all persons are selfish, self-interested, and egoistic. What do you think ? Is that one of the purpose of you being socialisable , to get more benefits from others ? Be true and be sincere is the best way to socialise, in my point of view. However, it is sometimes out of your control , whereby you need to know more in order socialise and mix with all kind of people. I am very shallow when it comes to knowledge and skills. Therefore i guess, thats one of the reason why i couldnt really socialise well ?

-----------------to be continue-------------------------------------

Progress of Life , it still goes on.

Progress is crucial, whether you have been getting worst or getting better. One must observe theirs own life in order to make sure he or she is on the right track. No? I was reading on my friends msn heading just now and it does awakened me in which we must divide our time wisely to make sure each part of our life is well taken care of. Each of us might have different manners or priority given to each part of our life. For example, one can give more priority to family and least on sports and so on. These days , i have never been really stay at home but keep running out of house. I noticed that, i may have missed out something in my family. Seriously, my time is quite packed as compared to my friends. My LLB class has started, Temple activities that inclusive of Cooking lesson, Dharma lesson and others, Teaching form 1 and form 2 BM on tuesday night, Working if there is any customer needed me to be serve on, Blogging, Swimming, Reading and Researching. I dislike if you need me to sit at home and do nothing or just surfing net. I rather use my time on more meaningful way where i can learn a lot of thing and improve.

Well, my progress is going fine i guess. Still not be able to split myself and therefore i might missed out something. In fact, i just received a call from someone demanding on tuition for primary school. On the fact, i dont think i can take any duties by now even i hope to help out. Sorry for that. This monday i had my Malaysian Studies lecture which lectured by an old man that is quite egoistic and unfriendly. He is funny sometimes though. Seriously, the class is just a waste of time to learn about Malaysia's so called history and Malaysia Legal System. It is nothing even if we get to know how it works ! Yes, i admit that i may sounds deviance to think in that way. Malaysia Boleh ! We learnt about Separation of Power, the court system in Malaysia. What is the point of learning all that if there is no point to follow ? The separation Power is simply now in a mess ! The highest law of the land is least followed and yet the government of Malaysia is working efficiently on getting people under the detention of ISA which is one of the Act of Parliament in Malaysia. The Federal Constitution is setted up once we got our independentship and the citizens of Malaysia is ought to be bound by it. The monarch also must act accordingly to what have been stated in Federal Constitution. In another word , it simply works as the fundamental principle of Malaysia. It serves as a strong foundation in this honourable Bolehland. Howsoever the sovereignity of the Malaysia's Parliament is , it have to be followed since it is the highest law of the land. In concerning on that, it is noticed that the state assembly has been now a hot topic to discuss on, The court has interfered on state assembly. I doubted any country in this world would allows such an incident to happen besides our beloved Country.

In Federal Constitution Article 72(1) , it states that The validity of any proceedings in the Legislative Assembly of any State shall not be

questioned in any court.

SO ? Shall i say , It loses it importance ? Anyway , it is not for me , a first year law student on criticise it or question about it. But , as one of the rightful citizen of Malaysia, the curiousity just drives me crazily about that !

Apart from that , I have enjoyed Public law and it is getting more interesting on the Rule of law. It is somehow related to legal philosophy, i mean sort of. I was planning to buy a Jurisprudence book which is The Concept of Law by Professor Hart. I think it is a good book to read on. However, i am informed that it is not a book that can be read for the sake of interest. So, i rub-off the idea on getting that book even the eagerness in reading that still running on my head. I enjoy so much when reading someone's theory. Of course that theory must be impressed me in some way. The most impressing theory i have ever read is still remain as the Buddhism Theory which trains me the right way of thinking.

I come across when someone asked me how am i going to spend my time whilst i am free, and i answered:" Temple's activities,Swimming, Chatting, Blogging and etc." He is poped up with a short reply :" Hahax...religious boy !" Well, i wouldnt say it is religious and of course it really depends on how you going to define the word RELIGIOUS. It is too subjective and no one can have a definite answer for that as each of us grown up in different childhood and it differs by the way your parents taught you. What makes me started to get involve in religion which is the terminology commonly known by people, for me, it is a way of education to teach us to become a better person. I think i have mentioned that i myself is curiousity orientated , right? I started to look for some belief or a set of thought which suits me the best as i have always wondering why am i here when i was small and my parents couldnt give me a good answer for that. When i was still in Primary school , i joined Church activities and i think it is the best taught ever ! Looking in the bible and reading whats the jesus has said. Quote from one of it , If you are thirsty , come to me and drink. Isnt it just perfect ? I joined the Sunday Church for quite a long time if i am not mistaken. I think it is protestant based church. Whatever it is , what i am looking for is the best thought that can solves my questionsin my mind. The Sunday Church teacher told me, whats the point of praying to a statue that isnt alive ? I was awakened by that statement ! When i go back , i told my mum :" Dont ever ask me to pray for the Chinese God, it is silly for doing that !" I believe in the power of thought when i was small , and whey they teach me to pray . I feel it is a way to communicate to God. When i go back to school ( i was only standard 2 i guess), I started to share what i have gone through and what i have got from Christianity taught. One of my friend asked me , how can i achieve a good result as u ? You guys must be laugh at me by what i have taught him . I taught him the way to pray to the god ! Well , somehow in a miracle way or he does work hard for it , he achieved to be the first in our class and now still excellent. My dad then actually restricted me from going to Church for god knows reason. ieven have the intention to get baptised on that point or maybe confirmed. One of the lady who fetches me to Church will always ask me for RM1 to give to the Church , i then asked , whats that for ? She told me it will be sent to the God . The typical Y-generation of me , will definitely ask her in what way can it be send to the god ? God needs money for what? and various of questions i asked. Yes, she didnt gives me any acceptable answer but asked me to just listen and follow. Since that, i have seldom get the chance to attend the church , maybe she afraid that i will ask too many question that is unanswerable? haha...My family isnt religious but i would say supersititous on some customs and belief on our ancient's souls and the taoism's god. In another way, it wouldnt be too much if i considered them as Atheis . In standard 6, i started to get some information on Buddhism which the solved my misunderstandness. I always thought that Taoism is the same like Buddhism. In fact , it is not. It explains about the universe , causes and effects, it almost explains all the WHY! It is all about logic and truth. If i keep elaborate on that , it would probably reached few pages.

Refer back to my friend's question, i answered him that the reason why i involve myself actively in Buddhism activities is that i dont want to just sit at home and do nothing. Kind of Outgoing person i would say but not those clubbing and all. I always think that i have missed a lot of chances to improve and learn.

All right, the latter one would be Common Law Reasoning Teaches by Ms Donna , an aussie white women. She teaches us in a very LECTURE way , i mean she just keep talking with almost the same face expression. Haha..however, she is still good enough as she did presents the lecture quite well and i think i always learnt something new in her class. Though i always feel quite sleepy in her class. She uses the book written by Slapper & Kelly which i always encounter problem in understanding the content of that book. After the lecture , i think i will have a better experience if i read that book again. Bravo ! Last week we learnt about Common law and equity, it was fun as we got class activities.

On last Wednesday, We were, as usual having Moral Studies class in the morning session and it was as expected . It was just plain bored ! 3 hours of lecture is too much for that, in addition when he explains the theory of morality, i just feel awkward. Maybe Malay isnt a good language to explain those philosophies. The only fun part in this lecture is that we get to watch some funny movie clips that restrospectively doesnt not reflects or mirrors on Morality in society. The one which impressed me a lot, undoubtedly, it is the clip of Britain's got talents of Susan Boyle. You should watch it. After that, we all went to petaling street and looking for some good lunch since we have hours to go before another class commence. Haha, we also went to ATC , another law school in Malaysia and paid a visit there. Impressed us indeed. Especially the law library. It was a rainy day and we have Contract law class. In my inner thinking , i keep send my thought to the universe so make sure the lecturer would be Ms Meera. Hey, you should read the book " The Secret". Unfortunately, it doesnt work. We studied on Consideration that day and of course howsoever bad i might consider of the way he presents , he still up to the bar to teach us as he got the knowledge still. What i usually when i study Contract law is , i feel so packed in my mind which is a good thing. It keeps my on the right track of thinking the law. Unfortuantely, it just not happening when i attend his lecture. Anyway, it will not lessen down my interest on Contract Law. I think i have more works to be done on that. Self-studies.

Approximately, just 48hours ago, i went for a movie with a friend. We watched Angels and Demons 2D and we went for dinner and shopping together. I shall not elaborate further about that. On friday, i had my criminal law class teaches by Mr Arnold, the professional lawyer and quite a good lecturer as well. What i like about him is he really wanted and make sure all of us understand the elements of Criminal Law. I have photocopied 2 Criminal Law books , which one of it written by Michael Allen and another one by Elliot and Quinn. Both are good and quality book. I have not go in deepth on reading that though. What i wanted to say is , CRIMINAL LAW IS GETTING INTERESTING AS IT ALWAYS BE and will SOON BECOMING MORE INTERESTING. YahOOOOOO.....

My buddies ,lets face the obstacles and overcome whatever pathethic incidents has happened. Man is the Lord of all creations ! We can do it and progess better !

However bad it is going to be , Progress of life, it does go on .

MOTHER'S DAY THOUGHT

Just a few moments ago, after we had a good dinner which really filled up the space of my stomach , it is as what i expected , we went for shopping. It can be assumed that it is our norms and practices in every Sunday, thus so called it Family Day.

It is then a coindence where i met my old friends namely Shuwen and Kahwei at Giant, Taman Connaught. Though i was expected to meet someone , yet, i dont know it would be that accurate. Anyway, it is happy to meet them as i can seldom or rarely meet with them. They grown up to become more matured from the appearance, it is such a shame as i think i still look immatured. Kahwei works there as a promoter and what i saw her doing is , blewing on those balloons for Mother'S Day. Did i really changed a lots ? Shuwen whereas another old friend of mine expressed her view that she is shocked when seeing me wearing singlet. From what they said, i become more wild ( translation from mandarin literally) .Do note that she told it politely and friendly. I still wonder how they judge that, does that statement comes from my appearance ? With wearing a singlet and conclusion has been made that i become more wild ? I said :" Really? I am still as goodie as what i used to be in secondary school ." What i wanted to lay down is , Wearing a singlet doesnt have any indication of ones being more wild or deviant. It is not to mention the thought of my friends but that led me to a thought. Deep thought. However, From another perspective , it is logic and reasonable to be said that what my friend has stated is very correct. What makes it sounds right is , i give an anology here, When someone from China who used to cool weather , he will feels extremely hot in Malaysia whereas for us, Malaysian might even wear sweater ! See the points ?

I was surprised that how prompt can a person takes to judge you? It takes not even a second. Thats why a quote existing as : "You will never get a second chance to make a first impression ." In my personal point of view , this statement can be taken in two way which one is human tends to make an assumption promptly till you may not aware of it and therefore causing another outcome would be your appearance or howsoever you present yourself will be judged by people within a second which indicates you can hardly change the perception of that person who has already judged you. Can i say that , We as a human do have extraordinary abilities on invention and we are the controller of those invented thing. What i wanted to deliever is, though we are strong enough to control machines, we cant control our thought. It is sometime contradicting that when we say, we are human, the soul of all kinds when we sought out a solution. In another way, we then say, we are layman and ordinary enough when we failed. Isn't it is us who give excuses ? Is it the nature of human kind ? What do you think?

Over Decades ago , the so-called sciencetist strongly argue that the earth is in square shape , which in fact with the advance of knowledge of technology and of course the way man think has improved. Hence they found the earth is in sphere. In fact, it is then another arguments on that matter, the earth might not neccessarily to be sphere, but it is out of shape depending on how you define and interpret the word of " SPHERE". Don't yout think so ?

In my personal opinion, don't make assumption on something so confidentaly if you dont have any strong fact or evidence to support that and please do aware that , it is hardly to confirm something in such a absolute way. What i have opined don't have the intention to restrict ones thought, but merely a point of view.However , based on the points above, shall i make a conclusion that , Man likes to judge. Do tell me your thought about that as i am one of the victim who have restrictive thinking and may not be critical enough. Haha...

Another incident to share with you all is , Mother's Day Theory. Haha...i have mentioned in the above that i met my friend in Giant. My friend asked me to give a flower to my mother and i refused it. The reason i refuse that suggestion is, first, i am Not romantic enough. ( I guess it will attracts lot of criticsm if i refused based on this reason itself only.) My friend said:" Give a flower to you mother la , today is mother's day ma !" Secondly, Frankly speaking, i refused that on the grounds that, she mentioned MOTHER'S DAY. It is a special day where everyone is celebrating on that, but, NOTHING MORE SPECIAL THAN MY MUM. Mother's Day is getting commercialise which there are least of appreciation. However, i am still thankful to my friend that she reminded me how important mother is . I think you all will agree that , not mother's day that makes mother special , it is mother's who makes this day special. Yes, nothing more special than mother. Isnt it ?

Journey Started.

It is amazed that i have not been blogging on my personal life since last October 2008. Shall i just say, my life is not getting any easier and some goodness does come over my life in short of my life these days. I left Lxxxxxn Cxxxxxe Axxx Pxxxxxx which appears to be the worst place in my friend's point of view. I did my A-levels there and i think my result is on satisfaction. In another word, i have enough of passes ( some distinction) to continue for my law studies. I doubted on where can i get those gutts and courage to take all the paper at once. I believe thats what the effect of having bunches of friends around you and give you support. I am so fortune and lucky to have them. I have learnt so many things all this while. As the earth spinning, my life is changing since life goes on with just a blink of eyes. The life goes on second by second. We are lucky to have 10 amazing buildings , 10 miracles places and so on. But then , do we have the appreciation for having time in our life ? Isnt time is the most outstanding, extraordinary "things" in our life ? Erm..shall i use Thing to describe it ? Well, i can find any better word to be used on describing time itself. Thats justified since it eventually prove me right. TIME ITSELF is a MIRACLE . How does Time established in this universe ? Think of it. Be a thinker.

In last January, i was waiting for my results with nervousness and hopes. The college doesnt seem to work nice with me. They had a delay as they having internal problem. What is amiss ! I whispered internally. They lied , from what they told me , Cambridge University have some complication on delivering the results. It is undeniable that they do have excellent acting technique, however, since i have the experience being lied by them, i learnt from lesson. I then called up Cambridge University Region Representative and i get to know that it is infact the college have not pay the full arrears of the fees and therefore they hold our results.The Rep. pissed off since the college put the blame on Cambridge University on that matter. It is expected that the Rep. will surely call up the college and threw some scoldish words.

One day, i went to the college and asked for the result. I was informed by the receptionist that i shall wait in the counselling room. All right , erhummm, it doesnt sounds right. Well, i have no choice but obey on what they asked me to - WAIT at the counselling room. The director of Studies shows his unfriendly face to me and tell me that i have caused a big issue to the college and ask me the reason of me calling the Cambridge Rep. . I see no reasons as to why should i be good to them. Therefore, still, i was being polite and honest that day and explained:" It is not that i want to call him , but, u all lied to me !"The Director of Studies was speechless for a few seconds and started explaining. He is smart , he said :" I dont know what is the communication between you and Ms Sxxxxxxxxa . but , if there is anything, just straight away find me ." Long story cuts short. Within a few days , i got my results. 

I then started to look for my new home to study. I used Home to decribe the college as i need to make sure it provides what i want , safe and stable . They used to be a rumour saying that ATC is the best law school ever in Malaysia, if you intended to read law, it is a must to get into ATC. I always have a bad habit which is if somebody trying to give a conclusive statement confidentaly , i tend to find some points to prove it wrong/ not neccessarily. I dislike the fact that , This is this and that should be that. Of course , it is one of the reason why i choosed BAC at the end, a minor reason, not the major ones though. Having said that, it doesnt mean i have no other factors which drive me towards the decision to read law in BAC. First, they just simply have experienced lecturers and some of them are even practicing lawyers ! Note: Being experienced doenst mean they are good in delivering the laws, still up to observation in the future. Some of  us might argue that , ATC got experienced lecturer there as well and they have a fantastic track record ! Besides, ATC consists of a large, neat,systematic library , the library is the only one that i get impressed with. Also, ATC have better facilities for law student as the have a moot court there. I wouldnt deny any of those arguements , in opposite, i will just have a reply of :" YES , YES, YES and YES.....BUT !  One needs not a moot court to succeed in practicing legal field, it might be an advantages and yet not neccessarily. They have more lawyer like's student and life over there. Quote from an idiom :" Do not judge a book by its cover." Old lame idiom to be used and yet , it is just true enough. Yes, it shows professionalism feeling and get to impress people. But then, having the ability to impressed someone at the first sight and dont have strong capabilities or abilities , more marks will be reduced. Thats what called : LETTING PEOPLE DOWN which in fact will let you down. What i think is , give BAC a try ! who knows it can become another UoL awarded law institution and produces more Kings Scholars ? "

Since i have aimed to enter BAC , i went there and take some forms to be filled up. Then only i get to know that they dont have intake in March and therefore i have to wait for the April's. After working for another one month , i pay them a visit again and registered. The moment i saw those law books , i had a feeling of hugging it ! Hahax, a bit too much isnt it ?  Still , it is true. I am a law addictus without a doubt, especially for Contract Law. For my first year of my law degree , it consists of 4 subjects which are Public Law, Contract Law, Criminal Law and Common Law Reasoning and Institution ( I like the name of it , REASONING just sounds so LAW !) . Public Law has always known as the driest and the most boring subject , i dont really agree with that. In fact, i think i have enjoyed it so far. I love it especially on writing those essays ! It trains me to think ! I have a better understanding of law now as compared to last time by having study on Public Law. The lecturer is Mr Kevin , a young lecturer but have a good delivering skills on Public Law in my honest opinion.Contract Law is the best of course as i used to be the top scorer in my previous college for A-levels , but it is getting more complex and it requires more arguments and analytical mind which i am lacking of . In my humble opinion, Amongst all the lecturers , i dont really think the Contract Lecturer is good enough to teach us . Just imagine he made a mistake on citing wrong issues in certain elements of law and yet not correctable.Okay,we are all layman and ordinary , it is normal that we all did mistakes. So, just admit it and correct it for all's sakes! We may just possibly failed by citing on wrong cases in Intermediate Level. It would be really disastrous ! Criminal Law is then another interesting subject but i still need time to digest it, it is bulky enough. The lecturer is fine with good explanation as he himself is a practicing lawyer. It is somehow too bad to have a lawyer as our lecturer , they tend to have punctuality problem in coming to class. The class will normally start late and finish earlier. In a sense , it is good to let us to loosen our brain's nerves so we won't be out of our mind. I think he dont want us to use insanity to claim as a defence in court if we commit crime and charged. Haha...Another subject which is Common Law Reasoning and Institution and more commonly known as English Legal Sysyem. It is another fun subject to study on , it needs us to memorise on whaht the judges has stated , statutes and cases. ( Well, so do other law subjects.) It basically study on how does the common law comes from , how does the judges being selected , how does the judge decide a case on the question of whether does the jugde make law or bound by its previous decision ( Precedent).  As imposed by the above , i will mention on the lecturer. The lecturer for this subject is a White women who speaks in a quite English tone or i shall say accent . She explained very well in the introduction. It is my mistake since i felt sleepy when listen to her voice , or i shall just say , her voice is a little bit too nice ! I feel like listen to news. On the fact, she does provide useful informations. 

College life has started and apparently , i will make new friends. It is quite different from my previous college where i can rarely have a chance to communicate in mandarin. Well, so far the closest friend i have in class are Freddy,ChongSheng and Wilson and each of them got unique personality. Others would be Tenly, TingTing,Janice, Yasooda, Deepan,Carmen, Mardu and so on. Now , i think i communicte in mandarin more ! Recently get to know a few new friends , namely the Joonlip, Christopher and Adrian. Starting from Freddy then , from Sarawak , good in explanation of the laws and like to share knowldedge. Though we have different opinions on certain issues and we tend to argue it out. Finally i can have someone to talk law with. Hahax...can hardly find friend like this. He have outstanding exposure on journalling, debate and so on. Such a multitalented person. Cant see myself when sitting with him , he is just too bright ! Haha...ANother one would be CHongsheng, the youngest amongst us , not even 18years old and we tend to laugh at him of being under age, in another word , He is still under minor catagory. He seems like immatured ( age wise) , but indeed i personally think he is quite different than others. It is said that he is quite matured in a sense that he thinks differently. Quite a frank and straight forward person i would say. I believe he has got amazing motivation on getting himself to become better. Wilson whereas is a guy who with analytical mind and quite a tolerance person. He will follows and yet have his principle. A bright future businessman with legal knowledge ! WOw..3 of them are just amazing! Another person which should i mentioned is Joonlip, he lives nearby my place and hence he fetched me back last week. He is quite low profile as he always think others are the best, have some knowledge of horoscopes and gonna be a 2nd year student in UPM studying on Computer Science. His interest is on Computer Science and got passion on law ! Being ambitious on becoming a judge rather than legal practitioner. Salute ! Passion or interest, which one is greater ? He decides. Somehow, i think he is smart even if he says he isnt good enough.

So, with all this kind of great badge of law student . Can i say , there's a hope on getting Kings Scholarship from BAC ? 

Guys , cheer up your life with law ! Legal passioner ! 

ThE Recent me .

YOu know what ? life is hectic and quite suffering ( note: i didnt have the intention to suicide though.) I am saying this is not because to make my self a sentimental boy or personality . In chinese's idioms , there is a idiom where it describe a person purposely express the depression just to write a passage or maybe poem , in fact , that person isnt that depressed . I've been come to the stage where lots of things until i cant really write it out . That's why my blog has not being updated for weeks or months ? Now , i am writing this just to update you all , my friends . Junhong is still alive with passion . 

Exams is just around the corner . As what you all know , i failed in sociology paper . That caused my family worry and they restrict almost everything what i want . In one way , i appreciate them and in another way , i dislike the way they all treat me . Please , im am sufisticated and i cant breath anymore ! I have friends , and i finally find the friends who i can share & care for whatever i've gone through . Gosh ...seriously , my emotion is unbalance now. My family can be tell literally , they all care about me. In another way , they care more on what they want on me . 

Internal Security Act ? ISA ? My family is possibly think that what i've done will affect my family's security . Im understandbly in a home curfew order ,I can only whether be in the house , follow wherever they goes , or maybe the pool . My temple's activities is like listed as a prohibited activities even if they dont tell that frankly . Somehow , they'll have something to say and block me . Oh my gosh ! Pity Me ! YES ! With no doubt , it will be far more comfort compare to anywhere . But , thats not what i want ! Junhong is goinng for revolution ? Asking for law reform ! ? Well ...No, it is however my dad is the head of my family . A 100%  Patriachal family . WHat my dad's said will usually an ORDER . 

I am just so unsataisfied with this rule . It might sounds crazy , is this have anythings to do with my situation ? Indirectly , i cannot have much communication with my friends . I can only have communication with lecturer , classmates , and family's members . Well, it is all affected my indirectly . There is a conflict in the deeply side of me , in one way , i am grateful that i have they as my parent . Indeed , very grateful.I know what they have done is for my OWN GOOD ....Ermm..do you find this familiar ? like you had heard of it somewhere ? Well , thats a singapore movie ,  "Im not stupid"...FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. In another way , my activist cells is like gonna burst from my body .  It is just so unfair to have those rules which is without any reason or any unacceptable reason. It is sad that we dont have any court to appeal on ( In my family) . I am now on Home Detention Order maybe thats another better word rather than using ISA . 

Yes , exam is coming. i decided to retake law again as well to improve its grade. I used to hate English legal system very much but now , it is like totally different . Im getting much more interested in English Legal System . It might seems boring , but , it would not be that dull after you get to understand it or get the full picture of it. For sociology , it is still difficult . I am trying my best and do whatever i could . I think i did improved , at least 1% . Hopefully i'll get a better grade this time. Besides , i register myself for Chinese subject . It is a long time that i dont write any essays in chinese . hOwever , i dont think i can ever fail this subject . ( Yea , it is without any lecturer , self study subject .)

Tell you wHat ! ( I gained weight ! ) From 55kg till now 61kg . What a massive change on me ! Well , oh my God !  Why boy cares about theirs weight ! Haha ...my whole family is laughing at me for my changes . The fact is , i am not as skinny as before . I can now wear singlet which last time i dont dare to wear for my Bone-y body . I am getting darker as well compared to last time since i go to swim regularly at least once a week in the afternoon . I dont even notice myself is actually getting darker until when i stand with my little brother . Wow , it makes a clear distinction . My brother used to be labelled as a DARKIE and now i am darker than him ? Haha ... who cares ? I dont at least . I mean not much . Seroiusly , i dont think i am that fat as what my family expressed to me . Maybe more healthier ????  

Oh yeah , when i talk about healthy . I must mention one thing , which is i got hiGH blood pressure ! 19 years old boy and now got high blood pressure . You can imagine how stressful i am . Oh , i am having headache now . Thats the effect of having high blood pressure . Psychologically and physically , i am not stable . I know , whatever happened , i still have to continue with my journey . I still have a long way to go . I wont defeated by these issues , no , It is that i cant . Swimming is of course one way to improve these problems . I likes swimming since i feel so relieve and comfort in water . In another , it is a prevention from getting fatter and fatter . I must also adjust my time , the time i got to bed  must be early . No more burning oil in the midnight . Yes , one thing eventually affect another to change and its changed and changing . Thats the world in the human ( the social animal) , inevitable and nothing actually last long . 

ISA ??OH ??WHAT'S THAT?

The HOT topic which almost all of us discuss about ....

what is that?

Here it goes ..do read !

What is the ISA? The Internal Security Act 1960 (ISA) is a preventive detention law in force in Malaysia. Any person may be detained by the police for up to 60 days without trial for an act which allegedly prejudices the security of the country or any part thereof. After 60 days, one may be further detained for a period of two years each, to be approved by the Minister of Home Affairs, thus making indefinite detention without trial. In 1989, the powers of the Minister under the legislation was made immune to judicial review by virtue of amendments to the Act. Now, only the courts are ‘allowed’ to examine and review technical matters pertaining to the ISA arrest. Since 1960 when the Act was enacted, thousands of people including trade unionists, student leaders, labour activists, political activists, religious groups, academicians, NGO activists have been arrested under the ISA. Many political activists in the past have been detained for more than a decade. The ISA has been consistently used against people who criticise the government and defend human rights. Known as the ‘white terror’, it has been the most feared and despised, yet convenient tool for the state to suppress opposition and open debate. The Act is an instrument maintained by the ruling government to control public life and civil society. The ISA goes against the right of a person to defend himself in an open and fair trial. The person can be incarcerated up to 60 days of interrogation without access to lawyers. The first 60 days A person detained under the ISA during the first 60 days is held incommunicado, with no access to the outside world. Furthermore, lawyers and family members are not allowed access to the detainee during this initial period. Only after a two-year detention order is signed, the detainee is carted off to the Kamunting Detention Centre to serve his or her two-year term, in which family members are allowed to visit. Torture Torture goes concurrently with ISA detention. Former detainees have testified to being subjected to severe physical and psychological torture. This may include one or more of the following: physical assault, forced nudity, sleep deprivation, round-the-clock interrogation, death threats, threats of bodily harm to family members, including threats of rape and bodily harm to their children. Also, detainees are confined in individual and acutely small cells with no light and air, in what is believed to be secret holding cells. These interrogation techniques and acts of torture are designed to humiliate and frighten detainees into revealing their weaknesses and breaking down their defences. Prolonged torture and deprivation have led to detainees signing state-manufactured ‘confessions’ under severe duress. During the first trial of former Deputy Prime Minister Anwar Ibrahim, police told the courts that the process of ‘extracting confessions’ under duress was called “turning over” and suggested it was a standard practice of the police. The Legislation Relevant sections of the legislation are as follows: Section 73(1) Internal Security Act 1960: “Any police officer may without warrant arrest and detain pending enquiries any person in respect of whom he has reason to believe- that there are grounds which would justify his detention under section 8; and that he has acted or is about to act or is likely to act in any manner prejudicial to the security of Malaysia or any part thereof or to maintenance of essential services therein or to the economic life thereof.” Sect 8. Power to order detention or restriction of persons. “(i) If the Minister is satisfied that the detention of any person is necessary with a view to preventing him from acting in any manner prejudicial to the security of Malaysia or any part thereof or to the maintenance of essential services therein or the economic life thereof, he may make an order (hereinafter referred to as a detention order) directing that that person be detained for any period not exceeding two years.” Criticism from within The late Tunku Abdul Rahman, former Prime Minister of Malaysia commenting on the mass arrests of 1987 to a British newspaper, said, “This is becoming more or less a police State … I never dreamt they would resort to those methods of dealing with our citizens. The opposition has the right to talk against the Government, now he (then Prime Minister, Mahathir Mohamad) has arrested all of them.” This aptly sums up the attitude of the government towards popular causes and the opposition.

 

本焕长老之闭关

本焕长老之闭关

My fellow friends , brothers and sisters . 

Here they are , a buddhism movie clip . 

No offence for those who against or others religion believer. 

Failure

History was made , everythings had been recorded by time , and i failed . Thats fact and i couldnt do anythings about it . For the first time in Junhong's academic record , the word "fail" has been dropped down . How sad ! =.= So, everyone here listen up . I failed , Junhong failed . Dont be suprise . What you need to do is remains to be silence and i will find my way. Please dont ask me why and how since i really have no idea . Not enough of hard work ? or maybe smart work ? Not brilliant  enough ? Not enough of coursework ? Not enough of lectures ? or Maybe not enough of oxygen. There are lots of possibilities . 

Seriously , i was speechless when i saw my result silp . It is stated beside sociology - UNGRADED . " WOw , ungrad....ungraded....!"  I know i failed only 1 subject , and that is enough to stop me from pursue a law degree . Generally , i suppose to be very sad . However , i just take 10 second for the sadness and i step out from college . To find a solution . Problem is right in front of me , and i have to find a way to solve it and make it better .

sOrry , dad & mum . I knew you gonna be very disappointed . At the same time , both of u dont wanna hurt me . I am so sorry . Just one step , and i'll be stand in the LLB stage . However , i failed to step on that stage . Please forgive me . 

I hate the way my bro look at me . He look at me as if he is damn happy with my failure . Oh my God ! Thats hurt ! My own brother look down at me ? I cant take it . Nevermind , i will take that freaking smile and i will surely break that smile in the future. I know i am not stupid ! How dare you looking at me in that way ? Im sure u'll be regret very soon . 

                                  笨小孩

哦～ 宁静的小村外 有一个笨小孩
出生在陆零年代
 十来岁到城市 不怕那太阳晒
 努力在柒零年代
 发现呀城市里 朋友们不用去灌溉
 花自然会开

 哦～ 转眼间那么快 这一个笨小孩
 又到了捌零年代
 三十岁到头来 不算好也不坏
 经过了玖零年代
 最无奈他自己 总是会慢人家一拍
 没有钱在那口袋
·）
哎哟 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
不用心情太坏
哎哟 向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开
老天自有安排

哦～ 他们说城市里 男不坏女不爱
 么想也不明白
妈妈说真心爱 会爱得很精彩
结果我没有女孩
笨小孩依然是坚强得像石头一块
只是晚上寂寞难耐
　

哎哟    ! 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
        管它上山下海
哎哟 !    向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开

    老天自有安排
                     老天爱笨小孩

>>>>>>>....我不是笨小孩....<<<<<<

BirthD@Y BIrthday BrithdaY!!!

" Oh ! My Birthday Is comING Soon ! Cant wait for it ! "<=Well , i dont have this kind of feeling . I am not that excited for my birthday . Instead of feeling happy or exciting , i am moody and feeling down in my birthday . I still cant figure out why am i that weird and so different than others . It can be contrast between me and my lovely sister . She was damn happy that day ( Yea, it was yesterday ) and hoping for some kind of celebration for her birthday .A month before her birthday , she is the one who keep remind all of us that her birthday is coming soon in this 5 August . Well , it is irritating when someone keep asking for present from you. I cant really stand with it actually , it was so fortune that she is my sister . Or else , i will just ignore her . How mean am i huh ? Haha ... Dont you think that keep asking birthday present from someone is not the right attitude ? It is just sounds so wrong . Very wrong indeed . Maybe i can think in another point of view , she is brave enough , isn't it ? She must be took lots of guts in order to do that . Ermm...i am not that brave since a present dont really mean that much for me . Anyway , she is my sister and i must try to understand the reason behind it . Maybe she want some attention from us ? Not enough of care ? or what she want is just a purely a celebration . You know what ? I think i got it right for the first guess . She want family's attention , what she want is just a care , a love from all of us . 

How can i notice it ? August , August , what a busy August for birthday celebration . My family had 2 celebration for my sister's birthday both in last sunday and yesterday . Last Sunday, i just back from temple with tiredness and i was exhausted .  When i back to my house , i just given 30 minutes for a bath and of course some basic grooming . After that , my dad brought us to a shopping mall . Oh , maybe a better word is shopping centre , not as comfort as a mall . Did you heard of Niu che sui ? A place nearby damansara or subang i guess . That place is such a boring . I wonder why so much of tourist come over since not much of stalls is open for business . However , it will be nice if u have a seat on Starbuck , Apple Donut Caffe and so on . You can have a luxurious lunch there if u want . What i wanted to say is , it is not a right place to shop . Boutiques there take at least 50% of the place . My mum , my sister and my aunt can shop one by one , that was so amazing ! I was suprised that pirated dvd can be found there . So, i go there and have a look there to find The Mummy 3 . (Note: I havent buy yet , just a look) . You know what i saw ? 80% is Homosexual's Dvd ! GOd ! When i went there and have a look , the promoter said is Cantonese :" All these is Gay movies ."  Those naked men in the cover , act like licking each other body . That was so Yucks ! How can they sell this kind of dvd that openly ? It is legally , morally and ethically wrong . You might ask :"Why do u still stand there since you know you are so offensive to it ? " Well , I am a boy who born with fantastic curiousity . Strong curiousity drive me to stand there and have a look . At least i must have some knowledge about it as a General knowledge . I read about a case of few professionals doctor commited an offence which apply pain on each other body and pin their testicles and penis on the wall . The case is R v Brown(1993) .  Apparently , they are all homosexual or maybe bisexual . Thats make me wonder why people like to be punished in they are all consent to it . Here is all about the case , if u interested , try to read it . It is a very long judgement . R v Brown (1993) case judgement . 

All right , done with that and we back to the topic . After that , I and my brother together with my dad went for lunch and leave those ladies enjoy themselves  . I was starving at that time man ! Okay , let makes everything short, my sister finally bought a skirt and yeah , after hours of walking and just 1 skirt ?  Hahaha ... is that worth it ? Maybe , maybe not .On our way to go back home , we passed by a Neway Karaoke building . An idea suddenly fly through my dad's mind , and he suggested :" Why dont we celebrate the birthday in Neway Karaoke box ? " Haha..all of us agreed and my aunt called to neway and booked a K-box . 

Yes , we then have a buffet dinner at Neway Cheras Plaza by around 7pm . I am nOw 19 years old and thats the first time i step into a Karaoke Box .  The first time , and the environment there is not bad , quite classy and comfort as well . The buffet is quite delicious too. We take only around 30 minutes for the buffet then we all started the main activity - SING . Frankly speaking , I can now sing . Haha... The modern song somemore . Haha...My cousin was drunk and he cant even put down the mic . He brought the mic along him even he get into toilet . What a funny guy . Seriously , i rather to sing myself but not listen to his voice . He was ShouTing ! My eardrum was suffering that time !  My grandma was feeling sick that time , she felt so sick  , so my uncle fetch her back . Then , a call from my grandma reached to my uncle and she said she need to seek for medical check up . The Happy atmosphere suddenly disappeared . My parent then said they will go back and bring grandma to doctor and ask us to continue . How can i having so much of fun when my grandma is now suffering there ? I was totally in an unbalance feeling that time. Then i realise that i should continue since i should know that my parent will do their best for grandma . So , we continue and sing again . Please dont ask me what song i sang , i cant really remember , numerous of songs . Yeah , quite a lot , for me . Song by Jacky cheong , Leehom , Yoga and etc... My uncle who is now 40 years old will always challenge those high note type of song even he cant really reach that. I went in and out to get the recent updates on my grandma and i cant concentrate on those song's lyric . When i get to know that my grandma don't have much of problem and stable , i felt so relief . The guiltiness inside me is however still struggling with my mind . I must at least accompany my parent to the medical centre but not singing there .  It was so fortune that my grandma situation is optimistic now after she got the injection from doctor . She lost her appetite to eat , i can only get her to drink a little bit of milo and thats all . 

Nevertheless , I think my sister has become more mature ( I mean her thinking, she is still a young teenage girl though. ) . I asked her :" Is it okay that we stop everything if something bad happen to grandma ? " She answered :" It is totally okay ! no problem ." I tell you , thats without deep thinking . Finally , she grown up . Yeah , thats my sister . Hopefully she wont let me down and room for improvement . However , it doesn't mean that she has the ability to protect herself yet . At this point , she is still my little sister and i'll still do my best for her. Overall , everything going smoothly that day besides my grandma . Quite frustrated that day actually. Yes , it was fun at the same time ( i mean the karaoke session). I am not karaoke addicted though . Everything come to the end finally and i was shock when we make the payment . It cost us a RM555.50 . Oh my God !!! Thats too expensive , the nuts which i think it would be cheap and it cost us 60++ for that .  Dont you think that it is unreasonable ? 

On my sister's birthday which is 5th August , we had another celebration as well . ( Huh? I thought u all hav celebrated it ?)... Yea , indeed . HOwever , it will be rather awkward if there's nothing special in the actual birthday. So, we bought cakes . Yes , right, cakes . We had 2 cakes that day coinsidentaly . My so called brother & sister , choonfei and suiling sis bought us a secret recipe cheese cake . That was so wonderful . 

--UnSToppable NErvouSness---P@SSion EsTOpel!

Unstable , Unbreathable and Un-sleep-able , I having insomnia recently . The negativity which i always been trying to hide is now leaking from my inner self . I just cant sleep and i wonder why ? Now, i've figure it out though . The faith which my brothers and sisters had given me is really burdening me so much , stressful enough to make me failure in sleep . They are peoples who i respect so much , and i appreciate them too . I don't wanna let them down . I trying to be as stable as i can these days. Indeed , i am not . Depressed . I try to be as busy as possible to make me forget about the A-levels result .  I just cant stop thinking about it . Trying to think of others people and forget about myself. Trying to be more humorous  to make some positivity . Am i happy ? Yes , in a sense that i feel happy for others and it is a NOT from me . I am absolutely not happy for the current me . Remember what i've posted last week ? Yesterday is history and tomorrow is history , but today is a gift , that's why it called the PRESENT . I failed to apply it . I still live in the past since i always thinking of the past "ME" . In others people's view , which included my friends and my family's member , they have an impression that i am a SMART boy who always doing fine academically. Yes , i am not the excellent one but at least just fine ! After form 3 and i did quite good in PMR  , my result was keep dropping . Honestly , i did bad in SPM too , I cant even score 6As man ! Okay , nevermind . I have enough distinctions and credits that can get me into any Pre-U course . Now , A-levels turns . The result will be release soon in this coming 10th August 2008 . My lord Buddha ! I cant failed ! I cant failed ! I must at least got a pass in any subject which i take . SouNds funny ? It is what popping in my mind right now though . My brother asked me once :" Cant u take failure easily?" and i can't answer that question . In the depth of myself , I whispered :" Yes , i really cant take any failure in my academic !" I cant afford that ! I cant take it ! Even a "C" grade is killing me ! What about fail then ? I can easily score well in exams last time(WEll, at least i can take it ) and now i cant .

I really need to get through ! Or else ?????????? Please ! Pursue a law degree means so much to me ! It is my future !  I am damn stressed right now . I love law and i enjoy reading it ! I dont wanna see these expression :" What? Junhong failed ! U gotta be kidding  me ! Impossible !" I am thinking too much now . The me right now is either sleep too much cause of tiredness or CAnt sleep cause of stressfulness . TOTALLY IMBALANCE . NO NO NO , please , not right now , i cant fail any subjects ! My mind is in a mess .... unstable .... My friends will think that i am quite a tough boy since i helped my secondary school's friend to solve their problem. Now , the challenge comes and i cant take it ! No ! It is not the challenge ! Tragedy ! It is however not a tragedy yet since no one know my result yet .I hope it is not gonna be a tragedy ! If i get through , i am sure i wont let it happen to me ! This is the first time ever i say this and it is the last time as well . If i get through , i will do what ever i can to help people in their academic and whatsoever problem they face . People will always promise to themselves in this way to make them feel better . However , it is my vow , it is my promise and it is my destiny to always get ready for help . Thats why, i cannot fail . 

Insomnia is still along me now and i cant take it anymore....Am i tough enough ? and those who always labelled themselves as a tough guy , R u tough enough ? I know only one guy who is that tough and still tough and he is the legend to me . I can hardly achieve that level of toughness . 

Way of lIfe.

Blogging seems to be bcome part of my life since this March . Have you ever think of what lifE do u prefer ? Life is a simple word , Yes , it seems easy but indeed it is not . I wouldnt be scare to say that most of us live in a meaningless life .>>> Ouch !! What a slap i get frm u ! <<<

 I knew it gonna be hurtful enough to admit yourself is actually having a clueless life . You might noticed one sentence and u may be the one who always use it or get used to it , gIVE u a clue : This word is always use to greet someone , u might have a glance of it in friendster , facebook  or any networking website. ErMmm...Yes ? No ? Anyone get it ? Or u r really clueless right now ? All right , the sentence is HOW'S LIFE ?  Without knowing where and how's ur life heading is just as we floating in the sea , where the wind blows then where we goes . One of my lecturer who taught me Sociology in my A-levels give us a quote from a philosopher which is :"I think therefore i am ." What do u think ? I gave my definition on this statement and my lecturer neglected it , then he give the correct one . In my point of view , there are no fix answer for this . For example , i've read one of my friend's blog which indirectly indicates everyone have different point of view . I think it would be a good idea to introduce his blog . Here is the blog , take a look at it . WILENG'S BLOG . Im sure u will at least gain something by reading it. 
I grabbed some pics from his blog , it is not copyright though...
                             
   Take a look at the below pictures, WHAT do u see ?
   
                                                      

Picture A: An oldman with spec Or a word "LIAR"?

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                      Picture B : GOOD or Evil ?


The purpose i upload these pics is to share a simple theory , No matter what you answer u give .We tends to argue that yours one is wrong but mine is correct .  It is very rare that we will think of  WE ARE BOTH CORRECT . According to the pictures i showed in the above , Both are correct , one can see the man and the word LIAR as well . Both is the perfect answer . Both .
As to that , In regards to the quote given by my lecturer , it is opined that both of us is actually correct as long as it means something to us and affect us in a positive way . All right , seems like i've gone to far away from what i want to say . ' I think therefore i am' , Man who never thought of their life is eventually damage themselves , thats my definition . What's my lecturer said before ? I've forgotten , sorry for that . From what i understand from that statement , We should get get rid off the dead chair and start thinking to avoid forming a living body without soul , NOW . I am not command anyone of you to do anything , but just to summon up your realisation on your life. We should at least think of what is the purpose for what i working on , we work for what , Why are we study ?  For those people who never work and keep studying , getting one degree then another degree , even if he/she got tons of Phd , what is his life then ? 
For example , one might earn billions in a days , then he sit there and wait for another billions to his pocket . What do you think ? 

By the way , Anyone of u watched "KUNGFU PANDA"? There's a memorable quote from the honorable tortoise :" Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it 'the present.'  We tend to live in the past , and we tend to curious and wanted to know what is coming is the future and we seldom think of what are we doing now and Is it appropriate to do such a things ? In Buddhism , there's a teaching in Diamond Sutra where is "We shouldn't have the thought of past,now,and future ." What the lord buddha trying to say is :" LIVE IN THE PRESENT."When we are driving , we will try to think of what is gonna happen tomorrow , but then , u know what is gonna result ? I 'll show u ----> BANG ! And ur car is crashed into little pieces . Is that what u want ? As what the tortoise master said in Kungfu Panda , Today is a gift and thats why it is called the Present . Since it is a gift , why don't we get fully use of it and appreciate every moment ? 

Due to the purpose of living , i got a friend who was my classmate in past . She is a girl who is so determined and so clear on what she gonna do . She is very honest and she don't like to pretend, always tells things in a frank way . She is honest enough to tell me that she want to be rich! Last day during exams period , most of us hanging around classes to classes , teacher seems to have so much faith on us and thats why don't really teach in that period . She will find a place to crack those books . She isn't those book-worm type of person but she clearly bare in her mind on what she wanna achieve. I guess , thats what make her scored quite well in SPM . She wont really care what's gonna happen and what had happened , But do better now. As what she told me , she gonna pursue a medic degree after her A-levels . She don't really interested in medic but she do it for her family-her parents . Mans do things for reasons . As long as what she did , benefit herself and peoples . I think it is okay to make that decision . 

What do u want in your life ? Money ? Working position? ...etc...Think and make sure you wont regret forever . You can make a different . You can make changes. You are the modifier , you are the creator and Thats your life . LIVE IN PRESENT.

Here is a movie clip from Kungfu panda where the tortoise master made a conversation with the panda. 

Unexpected

HelO , WeLCome back to my blog ! My holidays started since 31th May , I didnt look for any jobs , i didnt join any trip and i didnt register myself for any seminar ...ermm....YET . ThOse people who dont know me will have an impression which they will think that my life is meaningless and unfruitful . It is true in a sense , indeed it is quite true just IF i stay at home. Life like this is making me halfly dead ! It is has quite a times i do not update my blog . You know why ? I have nothing to write but lots of thinking and dont know where should i start . These meaningless life is handicapping in thinking . Last times , i can easily write a blog but now , I just starred at the pc and think . Keep thinking .... My heart whispered :" What Is HAppenning to me ?" I mean my brain which the usage is less than 10% . 

I feels like i am a blank paper . TotAlly blank ! Brain is need to be train well so that it can be maintain in a fit condition . Or ....oR , what i think is processing in a fast way until i dont know what should i write ? Too much of thinking is making me insane ! No , it should be contruct is this way :" TOO MUCH OF THINKING WITHOUT ANALYSING IS MAkiNG ME INSANE ." Seriously , i feels like manythings which is unexpected had come to my life . Last saturday , i attend the class which conduct by buddhist society and the teacher touch on the issue of brothership . At the moment , the image of my so-called brother suddenly pop out frm my mind . Poor him , if i am now claiming that i went through so much of hardship , what is him them ? He is now facing such a big problem .I wont disclose so much here , but at least you all will get a basic picture on what had happened . I KnOw this friend for almost 10 years ! For the past few years , we shares our thought on studies , method in life , Idea on buddhism ideology .I finally come to understand that Friendship is hardly maintain . It is NOt a simple individual based but two peoples or maybe more . The in common must be achieve in a balance way . Thats Friends. If we follow the method given by the lord buddha . The six ways for people to stay together which will of course result in a calm and peaceful way . Wanna know what is it ? Curiosity in your mind is killing you ? Haha...well , e-mail me and i'll let you knOw . 

These days , swimming seems to be the only healthy lifestyle that i have . I like swimming . Yeah ...thats rather obvious , i know . wHY ? why swimming ? I wont deny if u said that i am a water boy . : i AM not saying that i am a fantastic swimmer or excel in swimming but i feel so release when i get into water , I feels like its my home .> Dont laugh at me ! Its true , it is not a truth in a factual context , but it is just so true in describing my feeling . Blue-y water , white-y beach , windy feeling , warm-y sun . YOu may have a conclusion on what is my favourite colour : BLUE and whIte . You may include Black as well , it does not means mysterious to me but it is the only colour which can contrast the white . I need to know the wrong way in order to know what is right , at the same time , i need to understand what is right in order to establish the wrong . Both of it is overlapping each other . 

Time flies , here come the JULY . Thats how horrible the time is , now u see and nOw u dont . Here come the JULY and August is just right after it . THats fast ! My result gonna come out and i really hope that i'll get through . I am not expecting i can pass it with flying colour but oNly passes . Im so nervous ! Someone please calm me down .  please .... Cold water will do fine ! ...

One more thing which i was and still curious about it .  It is all about one of the closest people in our life ! Our ? Uh..huh ? it hav something to do about me ?  I would answer you : Yea , Definately . It is all about father , dad in another word .  hOW DO u spend your Father's day which just past months ago ? I noticed one phenomena where people tend to have a grand celebration on Mother's day , but , when come to father's day , people will pretend like as if they dont know when is father's day . DOnt ask me how can i notice it . I wondered and now still wondering . 

NIce song with Touching lyrics

当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄无言
看今天更光鲜
别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多倦
在那很美很炫的童话境界
我还拿着青蛙王子的剑
来披荆斩棘驱恶除奸这感人画面
为幸福为明天
梦不一定要实现
心就会有更辽阔空间
用想象才能够飞得高飞得远
当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄无言
看今天更光鲜
别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多倦
在这无悔无怨的内心世界
我遇见了美丽从容的脸
和酸甜苦辣意义长篇
但是我情愿为感动为明天
痛虽然有深有浅
泪擦干那就会好一点
风虽然看不见,但自由无极限

平静的天空，象美丽的图画

我睁大眼睛去寻找，寻找一颗星
动人的旋律，无界限的空间
宇宙中最亮的，就是那颗守护星

有一天，你对我说，童话的梦会成真
请不要再忧虑，这个天空属于你
明天曙光依旧会来临

有一天，我对你说，你是我的守护星
未来的日子，不必害怕
你将真情给我，我会用心来回应你”

We have seen a lots of news about the situation of the victims who is now suffering by the cause of natural disaster .Especially the childrens there , how are they going to continue their entire life without parents or dissapearance of their closest relatives ? 

Children , Dont give up.

孩有明天,所以还有明天.

HOlidays ....WHolely dead ?

After 30th of May , my holidays was started . My friends who are going to sit for economics papers will only finish theirs paper on 13 JUNE , i guess . The result will only release on August . This indicates that i'll have 2 months holidays approximately . I knw someone might ask me :" Why dont you search for works , it is a good way to spend times and can earn some money ." Yes , i agreed with that view . However , i plan to improve myself in another way . I will start my english course which i stopped for months , i knw it is a waste of times to attend that course . It is a waste of money too if i dont go for the class . It cost >RM3000 FOR the whole course which the durations is 18months too . I will train myself in badminton playing skills and also swimming . Questions then come . WHy badminton ? Haha...how psychic am i ? haha, ermm... My little brother is a badminton fans and a good player in badminton , so-called an active guy ! He is an arrogant and he got some kind of ego attitude . As a brother , i think i got duty to guide him to a right path . iN order to do that , i must impress him in many ways . ( I goTTA beat him in badminton's skills !)... Last times , he played china's chess quite well , and i know nothing about china chess . So , he tend to laugh at me when i lose . So i tell him :" i am not a loser , just that i dont used to play chess and dont knw the skills . " So , i played with him and i lose  quite a rounds . I speak to myself :"it is okay to lose , as long as it is a way for my to improve myself . It is fine !" At last , i won . He is like amazed by my winning ! haha .... Now, another game turn - BADMINTON . So i will follow the same method . Failure in the way to success ! As long as i can assimilate into his world , it is okay for me to be a LOSER .

wELL,Holidays is always the most relaxing period . For me , it is not . I got a lots to think about and plan ! I might be seems so relax , but it is indeed one of my planning to achieve my mission  . The outcome is coming soon in the future ! Last Sunday , I went to Genting Highlands . It was not a planned trip ! But an trip that out of my expectation , it is purely an coinsidence . On the same day, i have a gathering with my primary's school's friends . We dont get to meet and see each others for years . Seriously , it is a rare chance ! I must now express my appologise and appreciation to Lai Tin Wei who organised the gathering . It's sad that i cant attend that gathering . I was forced to go by my siblings . I might not a good friends or student , but i am a Good brother ! No one can deny that ! You know what i good brother will do , right?

I think Tinwei may  sue me in breach of Contract . First , it is opined that there's a bilateral contract between 2 of us which is a promise for a promise . So, i am indeed the offeree who asked for the gathering , then Tinwei is the Offeror who accept my promise to organise a gathering .Patridge v Crittenden .There is a valid consideration even thereis only orally promise , i am however got the practical benefit .William v Roffrey Bros. In fact he organised the gathering so that i get the chance to meet with my primary school's friends . There is no misrepresentation and any mistake since everything made clear in phone . However , he might sue me . But , i can argue that the act of him is not a valid consideration since it is not specifically for my benefit . Besides , there's no intention to be bound legally since it is only a party . It means at the early times ,the contract is not even exist ! In fact , I do not promise him that i'll come . It is just purely his assumption for my attendancy . The claim will however fail at last !  

However, I do feel guilty for that . I will organise another gathering to show my confession and my faithfulness . Take notes that i do not state Where ,When and How .

All right , whatever ! It is in fact i went to GENTING with them . ....THEM?? My aunt's family and her friend's family . It has been years i dont go to Genting ! As all of us know ,This place is cool & Cold tourism destination. We reached there by around 8pm and then we check in . I like the hotel the most , it is so comfort ---a nice place to rest & sleep ! --- I am a sleeping addictor . 

  Highland's Hotel outview

Upperview from the Room

After we checked in , we had dinner at a classy restaurant , the decorations there is attractive and it is comfortable. It gave us a very good first impression . The food there will only get a C from me if they need me to grade it  . Not to say it is bad and disgusting but it is just not up to the standard , it is just totally opposite with the atmosphere of the restaurant. Anyway, i will still thank my aunt for giving us such a comfort dinner (not applicable to say it nice ..hehe...sorry...). After that , we then go to watch a magic show (so-called) . I like the lighting effect and the music there . For the show , it is just SO-SO (comme si cOMMe sa -french) .It is not that i am so critique but the show is just bad ! I fall asleep when the show is going on . On that night , Me and my siblings went to starbucks and enjoy the cappucinno there . The main purpose is of course to surf net there . Haha....cant spend my days without checking my mail.

Show time- DREAMZ

The day after the show , we went to outdoor games . Seriously , the price is rather unreasonable for me , it cost RM 190 for 4 persons . The games is fun and exciting , Especially the wAter boat , that is so risky ! Besides that , the indoor games is so boring . I am wondering why those people can stay inside with those boring games for hours and hours . I think i prefer the Snow House ! It sounds and look so new for me , White snow falling from the top . Wow , the feelings is so Syok ! As what people do inside , we play with the snow . I felt so cold , however i am not shivering as others do . I am wondering why is it my immunity system become stronger than usual ? Maybe i get used to the coldness already since my college is just extremely cold and i still be able to stand with it without my jacket . 

My Younger Brother is undercover 

The Coffee Terrace

The most exciting period is when i get back to the hotel and get to take some sleep . The last day in Genting , we all had breakfast at Coffee Terrace . The Buffet there is okay , not to say it impress me but at least the service there is good and satisfy my needs . I have no idea whether it is a well-known buffet restaurant or not . From what i see , it is well managed . The designs of it do created a comfort atmosphere. Unfortunately , the buffet there is not completely serve yet. The sushi is still not ready yet . Overall , everythings is average. Right after that , we all straight away rush to hotel and then halfly dead lying there - SLEEP !!!!

Maybe u will say that GENTING is a nice place , why i descibed it as if it is a nightmare to me ? It's a very subjective matter where it really depends on each individuals . This place is just not belong to me , not my place . I prefer beach !!! tHE sun , the beach with white sand , the sea !! This Holidays is almost make me wholely dead . GOsh ! mOnths to go ! 

It IS still not done yet ... HOLIDAYS!

FiNallY or What ?

       

FiNally ? Done ? 

You might wondering what am i heading with ? What is the purpose to put such a title ? 30th MAY 2008 , That day is just suppose to be the happiest day i ever have . Ermm , am i saying that i am sad ? Argh...huh ..... NOt realLY . Instead of saying that i am sad , i am disappointed . I think i am a negativity absorber recently . Why is it ? I think i prefer to be bitten by a spider and have super ability . However , by having the grateful and appreciation , i think those negativity can at least neutralise . All right , lets back to the main topic . 

 

Notes + Laptop=preparation?

 

Coffee & I for the exams

Yesterday is the last day for my exam which i sat for the last paper - TORT LAW . This law is deal with negligence(form of injury suffered) , Trespass to land , Escape property , Private Nuisance , Occupier's liability and Trespass to person. Well, it is not all part of the tort law but at least what i stated is within my syllabus . Amongst all the law that i studied , Tort law is my favorite law subject . In a common understanding , it wont be suprise if i master this law . Not to say that i mastered the topic already , at least i understand the topic quite well . I prepared and i memorised most of the relevant cases . When i sit in the exam hall , i have the feeling to answer the questions confidently . It is sad that i spend too much times on the first question , so i dont have enough time to finish the third question(which is the last question) . I just roughly wrote down all the points or relevant cases . It is however not enough to score a high band in the question since i do not juxtapose every details of the fact with the law . I guess an 'A' just pass by with me but then it left . I think i can score better in Contract law if compared to Tort law .

Outcome of exam = panda eyes

Okay , law is done . Now , another subject i took which i dont understand the subject at all ! - SOCIOLOGY. It is a subject which study on the society in varies of perspective - for example Marxist theory ( I think you heard of Karl Marx , right ?) . For 5 months i attended the sociology lecture and i do not really flip on the sociology notes. I admit that i always study last minutes . I dont study unless the exam is coming . I attend for the lectures and i do assignments . Thats all . I do not have enough times to study all the chapter packs . So , i'll do what i always do - SPOT QUESTIONS . I flipped through all the pass year questions and do some Analysis , so to speak . As a result , i just read on the answers on the questions which i spotted . In fact , i dont have the answer but i prepare the answer by myself . I am not saying that i am smart , okay ? I have no choice but to prepare the answer ! The point is it might be wrong ! Haha , you will really suprise for the risk i taken . Yeah , i am a risk taker ! Dont ever think that it is good . Thank god that i manage to answer the questions . What i spotted do come out . Out of 12 questions , i need to answer 3  and it is just nice that the 3 questions i studied came out . WOOO....Only 3 man ! I am so lucky ! However , i dont think what i have written is what the examiners expected .

Yes , the exam is finally done . I just hoping for 2 principle passes . If i failed for sociology ! I cant imagine that i gotta re-sit it in this November . I dont want to see those sociologist anymore. This is why the above title stated as "IT IS STILL NOT DONE YET !" . It might seems like everything is finished , it will only finish when i got 2 passes . I am just so worry ! PLEASE , LET ME PASS AND I WONT BURN MIDNIGHT OIL AGAIN ! 

Today is the 31st MAY , it means that i have almost 2 months to go ! My college mates suggest that we'll have a trip to travel . Where ? In theirs options , there's a lots places ! Redang , Bukit Merah , somewhere with hotspring , they even suggest to travel in Thailand ! Seriously , i dont like thailand . It just full with mysterious in my point of view. Hehe....of course i prefer Redang , it is my dream island ! Wherever they planned to go , i will surely join them since after that we will all separate . Some of them will back to JB . All of us is future litigator !!! So , when is it going to be ? haha.... Some negotiation still going on there .

It is now i have to think of how am i going to spend this 2 months . Most of my friends is working but i dont think i am going to work even i hope to . In this coming 2 months, i will have to deal with Library Management , work on Yuan Rong's society's website and also i'll improve myself physically and psychologically. I promised to play badminton with my brother and i promised myself to swim once in a week . Besides , the most complicated things i have to settle is Buddhist Society SMK TMN CONNAUGHT . Such a problematic badge i have ever seen ! Selfishness is always the biggest problem . Also , i have to read on SPM notes so that i can guide my sister in her SPM ! Seriously , It is tiring to be a brother internally or externally( the world outside) . They are most likely not going to appreciate what you have done . That is the things. After everything you have done , they'll just say:" thats your business ." They will defence themselves by apply the rule of " VOLUNTI NON FIT INJURIA", this defence is very likely to be succed in the court . This means you consent to it . They will blame us at the end . Yea , where is justice ?? It is however i will keep going to take care of people around me . I might not have the ability but i have the willingness .

I have no idea whether what i planned is workable or not . Hopefully it will . To all , please pray for me ya! So that i can get through in my exam ! I believe by having the positivity of you all will summon the universe to arrange a happy ending for me . 

 

bATTLE WITH tiME!

一个无私的情怀 Mother's heart

母亲之日已消逝，

母亲之节已过去，

这一切一切似乎已经在世俗眼光离去，

世人感恩之心似乎也只是幻象。

当天，

我们聚餐庆祝，

孝心煞是显眼，

可是，

我们都把眼光放在桌上的珍肴，

您没有一丝毫怨意。

然而，

在您的眼界中，

每一个角落，

都有我们。

母亲，

您把我置放在阳光下，

深怕我受到黑暗的恐惧。

当阳光稍微灼热，

您只身挡之，

也不敢让我们离开阳光，

因为，

您要给我们一丝丝的温暖。

母亲，

若把您与阳光做对比，

似乎不当，

因为您所做的都超越阳光。

阳光只能温暖我之形体，

而您的细心照料，

却能冷热兼备，温暖十分。

母亲，

您好比母鸡但亦超越母鸡，

当我遇到挫折以及遭到不平，

您犹如路见不平的侠者，

为我伸张正义 ，

呵护我，深怕我受到伤害，

老鹰也见状而逃。

母亲，

我知道您在面对老鹰之时，

内心恐怖万分，

可因我，

让您使出您那无私的情怀。

宁可让自己受伤，

也不愿让我受伤。

因为我，

您曾经在地狱门前徘徊，

与阎王斗个死活，

为的是让我这个小生命平安的来到这里。

本来的一双玉手，

为了我，

经过污物的洗涤，

现在也逐渐粗糙，

无论您怎样的遮掩以及保养。

您手上的痕迹，

对于我来说，是清楚可见。

我没有一个精明头脑，

让您在亲朋面前沾光，

我没有一个英俊的脸孔，

让您在戚友面前赞扬，

可是，

我可以确定得是，

我有您的基因，

我同样可以无私的奉上孝心。

也因为这份孝心，

造就了今天的我，

为了让您满足，

我与先天性蠢拙的我奋斗，

为了让您放心，

我与先天性体弱的我并搏。

今天的我，

不算完美无暇，

但又晶莹剔透的心。

一切一切，不会搏红颜一笑，

且只是慈母的满足。

堂上佛二尊，

弟子奉心礼。

谢谢您，母亲。Thanks .

Friends , when mother's day is coming , we all celebrate it. Nowadays, a mother's day is more likely to be a grand dinner which to satisfy our tongue but not a day to express out appreciation to our lovely mother . It is a fact . Try to think about it . I am sure that you will more or less agree with my view . 

EX@m,exam,and Exam ; Future,future&FuturE .

Exam is just around the corner . Well , we tend to compare between STPM & A - level . Well , it is sad that i am also one of them to put STPM&A level into comparison . This is one of the reason why i finally choose A-level. People said , people said and people said , everythings is hearsaid statements which is not reliable indeed . STPM is very difficult! Thats what i heard.

All right , i am now studying Cambridge A-level and going to compete soon . It doesnt seems as easy as people thought . In fact , i think it is just so difficult since we do not have any model answer for any subjects . We only have guidelines . Besides , the Cambridge examiners also very strict in term of marking essays . We cant even really forecast or predict our result accurately. Also , the usage of vocabulary in the question is really freaking me up !( I have poor language proficiency, well , thats why...) I am not saying that STPM is easier or simpler . Please take note that i am not taking both of it for any comparison . It is just 2 different scheme or mode of exam . An easy conclusion: Nothing easy in this world . Whatever you have decided , if you dont put any effort on it , it wont result in a good way . 

Just let you all know my exam timetable : 

20th May - Sociology paper 2 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

I have to answer 2 questions out of 3 . Each question have 4 sections . This paper will total up as 50% of my marks . 

22nd May - Sociology paper 1 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

I have to answer 2 questions here as well but both from different sections . This paper will take 50% weight of my marks .

27th May - Law paper 3 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

This is a Contract law's paper where all the elements of the contract comes here. Formation of a contract , Intention to create legal relations , Vitiation , Remedies . It is a tough subject where i have to answer 3 questions out of 6 choices in just 1 1/2 hours . Time management and writing speed is very important here . Of course the most significant one is the law & the cases .

               - Sociology paper 3 - from 2pm to 5 pm .

You might know how depth the Cambridge wanna test us by seeing the time given. 3 hours .I need to answer 3 questions out of 6 sections . Since my lecturer wont have time to complete the syllabus . So what he taught is just enough for me to answer 3 sections which means there's no backup .  The 3 areas are Crime & Deviance , Religion , Family & Household . To memorize those sociologist & the studies or the research is creating an havoc in my head !  

30th May - Law paper 4 - from 10am to 1pm .

This is an exam on tort law , which i interested the most . The areas being covered are Negligence , Occupier's liability , Private Nuisance , Rylands v Fletcher ( Escaped property) , Tresspass to Land , Tresspass to person , Defences . Eventhough i think it is interesting to study , but it is very tough when come to exam . 

I did not go for the mock exam today , my lecturer did not inform us yesterday or last week . I dislike those last minutes works from him . I knew i gonna get zero mark for that . As long as i dont get zero in the real exam is okay then . 

After 30th May , i am free . I hope i can score well . Law - A , Sociology - C is enough . If i get it through , then i can choose which university or college i wanna enter . The questions comes again ---- UK (2+1 twinning) or Malaysia ???? I am now standing in both sides . It is a tough choice . I dont deny that i am willing to go overseas to get the experience there , i dont deny that i have a lot of things which i cant easily just leave like that . In fact , my dad have the intention to let me study abroad .  

All right , today is 13th May , a weeks more which is so short !!!! JunHOng . You can do it !!! erMM....I can do it ! I am now finding a place where i can really study . My house is suppose to be the best , but after my cousin sister came . She is totally affecting my study life . 

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LUck Or FaiTH . cAuse & EffECT .

What is happening ? What is going on ? Wow.....I am wondering why is it bad luck keep following me ? Even if i stay away from it by using what " The Secret" had taught me , It still be able to track me  ! Maybe i should say , my mindset is still not stable yet , the negative taught get started after i dont get the chance ( refer to previous post of my blog). It cant be stop man ! I think it eventually attract many bad things happen to me . First accident by Grand Livina , Nissan , Second accident by Camry , Toyota . Both of it have similarity where i met with an unreasonable driver . Of course the recent accident is much more worst , it is indeed cannot be consider as an accident . I am innocent !!!!!

Haiz...It is an unforgetable incident . This tuesday, 6 May 2008 , i fetched my brother to tuition centre nearby . After he got out from the car , i left as usual . I use a small road ,where most driver likely to use that road to leave the tuition centre. Since i am not use to the camry yet , which it is such a big car for me . So , i drive it very carefully that and always be aware of cars around me . When i turned left , a motocycle with a indian driver suddenly appear in front of my car and asked me to stop . I saw his face expression , i have a feeling that this guys is with bad intention . I can understand his body language which he meant i cause the injury of his motorcycle . It is just weird and awkward since i dont think so i bang any vehicles . It is in fact i drove very slow and there should'nt be enough space for another motorcycle to fit at my left side . He keep asking me to stop and i dont because i did nothing wrong . I ignored him and drive to my house then . When i am on the way back , i noticed he was following me . I finally stopped and ask him what he want . He then shows his fierce face and mumbling some words which i dont understand . He speak malays and i comes to understand that he said my poor driving caused him to bang his motorcycle to a rocks which results some form of damages . His broken Malay lauguage is really annoying me , and i dont used to talk malay . I replied him and said:" I ....saya ...go back to rumah ....ayah ....." Oh my Gosh , i cant even really speak Malay properly now ! I REBUT him by saying that i did not bang him . So his motorcycle shouldnt be that badly injured. He mumbling again and raise his hand and turn off my car ! I am totally shock !!! Just that moment , my hands and legs is like shivering already . I am so nervous  and freak out . So , i ask him directly how much he want to repair . I gave him RM20 and he said all right . When i reached home and parked my car . He then appear in front of me with another indian guy . He is claiming that RM20 IS NOT ENOUGH . He act as if he got the Oscar award , his acting skills is really good man!!! I am really afraid that moment since i dont know what they will do to me . When i nervous , my mind is totally blank . All my law knowledge is gone , only one word appear in my mind : HELP !!! It is an ashamed for a law student ! 

After that , my mum, my cousin sister ( who i borrowed car from her - the camry is owned by her ) , my neighbour ( who is so close to my mum) came out and started to talk to them . He said i am the one who " SALAH"!!!  My mum is like so believe on him . My cousin sister then say her car dont even have anything crashed if i bang the motorcycle. The indian then changed what he said , and say that i over turned left and cause him to avoid from my car which caused him bang to some rocks . 

In my mind , i then think that why is it he can still drive after bang to the rocks . I mean he can get up so fast ?????  In fact , my car dont even have a small touch with the motorcycle.  Now , he said that he gonna give me back 20bux and want us top repair for him . AFter 30 minutes discussion , my mum decided to repair for him in a reason that afraid he will disturb my family if we report and do nothing . The head of the gangster then want us to go to the motorcycle service shop nearby. We are okay with it. Before we go there , my indian neighbour come back . My mum then ask him to accompany us to go there and talk to them . All right , finally i have someone who understand English . I explained everything to him and he trying to talk to them .

WOw , you know what ? It is do ridiculous ! The motorcyclist is like taking advantage on us and claim everythings on us !! Want us to repair here and there. ....In a logic way , his motorcycle suppose to have injury on the left side . He is now claiming for the right side too . The head of the gangster then arrived and said that we do not need to repair that much for him . He said :"Just the head of the bike ONLY." whO will know that the HEAD will cost us for RM480 ?????

I THINK the repairer also in their's side and taking advantage to earn more . It is now very obvious that he trying to put me in wrong which indeed i am not . My mum then get to know that i am innocent . woHooo.......I take a deep breathe . However , i am there and just dreaming . Almost no feeling . What am i dreaming there ? Well, i am thinking that why am i the one ? Why is it me again ? Me again ?? That night , my brother choonfei dont really revise for his exam but listen to my story . That night , i having insomnia , cannot sleep well. My heart is bumping so fast . Oh My buddha ! dEPresssion is killing me ! I am depress because why am i still a small little boy ? Why is it my mum protect me but i am the one being protected ? I want to be a man who protect people i love . Now , it is proven that i am not able to do that. I dont have the wisdom and not stable enough to face these. Can you imagine a lawyer get terrified when deal with client ? IT IS SO funny ! 

The day after that , i went to find my brother at his office . Although he dont have law qualification but he do have legal background with his political experience . He taught me the right way to handle this which i should make police report because i am in fact innocent and cannot be liable . I felt so release after talk to him. He also remind me the purpose i want to pursue a law degree . Yes , the reason i wanna pursue in this field is because i wanna ensure justice ! dOnt be afraid of darkness and evil ! 

After i stable psychologically , i think of it again . The motorcyclist doesnt wear any helmet , and most probaly he dont have license . In another hand , i have license and i gave signal before i turn left . bESIDES , if i want to take action in court , i can even sue him through tort law in tresspass to person ! God !! NOW oNLy the law i learnt come back !

Anyway , i think this kind of incident rarely happen to young teenager like me . So , i got the chance that people dont have . It might seems harsh . But , it is a very good experience for me . A very good lesson for a person who wanna get into legal field . 

It is a bad luck of me because of cause & effect.It is a faith and a destiny . I think my way on law field is getting more precise and interesting now . I will get ready ! 

Thank YOu

Thank you

Taken from a lyric of a buddhism song . Which had awaken me . 

Last week , One of my sister read my blog and understand that i am having some hardship . She then send me a message with parts of a buddhism lyric . Well, it just a simple message . Just one message ! I feel so released . Why am i forgot what my teacher - Buddha had taught me ??

But ,The negative thought  keep running in my head . Erase it , it then comes again . Last times , i wont even spend time to think about what is my problem when i having hardship. I will always ask my brothers . I just being too rely on them . For now , i think i have to grow up . It is not that they are not needed anymore but they will only lead me to what i want. Indeed , i am the one who walk in journey . If i am wrong , i will still take their advise . You know what , after this incident , i finally realise that how weak am i . Time to take it and erase it ! It can only be explain in 2 words in chinese - 执着 。Why am i so take it so seriously as if like i cant get it , i will be dead ? Wow , now only i realised that 1 stupid creature was born . Thats me . 

I am a big dreamer who always want the best for my life . As to what i have read from "IF" poem , i forgot who is the author. In the poem , the father give advises to his son where one of it is dont take dreams as your master . Yes , i think i made dream my master . Thats why i am now still unmovable and stopped there . I rule my dream ! In fact , i just shouldn't be a dream but a mission to be complete . Ermm.... you might not know whats the meaning of the lyric . It actually meant that :" Hurt is a process & a journey where everyone will go through , Dont give up because of it ; Sadness is only a feeling , Dont let it drop you down into a deep hole . " 

Everyone will experience it . Everyone will feel it. Get and fail . Gosh ! thats what i learnt from buddha ! Why i cant remember it when i was so down ? I will now however let it be whatever it had happened . It is kind of late for me to start again . It is never too late for me to realise it . Rush !Rush!Rush!Hurry !hUrry!! Junhong ...............You are left behind!!!!! Go Go Go !!!

Thanks . What can i said besides thanks and express my appreciation ? Just a simple appreciation . But Fully from my heart . My gratefulness . Thankful . 

Do my best ! 

Lost my direction - A mistake

The earth will never be as round as we thought . The Fullmoon will never last long, It is not as beautiful as we always think it be  . As to what Shakespeare stated in" Life Brief Candle " , Life is just like a walking shadow. In another words , it is just like a candle . Within a second ,it's life is already shorten-ed. Haiz , a sentimental person like me , has such a sensitive sense . Sometimes ,it just makes me become irrational . You know , what is the result if you being so irrational ? Maybe u would say that :" Come on , we are an ordinary man , a common human being ? What is wrong if we did a mistake ?" Well , i will come to answer you that i cannot afford any mistake . It will damage everything i planned for my family . I cannot be so common as if i want the best for my family and people around me . I cannot be so ordinary in order to protect the people i used to spend times with . A mistake has been commit anyway. 

What is happening ? Your natural curiousity will automatic-ly lead you to that question . I cannot disclose 100% here. If you are my close friends , ask me then . It is not a big deal . It is just merely a simple disappointment . It just shouldn't affect me so much ! In fact , a simple disappointment just made me go through a few meaningless weeks . I dont really study and i dont really prepare for my exam. The assignments is still there which i never touch it . It might be stress symptoms. I am a student who always take and run my duty as much as i can . Last times i used to think that i just want to be a normal and average student . I dont want to be so outstanding. Now , i comes to know that if i being so low-profile . Opportunity will not come to me ,even i have to ability to handle and do well if i given such chance . My brothers and sister always tell me that this world is so cruel . I know it ,but i dont really understand it . People who always act so "cool" is actually cruel . (It refers to someone i know,not applicable for world at large) . I tend to always see what people actually think of  or maybe the reason for such an act . All right , if thats what that person want , i'll give him then . Showing off  and so on .  I cant stand with it . Instead of showing off , trying to be so low profile. People around is like cant see it . It is totally fake ! What happened is that , i am not given a chance to do what i desire .Before that, i was told that i got the chance . So , i prepare for it and even dream about it . At the end , I am too late ?? COme on , i had expressed my willingness on that before anyone else . I do everything crucially . I feel like what i have done is actually a waste . So , for weeks i am in a bad condition. I watched at least 2 drama series and movies , surf net and so on . Something that meaningless. I feel like even if i do everything i should do , still someone who run strategy will get it . Oh my gosh , i feel so unsecured . Yes , this is what the real world . I really need time to get used to it . I always think that i will only happen when i am working in the future . It is not true , just false . It happened anywhere , anytime ,any field . In addition , i have no one to talk with . First , i dont express my feeling to my family. I dont want to let them so pity  for me . I just dont want them to worry about me . Well , thats what i do . I always keep problem inside me ,beyond me . I always solve it by myself. However , i got my brothers who always give me counsel and share everythings with me . He is 30yrs old businessman , experienced in many fields. Since i know him , my problems getting less and lesser . He always know when i am hiding something. Now , i seldom go to meet him since i am on the holidays to prepare for my exam . My best friend who i always spend time with is gone .So, i am alone. If u ask me . Do i have any friends ? Friends? I got a lot , but those who i can actually share thought. Few...... And yet i have to perform my duty as a brother . Siblings now getting so stubborn and have their own thought. Not mature enough to talk with . Thats so stressful . Trying so hard to be a good brother , and yet they are not appreciate it . Honestly , i do everythings to everyone for everyone is without any selfishness or self-benefit. I can even swear that i give my sincerity for anything i have done.I dont need any pay back , just need a simple appreciation. 

The first mistake , i shouldn't promise my dad that i will spend all my time to prepare my studies .So i no need to stay at home and dont get the chance to meet my fellow brothers and sisters . I will surely wont be so down. I will have better motivation to study ! These fellow brothers and sisters , i will appreciate them until the end  of my entire life. I wont forget those who helped me . Thats really true. I wont forget and will never forget . Besides if i have memory loss medically. Seriously, i really take them as my bros and sis. Now , i having a conflict between myself. Whether i wanna go to UK to read law ? I will not see them for years. 

Second mistake , i should not spend most of my time in front of my computer just to watch . It is not a good way to express my dissatisfaction and my sadness. I should study more harder to prove that they are wrong .As to what my brother said , once you very busy and without good base to handle , you will have problem . Now, it is proven . I am having problem . 

Yes , life is so challenging . For me , what had happened around me will not change my personality. But, i do learn a lesson. The sun will not be seen for long . But it always there. Just like justice . Maybe its not representable , but it is there .Maybe what i have done is not being appreciate by people , but it doesnt mean what i have done is a waste.

Junhong , Come on. YOu are tough enough ! I always said that it is not a big issue if u fall down , but it is a serious matter whether you can stand up or not . I am a boy who keep felling down and stand up . The process will keep running. I believe that after everything a little junny boy will finally bcome a man . A man who is protective and help people around me .

 

当我老了 <>


--- --------我的婆婆My Grandma.----------



当我老了，不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。


When i am getting older , It is not who i am before .
Please understand me , Be patience when you are facing me .　　





当我把菜汤洒到自己衣服上时，当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

When i accidentaly fallen the vege-soup on my shirt and
When i forgot to tie up my shoelace ,
Please do think of how i taught you hand-by-hand those days.





当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。你小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，直到你进入梦乡。　　

When i keep repeat and repeat the things that i have said ,
Please listen to me in patience , don't stop me .
Do remember that when you were young , I have no choice but to repeat the story for times until you are asleep .




当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责备我。还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？　

When i need you to bath me ,
Please don't be mad at me , Do you still remember the scene where i keep convincing you to take shower when you were young ?　





当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。　

When i am lost and ignorance on latest technology and the recent stuff ,
Please to laugh at me ,
Do think of how i answered you for every"WHY"which you have asked .




当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。　　

When my legs is getting tired and it does no allow me to walk ,
Do give me your strong hands to help me ,
It is just the same way i did when you take your first step.




当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。　　

When i lose memory on the thread of our conversation , Do give me times to recall my memory.
It is indeed not important of my conversation with you ,
It is enough for my satisfaction to have you beside me and listen to me .





当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

When you looking at me who is getting older ,
Please dont be sad and down about that , but ,
Do understand me , support me , as how i treat you when you were first starting to learn the way of living .





当初我引导你走上人生路，如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑，这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

Last times i led you the way to step up your life ,
please then accompany me until the end of my life ,
Give me your love and patience ,
and I will pay you by the lovely smile , where the smile full with the immense and unlimited love that i always had and have for you.

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当我读了这篇简单的字句，这篇简单的文章，就直接打入我的心房。简单的字句，且流露出一位年老父母的心声。那么的直接，十分得贴切。无常，就是它让我们的父母逐渐苍老，然而这是任何人都无法改变的原理。叶儿终会干枯而落，花儿亦会枯萎凋谢。徐徐而来得年老，随水而来的时间，那么无情。如今，他将会让我们的父母以及大家都逐渐随着岁月老去。
试想，各位：“以上的，不就是你们打从心底的心声吗？”

静下来，看下周遭，都无时无刻的表现着生老病死。
听不到?静下来，聆听那潺潺的水流声，你会感觉到：“很多事情就那么一刹那。”
就在呼吸之间。

珍惜。爱惜。知恩。感恩。报恩。绝对不是怜惜，就算是，就怜惜自己为何不珍惜。

Fellow friends , when i first read this passage ,this such a simple and easy passage . I was touched. I stopped and stand still . It is just so true . I was being amazed by the author. I read it in chinese originally and i translated it . It might be not good grammatically. I tried just to share with you all.

Look at your dad and mum , isnt they are aging in terms of psychologically and physically ? We tend to blame everything to our parents. They do have mistake ,and we might dislike it . They do it all the way just to prepare the best way to our life. Come on , we are human , mistake is always happening ? How do u define mistake ?

Think of it . It is so true . just so true ......

Is justice being served ?

All right, sometimes we cannot see something from outview. We have to see from others sides as well. We must prove the probability.
Yes , brothers and sisters , i dont really have time to spend with you all now . I really missed u all . Everytime i got upset and depressed . I always have you all beside me . Why is it i am so sentimental ? Well...no , it is just an appreciation .

I just had a lite car accident . Yes, it just happened a moment ago . What had happened is .....

First , when i am driving and wanted to cross another side of the road . A malay women who drove her car in fast speed eventually banged my car. Yes, she did ! she bang my car! and yet , she claim that i am the one who is fault . Oh my god , how the hell am i gonna to bang her car when i am stopping there ? Since i am living in this such a wonderful 'malay'sia . I have to tolerate with her , All right, i admit that i am fault. She is a 30+years old women. Maybe she is now having imbalance of her hormon . She makes a fake to a fact . Yes and of course my parent will believe her words than mine. From outview , it is my fault.

Her car is cant even said that it is injured severly.Just abit of painting loss. Indeed my Livina front bomba is in bad condition . Mygosh , my dad will surely screw me up . I think i dont wanna drive that luxurious car anymore . Maybe a nissan sunny will do good for me. Okay, back to the topic , first she is speeding to fetch her daughter to school. Secondly , she did not try to avoid from my car when my car is out.

It can be argued that it is my fault since i do not aware of her fast speed. She said that she want me to pay for reparation . Come on , if i bang her car, her car wont be just a painting loss. Her kenari will eventually being crashed man ! I am driving slowly and yet stil have this kinda accident. I am a new car driver , i should be aware of anything and everything.

I learnt a lesson today. If here is not Malaysia , i will surely speakout! This accident is now strengthen my determination to read law and become a lawyer. The reform of malaysia's law is needed and necessary ! The quota system need to be abolished ! I know a lawyer cannot do anything , since those who speakout is now enjoying their life in ISA jail .

I am wrong okay. After this , i dont wana drive the Grand livina . I prefer a nissan sunny then. My grandma-in-law said that she will give me a nissan sunny . Maybe i'll take that into consideration.

Have you guys ever think that , is justice beings served in malaysia?Or justice is just merely for decoration ?or an anology can be use that the earth is is sphere and will never be circle ?

Brothers and sisters and my fellow friends . Thats basicly what happened just now.

I am a lucky boy .

Why am i still a boy? Don't you think that i should have grown up ?

As i said, life is inevitable, we dont really what is gonna pass and what is coming soon in the future? I am a lucky boy by still have the chance and have the opportunity to meet my brothers and sisters. Compared to them, i am just a small little tiny peanut . Which in another word, i am still a boy .

First and foremost, i have a family which is taking care of me so much. Being spoonfeed for around 17years. Such a pampered guy!!! All right, what i need to do is just study . My mind is being socialise by that kind of mindset . Maybe it is kind of childish to say that i am a boy who have a big dream . However, i am now living in a limited small space that i cannot even do what i wana do. It would not be too much if u said that i am a daydreamer, well , it is indeed i am.

I have a hand but i dont know how to use my hand. I have a lot of dreams but dont know how to make it comes true. I have a big vision. I come to understand my life is not only ordinary, but it is meaningless . The patriachy system is still function in my family. I have to listen to what my dad plan for me. If , just if , and if i dont know how to express my feelings and decision . I can tell you honestly, my life is just a merely for decorative. When i realise what i want in my life, i tend to become deviant in my dad's view. In fact, i am not . Well...yes, i am rely to my family. Now, it is time for the changes come. The revolution should come .



I want to become someone that is actually help this society. Which can help those people with low ability , no matter financially , physically or psychologically. I dont need to be outstanding. But i need to improve and upgrade myself in order to do that.

In my heart, i have the feeling that i can actually do and work out a lot of things. It is however some barriers and limitation. I cant figure out what is the problem though.

Now, recently and gonna be in the future, i am very lucky, honoured to have a bunch of brothers and sisters . They all make me realise how weak i am ? how stupid i am ? They showed me my problem . We dont really have secret. Maybe you will wonder, what? It is just impossible to have 0 secret. Yes, it can be argued that way.Indeed, secret might be just something that protect us . And it cant be a secret since it is not the matter that we are not being exposed to the issue, it is just the matter of time. We will slowly come to understand when it is the time to do so.


Okay, with no doubt, i am weak . Weak in a sense of physically , and psychologically as well. I dont need to be hiding that many think that i am soft. Which mean that i am not tough enough.They taught me how to become a man. Yes, sounds funny ?? WEll, take it seriouly then.

I am on the way to find my way and will find my way .

Do u have enough tIMe? buddy....

Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday, Thursday and so on .... Time keep passing by , and sometimes i just feel like it actually doesn't exist! Why? It is too fast . With just a blink of eyes, it just passed and pass and passing . What about present ? Is there ever a present ? Arhhhhuh...it is still being argued in the world of science , philosophy , and also religion . Maybe some of us might think that: "Hey! u r insane! You are thinking too much !" All right, i will admit that i've thinking a lot .However, it doesnt mean that i am insane ! Okay...let me make everything clear to you.

I heard of 1 interesting quote which is : " i can never tell a lie , since the truth is never true ."
I have no idea who did i quoyed from . But, i am sure that , those who ever think of it is a great thinker just like Plato. It is all about time , when i am now pointing something and say said this is this , in another second i can said this is actually that . Ermm...complicated huh ? Not so.

For examples , last times the sciencetist said that the earth is square . Now, the new discovery is that the earth is actually sphere . Everything everywhere everything and anything is keep changing all the time and anytime.

Many people will always said that their life is complicated and painful.

I would say that life is simple and nice .

Well...why is it my life again ? haha....what else can i talk abt besides my life??

Is there an existance of destiny ? I mean everythings is fixed ? I dont agree.

We can actually control and even change our life. Recently, i have msn with one of my secondary closest friend. His academic achivement is really shinning right now. Salute man !!!

He said to me before, he will do better and do his best ! nOW He proved it .H e is now in Form 6.I believe he will do great and score well in this coming STPM.

In contrast, Im only doin okay which is just fine. I am aiming for exellent now.

Exellent ! Great! Good !...that what i wanna hear !!

I might take part in a mooting competition. If i do take part on it, I will make sure that i'll win . I will do my best !!

Wish me luck . I will also score well in law and sociology. WHich is As !!!!

COMe ON, jUNhong. U can do it !!! I will quote frm Adidas....Nothing is impossible......

SIMPLE LIFE

IN A

COMPLICATED WAY.

Haha..it has been a long while i dont really update my blog.Yes, LOng long times ago.Maybe i would hav to say:" Once upon a time..."..WEll ,I hav a busy life.Errrhum....did i ?

Time keep passing on , and i keep complaining that ,my time is actually not enough. I complain abt this and that . coMPlain abt my family , friends, and my lecturer.Its akward that i always see the bad side of them . Now, i think it is my turning point. No complain anymore( Oops ! did i say no?haha..ignore it) maybe i should say, decrease my complain level, its hard and difficult for me to hiding something that i wanna say. It's a MUST for me to express it .

From last year till now, i feels like it' s juz a blink of eyes, time is so powerful man. I dont even realise i actually pass through 1 year already.I think i learnt a lot and gone through a lot last yr. And of course , almost all of it is really challenging. Luckily i hav a bunch of brothers and sister behind me.I know that they will never hurt me, even they will scold me. SOmehow, Now i feels like i really grown up.Because of them.

Lawyer?am i the suit the personality of a lawyer? Apparently, i always the quiet one in frnt of ppls, and honestly i hav manything to say in my deeply heart. Just that sometimes i got no chance to say or rebut .Why? i knew what is goin to be the result. I'll see how's the thing goin first. It will nvr change even i said it out. However, i think now is the time for me to break the wall.

Life is inevitable, its the truth. How r we goin the predict our future? Yes, we cant. We can however plan for it. Recently, i heard a lot of ppl talking abt " THE SECRET".*ITs noT REFER to jay Chou's movie*....Its actually a documentary programme. At first, i dont believe on it, i think that its somehow ridiculous in a way. How can someone make their future by just imagine and visualise it? Its so unbelievable. Okay, maybe u'll wondering why i use "MAKE". According to the secret, what we want or we can actually achieve our dream by visualise it.What do ya think?Do u believe it?

To verify my stand, i downloaded the video frm internet purposely. Im trying to prove my hyphothesis.haha....At the end , im wrong. Im wrong because i said the statement before i understand the theory of it. Its actually all abt the Law of attraction . Never heard of it before huh? well, hear it now. iTS a theory between the universe and the law of attraction.Its something like cause and effect but its rather complicated . In another word, its actually our mind power. I think u guys hav heard of the brain of einstein, right?The usage of the brain by him is only a small part of it. He is 1 of the most intelligent people in the world.How can he actually discover sth that is so new ? Its all abt the mind power. How we use it? We live in a society where we actually a form of atom, molecule or cells and almost all f it is moving evryday. ANd its result energy . We live around energy.Its untangable of course.Those ion-ion /positive and negative energy will eventually changing by our mind.Our mind is the best messenger to the universe. WHich we'll ask for it and the universe will answer it. However, we hav to work it out so that we can receive it. As a result , its not a stupid theory. mAYbe u'll think that its unbelievable, but believe it. and I saying frm a buddhism point of view as well. There r no overlapping or conflict between the law of attraction's theory with the buddhism.

"THE SECRET"

Chasing for my dream.I used to be a positive minded person when i was form 3 ( the age of 15), i think its a result frm swimming. I train my mind power by swimming. I got a strong willingness and determination that time . Its so sad that i lost it now.I easily get affected by ppl . The negativity keep go into my mind. So, it results a lot of negative things happened in my life. What's that?My fellow brothers and sisters will know. A lot....

I lost manything last year. I lost my determination , i lost my concentration , i lost my motivation, and , and i feels like i lost a friend. WHich is really A FRIEND. What a tragedy happened on my friend. Sometimes , i just feel lonely. The loneliness inside me is still there. Am i alone in the pathway of my life? We r brothers. and now, nothing . I will nvr giv up. I will let u stand up one day and i will become successful . What again? yes, Chasing for dreams. It might be a lame word to use. Its work and just get used to it. U 'll find that helpful.

十八年来的我。。。。


时间流失，岁月无情。实在令人感叹 。。。就那么一眨眼，我就要迈向人生的另一个舞台了，我十八岁了。也许很多人会觉得，This is not a big deal ，但对于我来说，十八年来，我感触甚多。古人名句言：“一江春水向东流” ， 他们都用水来形容时间。因为，水是没有倒流的，时间亦是。

十八岁了，我问自己：“俊康，你真的长大了吗？”突然，脑海里闪过这十八年来了回忆。
这十八年来，若我不能成长，真的辜负了他们。我的父母。。。。我在他们的呵护下，在温室内成长，没有接触过室外的污染空气。我这个小苗才逐渐成长。他们是那么的伟大。他们的付出，牺牲都无不是为了我，为了弟妹。 对于他们，内心的感激是无法用笔墨所能形容的。甚至诗仙李白也无法彻底的表达出来。

犹然记得，妈曾对我说：“你啊，三个之中，最难生的是你，用2小时。”
那时还小的我心想：“是吗？但我最便宜的。”才RM60。生弟弟和妹妹时都过千的。
现在想回来，笑自己以前是那么的小器的，无知又幼稚。所以常常特地要妈妈服侍我。 妈妈也说，我一生出来，头发都是金丝的，眼睛又褐蓝，令到他们奇怪：“为何生出个”鬼子“出来的？” 当我看见妈妈她从口诉出生我的情景，我看见了她的微笑，那种满足的微笑。就那么一瞬间，十七的年头久过去，我就十八岁了。想必妈妈她看着儿子一天一天的成长，那种喜悦是无法说出的。

我身为长子，却拥有最令人不堪的往事。
我在大概3，4岁就拥有小霸王的天赋了。挑食，这样不吃，那样又挑。不爽就把拿碟及碗筷乱飞。是的，乱飞乱仍。亲戚见到，都无不摇头的。5岁，选衣服，就会选衣服的颜色配搭，这个颜色一定要配那个颜色。要小解时，指定要蓝色的尿桶，红色的连看都不看。虽然我小时候的所为确实令人讨厌，但有个表姐很疼我的。她说很喜欢我的大眼睛，长睫毛和带点蓝的眼睛。可是，逐渐长大后，金发没了。我觉得很奇怪，这些都是妈妈告诉我的。就因为我很少爷，所以，爸爸都不带我出去。怕我又拿碟表演马戏团。

直到妈妈她生了个妹妹，我内心可是迫不及待的想要做哥哥。摆起哥哥的款出来。妹妹可是一定要听哥哥讲话哦。。。妹妹坏蛋时，我这个小哥哥就打她。打到她哭了。妈妈见状，便问个清楚。我说妹妹坏蛋你打她，那她坏蛋我不是打她咯。小小的我就顶撞妈妈，真是惭愧。

然而，现在我想起，觉得妈妈真的受了很多委屈。我在考试时，写了一篇“妈妈的手”，我把每一个细节都写下对于妈妈的感激，那篇作文也让我拿到了很高的分数。其实，拿到高分并非其要，而是，在思考到妈妈的手就有如斯之劳，甚为难得而且赞叹。那试问妈妈的心又如何？更加不可思议。

妈妈的手，抹过我的眼泪，经过了我的排泄物的洗涤，一双玉手逐渐的粗糙。双脸红润的她，因我午夜的哭声惊醒，泡奶给我，逗我安眠入睡的关系也变成了熊猫。我想象妈妈看我的眼神，是充满爱的。她的手，如观世音，施于无畏，让我很安心的睡下去。她看见我睡熟了，才爬上她的床休息。没过几久，就天亮了，要服侍爸爸了。三从四德，绰绰有余。但她都只是自己生闷气，也没向人埋怨。婆婆不喜欢她，她也尽媳妇之任，以德报怨。有时真的很好奇她是不是观世音？难怪佛教我们要孝顺堂上两尊佛菩萨啦！


6岁的时候，妹妹4岁进幼稚园，我在上课时听见妹妹的哭声，我一声不响就奔上楼，但被老师喝止了。之后，还被那印度老师赏了一记耳光呢！我不理老师，照样哄妹妹。老师一直在那儿唠叨。我都不明她在骂什么，因为是英文的。那时的我，就想到哥哥要照顾妹妹是必要的。

一年级时候，我啊？真的是个笨蛋。令到级任老师都讨厌我。她叫辜芳美老师，很恐怖的。拿扫把打人。我那时候，功课都准时做完，但就是没交。我那时候都不知道原来功课是要交的。做完了都自己收着。老师常叫我“单眼佬”， 为何？自小我身体就不好，眼睛常生苍。令到眼睛红肿又小。 令到眼睛一大一小。我啊，小时没生气，但有问妈妈为什么老师叫我单眼佬。妈妈叫我不要理老师，读好书就好。同学也没有几个喜欢跟我玩的。因为我是单眼佬，怕传染。乍到！但眼睛好了后，同学就开始接收我。我那时可是赛跑冠军，十分喜欢运动。。。哈哈。。也没人晓得。我也很喜欢交各种族的朋友，所以常常骑脚踏车去找马来邻居踢球。可是婆婆禁止我出去。怕我变“三藩”。。。要我在家里读书。逐渐，我就不喜欢运动了。妈妈陪我读书，陪我做练习。。。那时的我，很爱唱歌。每天学了新歌都回家唱给妈妈听的。也不知道为什么，他们觉得我唱的很好，叫完那些邻居AUNTI来听我唱歌。我吓到眼泪都出来了。事后，好象有点阴影，都不敢在人面前唱歌。老师叫我参加唱歌比赛。我都因恐惧而拒绝了。我连抬头望老师也不敢。一年级每次放大假，都必须做完假期作业才可以玩，那时的我常常叫堂哥帮忙，所以很快就完成了。他的数学可是一流哦，而我？数学白痴一个。 想当年，我的身体虚弱，气喘病直折磨我。可笑的是，那时很愚痴，很喜欢气喘，因为气喘就不用去上课了。但去到医院，又要吸那个出烟的东西，到现在我还不知道那时什么。吸完过后会很累，手脚都没力。但有妈妈无微不至的照顾，我病得很开心。由于身体虚弱，很多游戏及激烈运动都不能玩。尤其玩水，我从小就喜欢玩水，偏偏我的身体不允许，还对着妈妈发脾气。现在才了解妈妈当时的苦心。

二年级，开学时，同学聚集研究我的眼睛，他们说为什么男生的眼睫毛酱长，令我很难堪。我堵着气回家就跟妈妈提出要减掉眼睫毛的要求。妈妈说，那很美啊！很多人要都没有叻！，我满脸狐疑的说：“真的？”我事后都没有要减眼睫毛之事了。那年的级任林老师很有耐心的教导我，她很好，很慈祥的。又是另一位观世音，没有她，我也拿不到进步奖。希望她得以往生极乐净土啦。。。那次，是我人生中第一次上台领奖，很紧张。爸爸特地抽空看我领奖。我一边看着爸爸，爸爸叫我上啊！我就鼓起勇气上去拿奖。爸爸教我：“这次拿奖不要骄傲，要更加努力才行。” 现在想起，原来父母无时无刻都在教育着我人生的道理。

三年级，我很吵。很喜欢跟同学谈天。也很喜欢帮同学，他们不明，我就教他们。但确因此而被罚站。我很好奇，道德第一课就教要乐于助人了，为何老师会罚帮人的人呢？那时，我很好胜，常常比赛做完功课。在学校，一得空就做功课。过后就比写字美，我的字体还是比不起CASPER张健全。只是拿b+。他都拿A星星的。有次，我拿到星星，我迫不及待的想要回家跟妈妈说。那年我成绩进步了。父母很欣慰，看见他们拿欣慰的笑容，我也很开心。

四年级，我的级任是柯碧霞老师，她也是我人生的其中一个启蒙老师。我就是个笨蛋，数学就是教不会，但她耐心的教导我。此外，我也有补习，那位我常称她为癫婆老师－余善惠老师。常常那着厚厚的藤条，看到吓死我了。四年级就叫我们默写，而且背的还是六年级的作文。她还吓我，她说她有个电椅子，谁不会默写就坐在电椅子上面。吓得我冒冷汗。我那时候常常发梦都梦见她是个可怕的巫婆。有时没背到作文，就作弊咯。那边的朋友教的。有时她忙着跟老公吵架都没时间看我们。有时候，还跑出去追老公呢！无可否认，她的教学方式虽然严格但确令我成绩进步不少。那年我的数学还是很差，但年尾的考试竟然拿到A了，所以把我的总分拉高了。那年我人生第一次拿到了第2名。全级拿到第99名，对我而言，很好了。因为只要考到100名以内就考进精英班了。但我进不到因为满了。真的好不公平。

五年级，我因成绩进步所以被选当巡查员。我那时毛遂自荐。因为我很想捉那些坏学生。上半年，我拿了第一名。但是，我那年就步入了人生的低潮。我的数学拿了5分。我告诉老师，因为巡查员很忙所以没时间听课。老师即时取消我明年当巡查员的资格。她说：“不能做个不负责任的人。”我到现在都记得，一生受用无穷。我泪流满脸，答应妈妈不会再有下一次。成绩退步了，退到第5名。那时，妈妈真的很失望。我看到也很心疼。

过后，六年级，我发愤图强，努力。那时候我仍然是个脾气坏的小少爷。常常顶撞妈妈。总是发脾气。有次，信佛的表嫂她为了改造我，拿了因果经给我看和地藏菩萨本愿经给我看。我看后即生信心，要改过。尽量孝顺父母。那年，就是我初结佛缘的时候。我跟我的好朋友常常研究因果经及谈佛学。

×××待续×××

结尾～～我再次抚心自问。。。无言。。。。我没有信心大声的说：“我长大了！”。。。真的。 成长，并非说18岁就长大了。而是，内心里头，你真的长大了吗？
我18岁了，切很多世俗的东西都不懂。OUTDATED 。 不能与时并进，我成长了吗？～～～




FOR 18 YEARS ......




This is what i have done this passed 18 years ......


All these is a process and evidence for i've really working hard of.....for everyobody,for my family and for myself......

AND NOW I am 18 , gonna be 19 soon......Thats time , and thats life.......

THE PASSED 18 YEARS , I'VE BEEN WORKING SO HARD TO ACHIEVE WHAT I AIM. BUT, SOMEHOW THERE'S STILL DISSAPOINTMENT . I KNOW THATS PART OF MY LIFE. I'LL TAKE IT AND CHALLENGE IT!

aS What i always said :" work hard for your future !"

I will keep growing up.....it'll non stop.......

愚言又痴语



我啊...常常觉得自己是个很愚痴的动物.....

没有广大的智慧 , 很多事情都无法真正完成......

所以啊 , 国哥常叫我"小余" , 我的脑叻, 就自动联想到"小愚" .... 好奇怪.....



还好我有很多长辈都在引领我.....我的家庭里头,个个都令我成长不少.....

虽然只是成长,但即时成熟,我倒不知道...因为愚痴嘛!!

很多人有很多大梦想 , 而我的大梦想切是要增长智慧.....

我啊,没有定力 ....就常常好睡 ....很多东西都没去下功夫.....

说要广度大众 , 方便大众 .... 看来佛菩萨看到我一次又一次的骗他们....都低头...失望.....



人生路上 , 我要帮人 , 就一路要突破自己 , 一路要增值自己.....为何?只能怪自己咯...愚痴!足矣!

真的 , 有点累......自己的习气...改的过程会很折磨 , 因为自己放不下.....

当看到我的努力有了点成绩 ....真的就只是有"点"成绩而已 ... 觉得欣慰.....才让我继续努力下去...


人生的路途上，每一秒都要在学习，提升自己，成就别人。

这不是“不可能任务”，是可以为的！

My life that full with challege will make my future more brighter and even better .....

My life = My FutURE ?

absolutely NOT

mY LiFE = My past incident + my Presently life + mY fUTure.

Many of us will think in one way :our past make what we are . They keep thinking that way until they forget why and what are we actually? Hmm...quite complicated ...

Well..My life ...also that kind of complicated .... Not easy like 1+1 =2 .... Our life full with many equation ... Just like : work harder = better future .

I gOne through a lot that make me grown up a lot .. a lot of mentor in my life ....
1)My lovely parent
2)Kock bro who teach me what is my life .
3)My sibbling that make me realised what is wrong and true .
4)My LAw Lecturer - Mr LOGAN ....

All of these plus together also form = my life .... With no doubt , human are forgetful ..
People like to focus on their own But they actually don't really know there r many things go into their life ...so human tempt to feel ungrateful ....

well , Yup ... i am A-LEVEL law student who dont hav a great confident ...and my lecturer keep motivate me .. Dunno why? he really think that i am intelligent enough ? i wonder why....He is so strict sometimes , make ppl afraid to talk to him ...He is a gd mentor in my life ... so my friends , i think he can help u all too ... so , do talk to him .... dont afraid ...

Then , my brother - kock bro , that teach me a lot in my life , my personality , mt thought .Without him , i am now not what i am ...really ....

My paRents that encourage me to become a great lawyer ..... though they always said that im stupid ....and my siblings that always not listen to me ....they make me feel how hard to become an elder bro ...and make me improve ....

life not only u alone .... many ppl make ur life and making it interesting and meaningful ...

Wow!!! that was awesome.....i mean the camp that i went at 27 m@y - 29 may....haha..the point is where am i goin to start?Hmm.....

Well....i am happy after the camp.....because after the camp...i think i will become a better leader...

The place is Sungai Chongkak.....well there got such a beautiful scenery...and i am a natural lover.....So, i like there very much!!!

The first thing when i arrived there is to choose a group leader....H@HA@......I meet alot of new friends there! there are 9 people in 1 group.....and they choose me to be the group leader....however...i still feel a bit stess when i become a group leader....because i have no experience in camping and lead a group.....

Then the organizer want us to introduce ourselves and remember the group member's name. I know the head of dicipline goin to ask us. That's why i remember their name since i meet the ppl...However, i just remember 8 of them...haha....that was good enough because none of them can remember even 5.....

Oops....and my group's name is 广目组.

Then we play a game. The game is to train us to help each other...and it is difficult to lead a group....so i missed alot of thing...and i scolded by the head of dicipline...haha..do u think that i will angry?haha....but i am not...because the head of dicipline is not that strict....i can see it true his eye....but what he said to me is correct....so, i keep goin....to be better...

U know what?i always want to be the best...so, i work very hard .....so, i play WATER SPORT with my full spirit.....i never play sport b4....haha..
however....i doin it quite well.....haha....really funny......and my friend- Weiloong.He just standing there and let me take the ball...haha...this is so funny.....But..after that only i realised that he was injured (a bit)...poor weiloong....my group score with flying colour!!

HaHA....duno why i love water very much since i was born.....

Then, we having a class by weizhau shi xiong......he is a very experience in giving buddha's talk....so i had learnt a lot from him....really... alot....alot....he also teach us how to be a "IN" buddha learner....haha...because i am really outdate!!!!! oMG!!!!
And of course, he is funny.......haha...

A kock哥哥 ask me:" hey, junhong.Tonight we will goin to having jungle trekking...do u got any problem?"

"No...absolutely not....." i said.

Then at nite....hoho.....haha...that is the most scary part of the camp......we go for jungle trekking. But for me? it is an unforgetable and interesting.......this is the first time i do this...
I am ready for it...no matter what problem....i said...

i was wrap myself like winter coming soon....i look at myself and it is funny....when we reach at the jungle....we separate into one pair each group...haha...then of coz we will bring our torch light...many ppl was bitten by the parasite worm....it sounds really bad....

Fortunately , i dont...and i was totally no problems and safe!

THEN...THE next day( the day before we back). Lika usuall , we having a class by
惠诗姐姐.... akock 哥哥 said she is nice and smart and intelligent....i hope i can be like her...scoring well in exam....haha.....she give a talk on how to balanced our life between society activities , family and our study....but every thing she said...i get it...the problem is can i do it?

aFTer that an activity (something like treasure hunt) , we have 7 station to go.....we score well in some station and score really bad in another station. This game i have to thanks to choonfei.
because of him we are the first one arrived.....he know the place well.....haha....however, it need EQ and IQ as well.....haha.....i do not have both....hehe....

at the last station , it need physic skill.....i know what concept to apply but i lost!!! Like what am i goin to do?at last we lose.....haha....choonfei ask me not to upset....but at the sametime....he did upset....i can see it true his eye and feel it....choon fei...just let it go!

At that night, we play ghost game( a probaly and safe one lah!) they take us to somewhere we do not know......then act like a ghost to scared us!HOHO......I did scared at the first time....i am the first one arrive to the campsite...hehe......funny....

the next day , we prepare to back....but before that we havee to stay in the water for a few minute....OH my gosh!!!!the water is too cold....until i cant even speak probaly....the funniest is they want us to sing DO..RE..MI...FA...SO....and a song.....haha...the cold water make me cant do it lah!!! LOL!!!BUT they said that this will make us more healthy....haha.....whatever....i have fun......

Then i chosen to be a bus leader leh!!haha...i really tired that time......fortunately , my assistant MOK LAI YENG was there and help me.....thx.....

生活？

我啊？人生其中的一位过客。。。。

有时，我会在想，我现在的一切一切是生活吗？

无论如何，此乃我的生活。。。

母亲节要到了。。我要如何感激她给我的一切？

我无动于衷。。我内心的感激。。超越一切。。。

虽然她不了解我。。。相报

但她为我牺牲的一切，我会涌泉相报。。。。

TODAY。。。I WILL DO MY BEST。。。TO MAKE MY FAMILY HAPPY。。。