Wednesday, August 27, 2008

本焕长老之闭关

本焕长老之闭关

My fellow friends , brothers and sisters . 
Here they are , a buddhism movie clip . 
No offence for those who against or others religion believer. 





Monday, August 11, 2008

Failure

History was made , everythings had been recorded by time , and i failed . Thats fact and i couldnt do anythings about it . For the first time in Junhong's academic record , the word "fail" has been dropped down . How sad ! =.= So, everyone here listen up . I failed , Junhong failed . Dont be suprise . What you need to do is remains to be silence and i will find my way. Please dont ask me why and how since i really have no idea . Not enough of hard work ? or maybe smart work ? Not brilliant  enough ? Not enough of coursework ? Not enough of lectures ? or Maybe not enough of oxygen. There are lots of possibilities . 

Seriously , i was speechless when i saw my result silp . It is stated beside sociology - UNGRADED . " WOw , ungrad....ungraded....!"  I know i failed only 1 subject , and that is enough to stop me from pursue a law degree . Generally , i suppose to be very sad . However , i just take 10 second for the sadness and i step out from college . To find a solution . Problem is right in front of me , and i have to find a way to solve it and make it better .

sOrry , dad & mum . I knew you gonna be very disappointed . At the same time , both of u dont wanna hurt me . I am so sorry . Just one step , and i'll be stand in the LLB stage . However , i failed to step on that stage . Please forgive me . 

I hate the way my bro look at me . He look at me as if he is damn happy with my failure . Oh my God ! Thats hurt ! My own brother look down at me ? I cant take it . Nevermind , i will take that freaking smile and i will surely break that smile in the future. I know i am not stupid ! How dare you looking at me in that way ? Im sure u'll be regret very soon . 

                                  笨小孩
哦~ 宁静的小村外 有一个笨小孩
出生在陆零年代
 十来岁到城市 不怕那太阳晒
 努力在柒零年代
 发现呀城市里 朋友们不用去灌溉
 花自然会开

 哦~ 转眼间那么快 这一个笨小孩
 又到了捌零年代
 三十岁到头来 不算好也不坏
 经过了玖零年代
 最无奈他自己 总是会慢人家一拍
 没有钱在那口袋
·)
哎哟 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
不用心情太坏
哎哟 向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开
老天自有安排

哦~ 他们说城市里 男不坏女不爱
 么想也不明白
妈妈说真心爱 会爱得很精彩
结果我没有女孩
笨小孩依然是坚强得像石头一块
只是晚上寂寞难耐
 
哎哟    ! 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
        管它上山下海
哎哟 !    
向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开

    老天自有安排
                     老天爱笨小孩


>>>>>>>....我不是笨小孩....<<<<<<

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

BirthD@Y BIrthday BrithdaY!!!



" Oh ! My Birthday Is comING Soon ! Cant wait for it ! "<=Well , i dont have this kind of feeling . I am not that excited for my birthday . Instead of feeling happy or exciting , i am moody and feeling down in my birthday . I still cant figure out why am i that weird and so different than others . It can be contrast between me and my lovely sister . She was damn happy that day ( Yea, it was yesterday ) and hoping for some kind of celebration for her birthday .A month before her birthday , she is the one who keep remind all of us that her birthday is coming soon in this 5 August . Well , it is irritating when someone keep asking for present from you. I cant really stand with it actually , it was so fortune that she is my sister . Or else , i will just ignore her . How mean am i huh ? Haha ... Dont you think that keep asking birthday present from someone is not the right attitude ? It is just sounds so wrong . Very wrong indeed . Maybe i can think in another point of view , she is brave enough , isn't it ? She must be took lots of guts in order to do that . Ermm...i am not that brave since a present dont really mean that much for me . Anyway , she is my sister and i must try to understand the reason behind it . Maybe she want some attention from us ? Not enough of care ? or what she want is just a purely a celebration . You know what ? I think i got it right for the first guess . She want family's attention , what she want is just a care , a love from all of us . 

How can i notice it ? August , August , what a busy August for birthday celebration . My family had 2 celebration for my sister's birthday both in last sunday and yesterday . Last Sunday, i just back from temple with tiredness and i was exhausted .  When i back to my house , i just given 30 minutes for a bath and of course some basic grooming . After that , my dad brought us to a shopping mall . Oh , maybe a better word is shopping centre , not as comfort as a mall . Did you heard of Niu che sui ? A place nearby damansara or subang i guess . That place is such a boring . I wonder why so much of tourist come over since not much of stalls is open for business . However , it will be nice if u have a seat on Starbuck , Apple Donut Caffe and so on . You can have a luxurious lunch there if u want . What i wanted to say is , it is not a right place to shop . Boutiques there take at least 50% of the place . My mum , my sister and my aunt can shop one by one , that was so amazing ! I was suprised that pirated dvd can be found there . So, i go there and have a look there to find The Mummy 3 . (Note: I havent buy yet , just a look) . You know what i saw ? 80% is Homosexual's Dvd ! GOd ! When i went there and have a look , the promoter said is Cantonese :" All these is Gay movies ."  Those naked men in the cover , act like licking each other body . That was so Yucks ! How can they sell this kind of dvd that openly ? It is legally , morally and ethically wrong . You might ask :"Why do u still stand there since you know you are so offensive to it ? " Well , I am a boy who born with fantastic curiousity . Strong curiousity drive me to stand there and have a look . At least i must have some knowledge about it as a General knowledge . I read about a case of few professionals doctor commited an offence which apply pain on each other body and pin their testicles and penis on the wall . The case is R v Brown(1993) .  Apparently , they are all homosexual or maybe bisexual . Thats make me wonder why people like to be punished in they are all consent to it . Here is all about the case , if u interested , try to read it . It is a very long judgement . R v Brown (1993) case judgement 

All right , done with that and we back to the topic . After that , I and my brother together with my dad went for lunch and leave those ladies enjoy themselves  . I was starving at that time man ! Okay , let makes everything short, my sister finally bought a skirt and yeah , after hours of walking and just 1 skirt ?  Hahaha ... is that worth it ? Maybe , maybe not .On our way to go back home , we passed by a Neway Karaoke building . An idea suddenly fly through my dad's mind , and he suggested :" Why dont we celebrate the birthday in Neway Karaoke box ? " Haha..all of us agreed and my aunt called to neway and booked a K-box . 

Yes , we then have a buffet dinner at Neway Cheras Plaza by around 7pm . I am nOw 19 years old and thats the first time i step into a Karaoke Box .  The first time , and the environment there is not bad , quite classy and comfort as well . The buffet is quite delicious too. We take only around 30 minutes for the buffet then we all started the main activity - SING . Frankly speaking , I can now sing . Haha... The modern song somemore . Haha...My cousin was drunk and he cant even put down the mic . He brought the mic along him even he get into toilet . What a funny guy . Seriously , i rather to sing myself but not listen to his voice . He was ShouTing ! My eardrum was suffering that time !  My grandma was feeling sick that time , she felt so sick  , so my uncle fetch her back . Then , a call from my grandma reached to my uncle and she said she need to seek for medical check up . The Happy atmosphere suddenly disappeared . My parent then said they will go back and bring grandma to doctor and ask us to continue . How can i having so much of fun when my grandma is now suffering there ? I was totally in an unbalance feeling that time. Then i realise that i should continue since i should know that my parent will do their best for grandma . So , we continue and sing again . Please dont ask me what song i sang , i cant really remember , numerous of songs . Yeah , quite a lot , for me . Song by Jacky cheong , Leehom , Yoga and etc... My uncle who is now 40 years old will always challenge those high note type of song even he cant really reach that. I went in and out to get the recent updates on my grandma and i cant concentrate on those song's lyric . When i get to know that my grandma don't have much of problem and stable , i felt so relief . The guiltiness inside me is however still struggling with my mind . I must at least accompany my parent to the medical centre but not singing there .  It was so fortune that my grandma situation is optimistic now after she got the injection from doctor . She lost her appetite to eat , i can only get her to drink a little bit of milo and thats all . 

Nevertheless , I think my sister has become more mature ( I mean her thinking, she is still a young teenage girl though. ) . I asked her :" Is it okay that we stop everything if something bad happen to grandma ? " She answered :" It is totally okay ! no problem ." I tell you , thats without deep thinking . Finally , she grown up . Yeah , thats my sister . Hopefully she wont let me down and room for improvement . However , it doesn't mean that she has the ability to protect herself yet . At this point , she is still my little sister and i'll still do my best for her. Overall , everything going smoothly that day besides my grandma . Quite frustrated that day actually. Yes , it was fun at the same time ( i mean the karaoke session). I am not karaoke addicted though . Everything come to the end finally and i was shock when we make the payment . It cost us a RM555.50 . Oh my God !!! Thats too expensive , the nuts which i think it would be cheap and it cost us 60++ for that .  Dont you think that it is unreasonable ? 

On my sister's birthday which is 5th August , we had another celebration as well . ( Huh? I thought u all hav celebrated it ?)... Yea , indeed . HOwever , it will be rather awkward if there's nothing special in the actual birthday. So, we bought cakes . Yes , right, cakes . We had 2 cakes that day coinsidentaly . My so called brother & sister , choonfei and suiling sis bought us a secret recipe cheese cake . That was so wonderful .