At this juncture

It has been days and more than a week for me to self quarantined myself at home by the sudden attack of sickness. I had a disasterous moment tortured by illness , likewise, it is just a golden chance for me to have a rest as i always desired to. It is sheepish and fatous to claim my sickness eventually bring me some kind of benefits, neither i myself declare myself is no different with a weirdo. It brings me into awakeness and realisation. It leads me live a day, at least a day with gratefulness. To be frank, as an egoistic person who always think himself doing the right thing and claim others who agaist his ideology as wrong will of course have some conflict with people. Life full with grievance and disatisfaction. Yes, i always have conflict with my family's views as i will invoke my theories on something. In another word, i will make sense out of non-sense. Till now, i can hardly remove all those theories in my mind but just setting it aside and feel some love from them. Being anxious about my sickness, i am worry that my parents will get infected from my influeza since i am not sure whether do i got AH1N1 infection. However, they have taken care of me by ignoring the possibility of being infected. Yes, i had a tough time for being in pink of my health, so do my parents. While i was in fever severely, they barely sleep but keep on leaving their room and come down. They touched my forehead with their warmful hand. I was in dream that time i guess, but, i can somehow feel it. Though i do aware of it, still, i was so inconcious that time. What i know is, i need to sleep more as i can finally fall asleep.

Hooo.....i took a deep breathe, it is the first time i ever stay at home for such a long time this year. I cannot make it to temple , basically, i cannot make it to anywhere . So, it leaves my no choice but to stay at home. It is so rare that i stay at home , so, i would just sleep and lie on my bed. I mean, even if i stay at home, i must have something to do. To be exact, it is the first time i ever feel free which i think is bad as i almost lost my direction of life. What is life if you spend time doing nothing? Thats what i told my mum when she complains that i have been too busy with activities and friends. Yes, i has been going out quite often. At least i didnt go for clubbing ? I have my own jurisdiction on what i am doing. Whenever i discuss about time with my mum, there will be at least disagreement between both of our viewpoints. Well, its because the side effect of medication. I took a lot of supplements while i am still sick. Stolle milk which my mum believes it can strengthen my immune system , Honey which my mum thinks it can kills viruses or bacterias and some Chinese traditional medicines that i dont have faith on it. Haha, at that moment, i really dont have much choice, what i want is to get healed. Till now, i am getting better, but i have zero idea on which one works on me though. I feel like i am staying in an asylum which full with all kind of medicines.

This 'holidays' has also given me a chance to sit tight on the sofa with the TV remote control on my hand and press it . I have the chance to watch some programs like some forums held between some famous authors, some documentaries programs and some drama of course. Last time, i really dont have time for that. Of course, i was spending my time on the bed and in front of my laptop more. How about books ? Not really, maybe a few Reader Digest. I read it , flipped through and fall asleep. I also notice that i have not been really reading last days, not even newspapers. Erm..so, this sickness dont really bring me on a wistful venture, but it brings me to do more things. The most relieving news i would say is, when the doctor soothed me with the news that ' I AM NOT INFECTED BY H1N1 INFLUEZA'. Yahoo.....Now, i am pondering whether should i go to college tomorrow. I missed a lot of classes last week. Especially EC law ! Well, most probably i will going tomorrow though. Miss my mates a lot also ! They will see me with a spooky look tomorrow as i will wear a mask there. I know it looks weird. For the public's benefits, i shall practice that.

Apart from that, i went to clinics 3 times in this 2 weeks and have taken X ray to see whether my lung is in good condition or not. The daunting moment is , all clinics are so crowded man ! I think it is not only H1N1 is spreading but other viruses as well ! What happened to the world ? My mum and i were waited for 1.30 hrs and i was there with antsy feeling already. Finally, it was my turn, they took my weight as usual . The doctor is one of the greatest doctor i have ever met, the way he treats patient is very different than other specialist. His name is Dr Ludher Inderjit Singh, he was the only doctor in the anti-communist military that time. Thats what he told me, those communist wanted to kill him as he is the only doctor and therefore he needs to protect himself by wearing the same shirt as those army. He really check the patient from top to down unlike others General Practitioner. Though he is practicing as a GP , but, he himself actually is a specialist. He always chide on my dad since my dad has a big tummy resulted from beers. It is because of him, it is one of the major reason why my asthma getting better. I have been his patient for at least 10 years. If my asthma ever get healed completely, the credit should really goes to him.

Anyway, i had my holidays started earlier and i think i have enough of rest ! Time to move on! Thin time has gone ! I really need to know how to take good care of myself. Seeing my parents worry isnt a good thing. They have done more than enough. See what i have now ? I am not being high profile on what i have. It is just an feeling shown to express my satisfaction and appreciation . Thanks a bunch to everyone!

Ohya, i bought a guitar and will start to learn playing every Saturday in the temple. It is a Hofma guitar model 260 which cost around less than RM300. My friends told me its cheap as the market price is around RM400+ . Nonetheless, my classmates who known as a walking encyclopedia - Freddy, told me that it suppose to cost only RM190. He claimed that i was being cheated already. He dont know how much faith i have on my friends, then i have abit of surveying job and found out that RM190 is the price for USED GUITAR. Haha...i guess he got it wrong this time.

Bed time now, share with you all my thoughts next time. I really have lot to share here.

I hope the ailments will leave me forever , no, leave this world forever.

Numerous of Thoughts (2)

Argh....I was exhausted. All these are suppose to be so simple and it comes t become complicated when it happens to me. Oui (In french means YES), i am living in a world which requires a lot of choice choosing. I know this doesnt apply to me as all of us will experiences. There's too much that i need to be considered on as i know, it is not me myself making my life but it is all of u making my life. My life is just so lucky and being fortunate to have all of you. Yes, as my title of this post stated, numerous thoughts in seconds. Till now, i am still waiting for the entry into UM Law Faculty which i still doubted whether i have made the right choice as i know the quality of UM is exceptionally low amongst all the law schools in this world. Knowing it's quality especially for the lecturer there is bad and why would i still taking such steps ? What is amiss to me ? In fact, there is nothing wrong with me as i know both are wise choice.

My college friends now has been working really hard in their law studies, as they are aiming really high. They are aiming for Kings Scholarship which i think i myself dont have faith on getting it . Nevertheless, i still cant stop dreaming about it. Dreaming myself getting into Kings College, London. At the same time, i think i should stop dreaming this since i am still unsure whether will i still continue my law studies in BAC. Yes, half hanging again. Study abroad has been my dream since small especially UK . It may be beneficial for me if i got the chance to read law in UM , i may not be burdened and stressed as now by what my friends have labelled me as. This is simple on the grounds that, Kings Scholarship will not be awarded for top scorer in UM. Well, of course, i would be very happy if one of us gets that. We all get enthused on the Kings Scholar topic. We all study in the same institution, we have the same source, we have the same lecturer ! It is in general that we stand equal chance on getting Kings Scholarship. It would not be fair if one being labelled as Best candidate of Kings and others are not. What makes the different is, the effort one has put in , it is the efforts one has given that makes a genius or in another an intelligent. My friends, lets start moving ! ( I knw some of u have started though) , I believe you all can create a record in the history of Kings Scholar , a Kings Scholar may not need to be a nerd ! Work hard is neccessary at this point .

Hais, i have very much to write. All this while, i has been a very good anti-lecturer in my class. ( Which lecturer? lolx...u will know it). I admit that i myself is in ego naturally, but, i just cannot accept when an experienced lecturer make such a fundamental mistake and yet not willing to admit his fault. How could a unilateral offer becomes an Invitation to Treat on the case of Carlil v Carbolic Smokeball Co ? In this case, it was held that, a unilateral offer which has done by advertisement to world at large maybe an ITT, however, in Carlil, it makes a different whereby it requires an act for a promise. So, it is amount to an offer. Another case on this would be Bowerman v ABTA , it illustrates the same issue as Carlil case.

Yes, most of my classmates enjoy his class because he gives funny example on case . I as always, being so serious, i dislike that. It is not because of the jokes he told is bad but, if jokes and facts mixed together , that would lead to a serious consequences ! As long as he can tell jokes and deliver the right fact , i would probably listen to what he said. The notes he has given to me, i have not even touch on it . Well, the same applies to me, i just hate teaching people when i am unsure about certain thing. Last tuesday if i am not mistaken, I came to college in the morning as usual. I was asked to teach Tort and that part is remedies ! It is the girl, MJ, who then keep on asking me to teach her to write an essay on remedies which i am so damn not sure about that as i dont really study on that chapter during my A-levels. I tried my best but i felt so guilty at the sametime as i am afraid that i taught her the wrong thing. If it is for me to dislike people teaching wrong stuff, then i would hate myself as well. Nevertheless, that day has really makes me come to realise that, i should know everything in detail.

There is another thing which i would like to share with you all, BPTC in UK will be comes into effect by next year while it was being proposed by this year. BPTC stands for Bar Professional Training Course and it is currently being known as BVC ( Bar Vocational Course) . BVC has been a great course for those who wants to become a barrister, it is very practical and intensive training on advocasy skills and so forth with 13 subjects. However, UK doesnt seem to satisfy with it and looking for improvement. It is said that , the BVC graduates do not reach the standard which they are lack of advocasy skills and writing skills. I can now understand why UK education are much more prestigious than Malaysia . They always aiming high, scrutinise their whole system, analyse it and correct it as soon as possible. Whereas in Malaysia, the Great Britain makes Malaysia such a tiny country ! Come on ! Malaysia, dont live in comma ! wake up ! We need a change ! We have gone through Industrial revolution , why not we have an education revolution ? Yes, i agree we should love our country ! The way we love it is totally wrong ! We shouldnt be satsified so easily as there's room to improvement. We must know what is our mistake ! Just admit it if we are in problems ! Why hiding it and still claiming that we are doing great ? I wonder why a professor can come out with such words. Ok, i have been talking too far, well, my point is, if BVC is of least satisfaction standard, what about Malaysia's Certificate in Legal Practice which is not practicle based ? If Malaysia wants to change , why not being efficient on it ? Yes, they proposed a CBC Scheme , but it will only be coming into force by 4-5years later! Malaysia, please change ! If we have the vaccine of the virus, why not using it as soon as possible ? Lets have a fair meritocracy system!

What i can say is, Malaysia boleh. The only country which has a written constitution but without separation of power. The only country which can use power arbitrarily. The only country knows its problems but has not taken any steps to overcome it. I really cannot anticipate on what will happened to Malaysia in the future. Why would they still using Malay to teach their law ? I had a glance on the law books and the way they contrued the sentence is so problematic. If they were with the will or intention to make UM a international recognised university, they should do it in English as it may be the best way to decribe the law.

As i promised, i will write on the role of a judge, i couldnt recall what i wanted to share as i have forgotten whats the arguments i had with my friend. A judge in my view , should be impartial and without realising himself hold a pose called JUDGE but with the realisation that, Justice must not only be done, it must be seen to be done. The lust for craving for power shouldnt exist in the judge. As per Lord Nolan , judges are not interested in the pursuit of power.If they were, they would not have become judges.

TO BE CONTINUE................................................................

Numerous thought in seconds

I feel like taking a rest. I am really mentally tired which is undescribable.

Sava bien ? Sava !

I hope all the respective readers are enjoyed reading my blog. Though some of my friend do think my blog can hardly be understood and it is a way too long ? I really appreciate those who has discussed with me on the philosophies and left some comments. Thanks abundantly for your typing efforts. Can't imagine all thing can be so furious and extremely prompt. By viewing and reading this post, you will get to know me better. Especially, this post....

Below are what am i gonna jot down in my blog :

~ The negative side of me will be disclosed partially here now and in this post itself. Dr Jekyll is back! It is reveiled by a wise man who happened to appear in my life at one point of life. The one who keep remind me stay away from egoness and self-centredness. The one who has lead me all this way till now. The one who has enlightened me along when i faced obstacles.The one who teaches me to take off the thought of " An eye for an eye". The one who knows me the best !

~ Another issue i would like to discuss on would be realitivity whether does money is the only source which satisfy your needs? I, personally think on this view is fatous as you would fall into an deep abyss or may even buried in it. Isn't it is just so undignity ? Lets seek for further discussion in below. However, it is just plainly my two cents, dont take my words wholly as a little knowledge is a dangerous thing.Ermm.... Albeit what i have shared might not be idea or realiable, but, i think as long as it leads you to think, then i fits the purpose of me posting these.

~ Next, i would like to bring on some thought of mine of a role for ' Judges' and stage of life which people may come across to.

~ Whether are you pretending ? The fakeness you are having is true or untrue ? if it is true, are you pretending ?

~ All about my dad

I have bunches of things , thoughts, or incidents that i wish to make it in written but we all just have 24 hours per day. Neither do i as an ordinary man, i have not enough time to do whatever i wished. Look here, some of us may opined that, we actually own 24 hours.By having this thought, man sebsequently, in a way, think that time is beyond their control. No, within OUR control. Lolx...i am man as well. The fact is, do we indeed own it ? Time is a scope of our life in nature where we are given such amount f time to complete your mission. We wont be here if there is no reason as of law, there is law when there is reasoning which make thing or justice to be seen. Where there is a principle of reasoning, it indicating the rule of cause and effect. The nature of law itself is to make justice to be seen, i think those who can near this testimony is natutalist. ( Note: i havent read on Jurisprudence yet, it is just merely a silly view !) . To make thing short, we are here for some reasons.

In the public eyes, people used to view me as a very good human, smart, or hardworking which i am not indeed. It is recently something had happened which put me into awake ! Last time, i dont used to believe in horoscope and now, i think it is quite accurate and true in a way. It is especially when it describes on Leo's characteristics. Egoistic, can hardly being humble, Self-centred and so on. Tell you what, it is true. Sometimes, egoistic is just driving me to criticise on certain issues and ignore other's view. As a buddhist, i learnt a lot of theories on it and it cant seems to be practicable for me. From now on, i really dont dare to declare myself as a Buddhist. I hope to be a better man but yet, i cant make it. I cant see my own mistake ! Where there's a conflict between the Buddhism Teaching and the way my family brought me out. I am trying to lighten up this negative side of me and therefore you can seldom see me giving my views but remain silents. Try to be as low profile as much as i can. I know , my attitudes may have already hurted someone and i am sorry. I dont mean to let you all down. See ? i am bad and stupid and dumb actually. However, i am trying to improve myself.

To be continue on others issue.......

The Social Animal - Emile Durkheim (2)

From the last post, i have got a comment from an anonymous user which he/sh has got a point there. There used to be an ampersand that Man is the lord of all kind. It is opined, that, this phrase is invented by man as a tool of motivation to do their daily rountine chores in a positive way. Too much of sugars will cause diabetes, so do human, if they don't use something within the limit, it tends to make negative issue arises. Man will therefore , ultimately, use that phrase to avoid from problems and negate other views and hence become self-centred . The purpose of that phrase is now goes out of the window. Whether does man is lord of all kinds will be a great debate whereby i think everyone is equal and not only man. I am, in a way, a supporter of functionalist, as what Talcott Parson has expressed, he opined that this society is like a human body with organs , every organs has their own fuctions to make sure the body functioning well. 

Everybody serves as an important part in this society. It is just like your heart can never replace with your lungs and the other way around.  It is indicating that the everyone of us is special with no differences as it cannot be made into comparisons. Hence why i am very curious why and still there is some group of people fighting for their rights. I will lay down the examples here and you may just think of it. If i ever jot this down in my blog , i am sure someone will not be able to digest it. For me, it is not a rational to find a way when there is no way or there is already a way in front of you. 

 As per Auguste Comte, the society itself is a 'social system'. It is again affirmed what Parsons has stated. As a result, please be positive and do whatever you can to achieve ( or i shall say, do what is neccessary) and you are done. You have completed your mission. Therefore, nothing is impossible is quite true is a sense. Haha...why is that ? If you do what u suppose to do and within your limitation , why couldnt it be done ? This does not mean that one can underestimate themselves . You must believe in yourself as u must know you will never know the outcome. It is doing your best that makes you different. Trying your best is just an excuse for you to get ready on failure. Do believe that ....   You are special ! 

The Social Animal - Emile Durkheim

Time flies and water continues dropping. It has been 2 months since started my LLB life in Brickfields Asia College. I am blogging again , last time i used to blog only once in a blue moon. In next to no time, the IPTA( Local Public University) list is going to release . My friends urged me to apply Law in UM and i did so. Since i have not much of faith getting a sit in UM( University Malaya for your knowledge if you dont know), so i get enrolled into BAC which i think i have a great time over there now. It is going to be a herculean task for me to choose whether should i stay or leave. As what people said, it is always hard to say goodbye. Isnt it sounds so sheepish as i know myself won't be able to secure a sit in UM and yet think of that. Am i thinking too much ? I would not deny or neglect your point of view saying that i am anyway. In regards on this issue, one of my friend who always said that i am thinking too much who is Jxxxxxx ( he dont want me to cite his name here,sorry). Well, he taught me a lot of things and maybe some philosophy of life i would say. I should really thanks him profusely on that even he still strongly says that he did nothing. Yes, thinking too much will indeed may bring some complication of feeling. In another view, it is a must to think that much, i think considering is a better word. Instead of saying i am thinking too much, why not saying that i take more things into consideration so everything is under control ? Isnt that one of the requirement of a lawyer is to think ?However, Thanks a bunch to those who has given me some advice and helps ! One of the principle of my life is i will never forget people who has helped me. I really appreciate it. Friends, i will definitely help you if i can do it. Remember my words. Howsoever you all may adviced me not to think so much , i will take it for the usage in the future. Till now, i am still doing what i think i suppose to do and think what i suppose to think. How stubborn this creature is , its me, Junhong. Lolx.... Besides, i am also glad that i have 'Heng dais'- BROTHERS& SISTERS in my life where they have guide me a lots in my life. They are important to me ! Very important. They know me more than my family members. They play a significant role in my life on whatever i have faced, Studies, Personality or Characteristic , Family, Friendship, or recently they even help me in dealing with love which torturing me these few months.( Trust me, u will be surprise what they have done!) Therefore, sometimes you will see me remain silent. I just cant control myself. Excessive thinking has controls all over my body even my mind.

Last time, i used to hate sociology very much. After November 2008, i started liking it. Learning all those philosophies and sociologies is indeed one of the best experience ever in my life. Why ? It will be useful in my law journey or my entire life. It is sad that there are less institution offering this subject in A-levels. In my honest opinion, it is important for future lawyer. It is not to point out that i may be excel in sociology which in fact i dont, i failed once ! The marking of sociology is very stringent and it commonly known as one of the toughest subject in Cambridge A-levels. I tried myself the best to understand this subject and finally i got through. I got a D , I am dare to share this out is not to show that i am good enough. But, it is just simply want to prove those who think i am bright and smart is definitely wrong. Honestly, i worked my fingers to the bone and yet, I got a D , not an A. The fact tells everything. I still need to thanks to Mr Shankar, he makes sociology no longer a total stranger to me and i passed, most importantly. Hehe...

Just not talking too much on that, Emile Durkheim who is a french sociologist and known as the father of sociology used to describe human as the social animal. Why is that ? My knowledge is limited and have poor memorising skill, so, i have no idea whether can what i have laid down here hold much water. Anyway, i will share whatever i know. Society basically forms by a group of human with collective conscience along with norms and culture that is established since time immemorial. Criticism may be arises since he uses the word 'animal', it is quite true in a sense. Animal can hardly live alone , neither do man- The Lord of all Creatures ? . People need to stay together to make a strong society. Therefore, we need socialisation. Socialisation in sociology brings another meaning as what we used to understand it is. We need socialisation to make sure we can live together in a crowd of people so life easier. Of course, it depends on the society's norms , values and cultures on the way people socialise themselve and it changes from time to time as well. In short, it states that human can hardly survive alone. It is essential for ones to socialise and get to know each other in this society. Ooops...when it comes to this question, i shall remain silent as i am not good in socialisation. However, i would still give my two cents on this issue. First, how would you define socialisation? I was once being told by my friend that i am kind of passive. I wonder how does that jurisdiction come from and she never gives her reason for that. Maybe she has her own reason for not explain it indepth. It is rather unjustified whereby ones should notice both sides of a person, whenever you see there is an introvert side of that person, it does not mean that there is no extrovert side in that person. Human is a complicated animal where one words cannot describe it clearly. If ones dare to give me a one word judgement, i can swear he or she will get a lot of question from me.

Second, What is the purpose of you getting socialable ? In realitivism , it states that human is selfish, Glaucon's view is, Essentially, he believes all persons are selfish, self-interested, and egoistic. What do you think ? Is that one of the purpose of you being socialisable , to get more benefits from others ? Be true and be sincere is the best way to socialise, in my point of view. However, it is sometimes out of your control , whereby you need to know more in order socialise and mix with all kind of people. I am very shallow when it comes to knowledge and skills. Therefore i guess, thats one of the reason why i couldnt really socialise well ?

-----------------to be continue-------------------------------------

Progress of Life , it still goes on.

Progress is crucial, whether you have been getting worst or getting better. One must observe theirs own life in order to make sure he or she is on the right track. No? I was reading on my friends msn heading just now and it does awakened me in which we must divide our time wisely to make sure each part of our life is well taken care of. Each of us might have different manners or priority given to each part of our life. For example, one can give more priority to family and least on sports and so on. These days , i have never been really stay at home but keep running out of house. I noticed that, i may have missed out something in my family. Seriously, my time is quite packed as compared to my friends. My LLB class has started, Temple activities that inclusive of Cooking lesson, Dharma lesson and others, Teaching form 1 and form 2 BM on tuesday night, Working if there is any customer needed me to be serve on, Blogging, Swimming, Reading and Researching. I dislike if you need me to sit at home and do nothing or just surfing net. I rather use my time on more meaningful way where i can learn a lot of thing and improve.

Well, my progress is going fine i guess. Still not be able to split myself and therefore i might missed out something. In fact, i just received a call from someone demanding on tuition for primary school. On the fact, i dont think i can take any duties by now even i hope to help out. Sorry for that. This monday i had my Malaysian Studies lecture which lectured by an old man that is quite egoistic and unfriendly. He is funny sometimes though. Seriously, the class is just a waste of time to learn about Malaysia's so called history and Malaysia Legal System. It is nothing even if we get to know how it works ! Yes, i admit that i may sounds deviance to think in that way. Malaysia Boleh ! We learnt about Separation of Power, the court system in Malaysia. What is the point of learning all that if there is no point to follow ? The separation Power is simply now in a mess ! The highest law of the land is least followed and yet the government of Malaysia is working efficiently on getting people under the detention of ISA which is one of the Act of Parliament in Malaysia. The Federal Constitution is setted up once we got our independentship and the citizens of Malaysia is ought to be bound by it. The monarch also must act accordingly to what have been stated in Federal Constitution. In another word , it simply works as the fundamental principle of Malaysia. It serves as a strong foundation in this honourable Bolehland. Howsoever the sovereignity of the Malaysia's Parliament is , it have to be followed since it is the highest law of the land. In concerning on that, it is noticed that the state assembly has been now a hot topic to discuss on, The court has interfered on state assembly. I doubted any country in this world would allows such an incident to happen besides our beloved Country.

In Federal Constitution Article 72(1) , it states that The validity of any proceedings in the Legislative Assembly of any State shall not be

questioned in any court.

SO ? Shall i say , It loses it importance ? Anyway , it is not for me , a first year law student on criticise it or question about it. But , as one of the rightful citizen of Malaysia, the curiousity just drives me crazily about that !

Apart from that , I have enjoyed Public law and it is getting more interesting on the Rule of law. It is somehow related to legal philosophy, i mean sort of. I was planning to buy a Jurisprudence book which is The Concept of Law by Professor Hart. I think it is a good book to read on. However, i am informed that it is not a book that can be read for the sake of interest. So, i rub-off the idea on getting that book even the eagerness in reading that still running on my head. I enjoy so much when reading someone's theory. Of course that theory must be impressed me in some way. The most impressing theory i have ever read is still remain as the Buddhism Theory which trains me the right way of thinking.

I come across when someone asked me how am i going to spend my time whilst i am free, and i answered:" Temple's activities,Swimming, Chatting, Blogging and etc." He is poped up with a short reply :" Hahax...religious boy !" Well, i wouldnt say it is religious and of course it really depends on how you going to define the word RELIGIOUS. It is too subjective and no one can have a definite answer for that as each of us grown up in different childhood and it differs by the way your parents taught you. What makes me started to get involve in religion which is the terminology commonly known by people, for me, it is a way of education to teach us to become a better person. I think i have mentioned that i myself is curiousity orientated , right? I started to look for some belief or a set of thought which suits me the best as i have always wondering why am i here when i was small and my parents couldnt give me a good answer for that. When i was still in Primary school , i joined Church activities and i think it is the best taught ever ! Looking in the bible and reading whats the jesus has said. Quote from one of it , If you are thirsty , come to me and drink. Isnt it just perfect ? I joined the Sunday Church for quite a long time if i am not mistaken. I think it is protestant based church. Whatever it is , what i am looking for is the best thought that can solves my questionsin my mind. The Sunday Church teacher told me, whats the point of praying to a statue that isnt alive ? I was awakened by that statement ! When i go back , i told my mum :" Dont ever ask me to pray for the Chinese God, it is silly for doing that !" I believe in the power of thought when i was small , and whey they teach me to pray . I feel it is a way to communicate to God. When i go back to school ( i was only standard 2 i guess), I started to share what i have gone through and what i have got from Christianity taught. One of my friend asked me , how can i achieve a good result as u ? You guys must be laugh at me by what i have taught him . I taught him the way to pray to the god ! Well , somehow in a miracle way or he does work hard for it , he achieved to be the first in our class and now still excellent. My dad then actually restricted me from going to Church for god knows reason. ieven have the intention to get baptised on that point or maybe confirmed. One of the lady who fetches me to Church will always ask me for RM1 to give to the Church , i then asked , whats that for ? She told me it will be sent to the God . The typical Y-generation of me , will definitely ask her in what way can it be send to the god ? God needs money for what? and various of questions i asked. Yes, she didnt gives me any acceptable answer but asked me to just listen and follow. Since that, i have seldom get the chance to attend the church , maybe she afraid that i will ask too many question that is unanswerable? haha...My family isnt religious but i would say supersititous on some customs and belief on our ancient's souls and the taoism's god. In another way, it wouldnt be too much if i considered them as Atheis . In standard 6, i started to get some information on Buddhism which the solved my misunderstandness. I always thought that Taoism is the same like Buddhism. In fact , it is not. It explains about the universe , causes and effects, it almost explains all the WHY! It is all about logic and truth. If i keep elaborate on that , it would probably reached few pages.

Refer back to my friend's question, i answered him that the reason why i involve myself actively in Buddhism activities is that i dont want to just sit at home and do nothing. Kind of Outgoing person i would say but not those clubbing and all. I always think that i have missed a lot of chances to improve and learn.

All right, the latter one would be Common Law Reasoning Teaches by Ms Donna , an aussie white women. She teaches us in a very LECTURE way , i mean she just keep talking with almost the same face expression. Haha..however, she is still good enough as she did presents the lecture quite well and i think i always learnt something new in her class. Though i always feel quite sleepy in her class. She uses the book written by Slapper & Kelly which i always encounter problem in understanding the content of that book. After the lecture , i think i will have a better experience if i read that book again. Bravo ! Last week we learnt about Common law and equity, it was fun as we got class activities.

On last Wednesday, We were, as usual having Moral Studies class in the morning session and it was as expected . It was just plain bored ! 3 hours of lecture is too much for that, in addition when he explains the theory of morality, i just feel awkward. Maybe Malay isnt a good language to explain those philosophies. The only fun part in this lecture is that we get to watch some funny movie clips that restrospectively doesnt not reflects or mirrors on Morality in society. The one which impressed me a lot, undoubtedly, it is the clip of Britain's got talents of Susan Boyle. You should watch it. After that, we all went to petaling street and looking for some good lunch since we have hours to go before another class commence. Haha, we also went to ATC , another law school in Malaysia and paid a visit there. Impressed us indeed. Especially the law library. It was a rainy day and we have Contract law class. In my inner thinking , i keep send my thought to the universe so make sure the lecturer would be Ms Meera. Hey, you should read the book " The Secret". Unfortunately, it doesnt work. We studied on Consideration that day and of course howsoever bad i might consider of the way he presents , he still up to the bar to teach us as he got the knowledge still. What i usually when i study Contract law is , i feel so packed in my mind which is a good thing. It keeps my on the right track of thinking the law. Unfortuantely, it just not happening when i attend his lecture. Anyway, it will not lessen down my interest on Contract Law. I think i have more works to be done on that. Self-studies.

Approximately, just 48hours ago, i went for a movie with a friend. We watched Angels and Demons 2D and we went for dinner and shopping together. I shall not elaborate further about that. On friday, i had my criminal law class teaches by Mr Arnold, the professional lawyer and quite a good lecturer as well. What i like about him is he really wanted and make sure all of us understand the elements of Criminal Law. I have photocopied 2 Criminal Law books , which one of it written by Michael Allen and another one by Elliot and Quinn. Both are good and quality book. I have not go in deepth on reading that though. What i wanted to say is , CRIMINAL LAW IS GETTING INTERESTING AS IT ALWAYS BE and will SOON BECOMING MORE INTERESTING. YahOOOOOO.....

My buddies ,lets face the obstacles and overcome whatever pathethic incidents has happened. Man is the Lord of all creations ! We can do it and progess better !

However bad it is going to be , Progress of life, it does go on .

MOTHER'S DAY THOUGHT

Just a few moments ago, after we had a good dinner which really filled up the space of my stomach , it is as what i expected , we went for shopping. It can be assumed that it is our norms and practices in every Sunday, thus so called it Family Day.

It is then a coindence where i met my old friends namely Shuwen and Kahwei at Giant, Taman Connaught. Though i was expected to meet someone , yet, i dont know it would be that accurate. Anyway, it is happy to meet them as i can seldom or rarely meet with them. They grown up to become more matured from the appearance, it is such a shame as i think i still look immatured. Kahwei works there as a promoter and what i saw her doing is , blewing on those balloons for Mother'S Day. Did i really changed a lots ? Shuwen whereas another old friend of mine expressed her view that she is shocked when seeing me wearing singlet. From what they said, i become more wild ( translation from mandarin literally) .Do note that she told it politely and friendly. I still wonder how they judge that, does that statement comes from my appearance ? With wearing a singlet and conclusion has been made that i become more wild ? I said :" Really? I am still as goodie as what i used to be in secondary school ." What i wanted to lay down is , Wearing a singlet doesnt have any indication of ones being more wild or deviant. It is not to mention the thought of my friends but that led me to a thought. Deep thought. However, From another perspective , it is logic and reasonable to be said that what my friend has stated is very correct. What makes it sounds right is , i give an anology here, When someone from China who used to cool weather , he will feels extremely hot in Malaysia whereas for us, Malaysian might even wear sweater ! See the points ?

I was surprised that how prompt can a person takes to judge you? It takes not even a second. Thats why a quote existing as : "You will never get a second chance to make a first impression ." In my personal point of view , this statement can be taken in two way which one is human tends to make an assumption promptly till you may not aware of it and therefore causing another outcome would be your appearance or howsoever you present yourself will be judged by people within a second which indicates you can hardly change the perception of that person who has already judged you. Can i say that , We as a human do have extraordinary abilities on invention and we are the controller of those invented thing. What i wanted to deliever is, though we are strong enough to control machines, we cant control our thought. It is sometime contradicting that when we say, we are human, the soul of all kinds when we sought out a solution. In another way, we then say, we are layman and ordinary enough when we failed. Isn't it is us who give excuses ? Is it the nature of human kind ? What do you think?

Over Decades ago , the so-called sciencetist strongly argue that the earth is in square shape , which in fact with the advance of knowledge of technology and of course the way man think has improved. Hence they found the earth is in sphere. In fact, it is then another arguments on that matter, the earth might not neccessarily to be sphere, but it is out of shape depending on how you define and interpret the word of " SPHERE". Don't yout think so ?

In my personal opinion, don't make assumption on something so confidentaly if you dont have any strong fact or evidence to support that and please do aware that , it is hardly to confirm something in such a absolute way. What i have opined don't have the intention to restrict ones thought, but merely a point of view.However , based on the points above, shall i make a conclusion that , Man likes to judge. Do tell me your thought about that as i am one of the victim who have restrictive thinking and may not be critical enough. Haha...

Another incident to share with you all is , Mother's Day Theory. Haha...i have mentioned in the above that i met my friend in Giant. My friend asked me to give a flower to my mother and i refused it. The reason i refuse that suggestion is, first, i am Not romantic enough. ( I guess it will attracts lot of criticsm if i refused based on this reason itself only.) My friend said:" Give a flower to you mother la , today is mother's day ma !" Secondly, Frankly speaking, i refused that on the grounds that, she mentioned MOTHER'S DAY. It is a special day where everyone is celebrating on that, but, NOTHING MORE SPECIAL THAN MY MUM. Mother's Day is getting commercialise which there are least of appreciation. However, i am still thankful to my friend that she reminded me how important mother is . I think you all will agree that , not mother's day that makes mother special , it is mother's who makes this day special. Yes, nothing more special than mother. Isnt it ?

Journey Started.

It is amazed that i have not been blogging on my personal life since last October 2008. Shall i just say, my life is not getting any easier and some goodness does come over my life in short of my life these days. I left Lxxxxxn Cxxxxxe Axxx Pxxxxxx which appears to be the worst place in my friend's point of view. I did my A-levels there and i think my result is on satisfaction. In another word, i have enough of passes ( some distinction) to continue for my law studies. I doubted on where can i get those gutts and courage to take all the paper at once. I believe thats what the effect of having bunches of friends around you and give you support. I am so fortune and lucky to have them. I have learnt so many things all this while. As the earth spinning, my life is changing since life goes on with just a blink of eyes. The life goes on second by second. We are lucky to have 10 amazing buildings , 10 miracles places and so on. But then , do we have the appreciation for having time in our life ? Isnt time is the most outstanding, extraordinary "things" in our life ? Erm..shall i use Thing to describe it ? Well, i can find any better word to be used on describing time itself. Thats justified since it eventually prove me right. TIME ITSELF is a MIRACLE . How does Time established in this universe ? Think of it. Be a thinker.

In last January, i was waiting for my results with nervousness and hopes. The college doesnt seem to work nice with me. They had a delay as they having internal problem. What is amiss ! I whispered internally. They lied , from what they told me , Cambridge University have some complication on delivering the results. It is undeniable that they do have excellent acting technique, however, since i have the experience being lied by them, i learnt from lesson. I then called up Cambridge University Region Representative and i get to know that it is infact the college have not pay the full arrears of the fees and therefore they hold our results.The Rep. pissed off since the college put the blame on Cambridge University on that matter. It is expected that the Rep. will surely call up the college and threw some scoldish words.

One day, i went to the college and asked for the result. I was informed by the receptionist that i shall wait in the counselling room. All right , erhummm, it doesnt sounds right. Well, i have no choice but obey on what they asked me to - WAIT at the counselling room. The director of Studies shows his unfriendly face to me and tell me that i have caused a big issue to the college and ask me the reason of me calling the Cambridge Rep. . I see no reasons as to why should i be good to them. Therefore, still, i was being polite and honest that day and explained:" It is not that i want to call him , but, u all lied to me !"The Director of Studies was speechless for a few seconds and started explaining. He is smart , he said :" I dont know what is the communication between you and Ms Sxxxxxxxxa . but , if there is anything, just straight away find me ." Long story cuts short. Within a few days , i got my results. 

I then started to look for my new home to study. I used Home to decribe the college as i need to make sure it provides what i want , safe and stable . They used to be a rumour saying that ATC is the best law school ever in Malaysia, if you intended to read law, it is a must to get into ATC. I always have a bad habit which is if somebody trying to give a conclusive statement confidentaly , i tend to find some points to prove it wrong/ not neccessarily. I dislike the fact that , This is this and that should be that. Of course , it is one of the reason why i choosed BAC at the end, a minor reason, not the major ones though. Having said that, it doesnt mean i have no other factors which drive me towards the decision to read law in BAC. First, they just simply have experienced lecturers and some of them are even practicing lawyers ! Note: Being experienced doenst mean they are good in delivering the laws, still up to observation in the future. Some of  us might argue that , ATC got experienced lecturer there as well and they have a fantastic track record ! Besides, ATC consists of a large, neat,systematic library , the library is the only one that i get impressed with. Also, ATC have better facilities for law student as the have a moot court there. I wouldnt deny any of those arguements , in opposite, i will just have a reply of :" YES , YES, YES and YES.....BUT !  One needs not a moot court to succeed in practicing legal field, it might be an advantages and yet not neccessarily. They have more lawyer like's student and life over there. Quote from an idiom :" Do not judge a book by its cover." Old lame idiom to be used and yet , it is just true enough. Yes, it shows professionalism feeling and get to impress people. But then, having the ability to impressed someone at the first sight and dont have strong capabilities or abilities , more marks will be reduced. Thats what called : LETTING PEOPLE DOWN which in fact will let you down. What i think is , give BAC a try ! who knows it can become another UoL awarded law institution and produces more Kings Scholars ? "

Since i have aimed to enter BAC , i went there and take some forms to be filled up. Then only i get to know that they dont have intake in March and therefore i have to wait for the April's. After working for another one month , i pay them a visit again and registered. The moment i saw those law books , i had a feeling of hugging it ! Hahax, a bit too much isnt it ?  Still , it is true. I am a law addictus without a doubt, especially for Contract Law. For my first year of my law degree , it consists of 4 subjects which are Public Law, Contract Law, Criminal Law and Common Law Reasoning and Institution ( I like the name of it , REASONING just sounds so LAW !) . Public Law has always known as the driest and the most boring subject , i dont really agree with that. In fact, i think i have enjoyed it so far. I love it especially on writing those essays ! It trains me to think ! I have a better understanding of law now as compared to last time by having study on Public Law. The lecturer is Mr Kevin , a young lecturer but have a good delivering skills on Public Law in my honest opinion.Contract Law is the best of course as i used to be the top scorer in my previous college for A-levels , but it is getting more complex and it requires more arguments and analytical mind which i am lacking of . In my humble opinion, Amongst all the lecturers , i dont really think the Contract Lecturer is good enough to teach us . Just imagine he made a mistake on citing wrong issues in certain elements of law and yet not correctable.Okay,we are all layman and ordinary , it is normal that we all did mistakes. So, just admit it and correct it for all's sakes! We may just possibly failed by citing on wrong cases in Intermediate Level. It would be really disastrous ! Criminal Law is then another interesting subject but i still need time to digest it, it is bulky enough. The lecturer is fine with good explanation as he himself is a practicing lawyer. It is somehow too bad to have a lawyer as our lecturer , they tend to have punctuality problem in coming to class. The class will normally start late and finish earlier. In a sense , it is good to let us to loosen our brain's nerves so we won't be out of our mind. I think he dont want us to use insanity to claim as a defence in court if we commit crime and charged. Haha...Another subject which is Common Law Reasoning and Institution and more commonly known as English Legal Sysyem. It is another fun subject to study on , it needs us to memorise on whaht the judges has stated , statutes and cases. ( Well, so do other law subjects.) It basically study on how does the common law comes from , how does the judges being selected , how does the judge decide a case on the question of whether does the jugde make law or bound by its previous decision ( Precedent).  As imposed by the above , i will mention on the lecturer. The lecturer for this subject is a White women who speaks in a quite English tone or i shall say accent . She explained very well in the introduction. It is my mistake since i felt sleepy when listen to her voice , or i shall just say , her voice is a little bit too nice ! I feel like listen to news. On the fact, she does provide useful informations. 

College life has started and apparently , i will make new friends. It is quite different from my previous college where i can rarely have a chance to communicate in mandarin. Well, so far the closest friend i have in class are Freddy,ChongSheng and Wilson and each of them got unique personality. Others would be Tenly, TingTing,Janice, Yasooda, Deepan,Carmen, Mardu and so on. Now , i think i communicte in mandarin more ! Recently get to know a few new friends , namely the Joonlip, Christopher and Adrian. Starting from Freddy then , from Sarawak , good in explanation of the laws and like to share knowldedge. Though we have different opinions on certain issues and we tend to argue it out. Finally i can have someone to talk law with. Hahax...can hardly find friend like this. He have outstanding exposure on journalling, debate and so on. Such a multitalented person. Cant see myself when sitting with him , he is just too bright ! Haha...ANother one would be CHongsheng, the youngest amongst us , not even 18years old and we tend to laugh at him of being under age, in another word , He is still under minor catagory. He seems like immatured ( age wise) , but indeed i personally think he is quite different than others. It is said that he is quite matured in a sense that he thinks differently. Quite a frank and straight forward person i would say. I believe he has got amazing motivation on getting himself to become better. Wilson whereas is a guy who with analytical mind and quite a tolerance person. He will follows and yet have his principle. A bright future businessman with legal knowledge ! WOw..3 of them are just amazing! Another person which should i mentioned is Joonlip, he lives nearby my place and hence he fetched me back last week. He is quite low profile as he always think others are the best, have some knowledge of horoscopes and gonna be a 2nd year student in UPM studying on Computer Science. His interest is on Computer Science and got passion on law ! Being ambitious on becoming a judge rather than legal practitioner. Salute ! Passion or interest, which one is greater ? He decides. Somehow, i think he is smart even if he says he isnt good enough.

So, with all this kind of great badge of law student . Can i say , there's a hope on getting Kings Scholarship from BAC ? 

Guys , cheer up your life with law ! Legal passioner ! 

ThE Recent me .

YOu know what ? life is hectic and quite suffering ( note: i didnt have the intention to suicide though.) I am saying this is not because to make my self a sentimental boy or personality . In chinese's idioms , there is a idiom where it describe a person purposely express the depression just to write a passage or maybe poem , in fact , that person isnt that depressed . I've been come to the stage where lots of things until i cant really write it out . That's why my blog has not being updated for weeks or months ? Now , i am writing this just to update you all , my friends . Junhong is still alive with passion . 

Exams is just around the corner . As what you all know , i failed in sociology paper . That caused my family worry and they restrict almost everything what i want . In one way , i appreciate them and in another way , i dislike the way they all treat me . Please , im am sufisticated and i cant breath anymore ! I have friends , and i finally find the friends who i can share & care for whatever i've gone through . Gosh ...seriously , my emotion is unbalance now. My family can be tell literally , they all care about me. In another way , they care more on what they want on me . 

Internal Security Act ? ISA ? My family is possibly think that what i've done will affect my family's security . Im understandbly in a home curfew order ,I can only whether be in the house , follow wherever they goes , or maybe the pool . My temple's activities is like listed as a prohibited activities even if they dont tell that frankly . Somehow , they'll have something to say and block me . Oh my gosh ! Pity Me ! YES ! With no doubt , it will be far more comfort compare to anywhere . But , thats not what i want ! Junhong is goinng for revolution ? Asking for law reform ! ? Well ...No, it is however my dad is the head of my family . A 100%  Patriachal family . WHat my dad's said will usually an ORDER . 

I am just so unsataisfied with this rule . It might sounds crazy , is this have anythings to do with my situation ? Indirectly , i cannot have much communication with my friends . I can only have communication with lecturer , classmates , and family's members . Well, it is all affected my indirectly . There is a conflict in the deeply side of me , in one way , i am grateful that i have they as my parent . Indeed , very grateful.I know what they have done is for my OWN GOOD ....Ermm..do you find this familiar ? like you had heard of it somewhere ? Well , thats a singapore movie ,  "Im not stupid"...FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. In another way , my activist cells is like gonna burst from my body .  It is just so unfair to have those rules which is without any reason or any unacceptable reason. It is sad that we dont have any court to appeal on ( In my family) . I am now on Home Detention Order maybe thats another better word rather than using ISA . 

Yes , exam is coming. i decided to retake law again as well to improve its grade. I used to hate English legal system very much but now , it is like totally different . Im getting much more interested in English Legal System . It might seems boring , but , it would not be that dull after you get to understand it or get the full picture of it. For sociology , it is still difficult . I am trying my best and do whatever i could . I think i did improved , at least 1% . Hopefully i'll get a better grade this time. Besides , i register myself for Chinese subject . It is a long time that i dont write any essays in chinese . hOwever , i dont think i can ever fail this subject . ( Yea , it is without any lecturer , self study subject .)

Tell you wHat ! ( I gained weight ! ) From 55kg till now 61kg . What a massive change on me ! Well , oh my God !  Why boy cares about theirs weight ! Haha ...my whole family is laughing at me for my changes . The fact is , i am not as skinny as before . I can now wear singlet which last time i dont dare to wear for my Bone-y body . I am getting darker as well compared to last time since i go to swim regularly at least once a week in the afternoon . I dont even notice myself is actually getting darker until when i stand with my little brother . Wow , it makes a clear distinction . My brother used to be labelled as a DARKIE and now i am darker than him ? Haha ... who cares ? I dont at least . I mean not much . Seroiusly , i dont think i am that fat as what my family expressed to me . Maybe more healthier ????  

Oh yeah , when i talk about healthy . I must mention one thing , which is i got hiGH blood pressure ! 19 years old boy and now got high blood pressure . You can imagine how stressful i am . Oh , i am having headache now . Thats the effect of having high blood pressure . Psychologically and physically , i am not stable . I know , whatever happened , i still have to continue with my journey . I still have a long way to go . I wont defeated by these issues , no , It is that i cant . Swimming is of course one way to improve these problems . I likes swimming since i feel so relieve and comfort in water . In another , it is a prevention from getting fatter and fatter . I must also adjust my time , the time i got to bed  must be early . No more burning oil in the midnight . Yes , one thing eventually affect another to change and its changed and changing . Thats the world in the human ( the social animal) , inevitable and nothing actually last long . 

ISA ??OH ??WHAT'S THAT?

The HOT topic which almost all of us discuss about ....

what is that?

Here it goes ..do read !

What is the ISA? The Internal Security Act 1960 (ISA) is a preventive detention law in force in Malaysia. Any person may be detained by the police for up to 60 days without trial for an act which allegedly prejudices the security of the country or any part thereof. After 60 days, one may be further detained for a period of two years each, to be approved by the Minister of Home Affairs, thus making indefinite detention without trial. In 1989, the powers of the Minister under the legislation was made immune to judicial review by virtue of amendments to the Act. Now, only the courts are ‘allowed’ to examine and review technical matters pertaining to the ISA arrest. Since 1960 when the Act was enacted, thousands of people including trade unionists, student leaders, labour activists, political activists, religious groups, academicians, NGO activists have been arrested under the ISA. Many political activists in the past have been detained for more than a decade. The ISA has been consistently used against people who criticise the government and defend human rights. Known as the ‘white terror’, it has been the most feared and despised, yet convenient tool for the state to suppress opposition and open debate. The Act is an instrument maintained by the ruling government to control public life and civil society. The ISA goes against the right of a person to defend himself in an open and fair trial. The person can be incarcerated up to 60 days of interrogation without access to lawyers. The first 60 days A person detained under the ISA during the first 60 days is held incommunicado, with no access to the outside world. Furthermore, lawyers and family members are not allowed access to the detainee during this initial period. Only after a two-year detention order is signed, the detainee is carted off to the Kamunting Detention Centre to serve his or her two-year term, in which family members are allowed to visit. Torture Torture goes concurrently with ISA detention. Former detainees have testified to being subjected to severe physical and psychological torture. This may include one or more of the following: physical assault, forced nudity, sleep deprivation, round-the-clock interrogation, death threats, threats of bodily harm to family members, including threats of rape and bodily harm to their children. Also, detainees are confined in individual and acutely small cells with no light and air, in what is believed to be secret holding cells. These interrogation techniques and acts of torture are designed to humiliate and frighten detainees into revealing their weaknesses and breaking down their defences. Prolonged torture and deprivation have led to detainees signing state-manufactured ‘confessions’ under severe duress. During the first trial of former Deputy Prime Minister Anwar Ibrahim, police told the courts that the process of ‘extracting confessions’ under duress was called “turning over” and suggested it was a standard practice of the police. The Legislation Relevant sections of the legislation are as follows: Section 73(1) Internal Security Act 1960: “Any police officer may without warrant arrest and detain pending enquiries any person in respect of whom he has reason to believe- that there are grounds which would justify his detention under section 8; and that he has acted or is about to act or is likely to act in any manner prejudicial to the security of Malaysia or any part thereof or to maintenance of essential services therein or to the economic life thereof.” Sect 8. Power to order detention or restriction of persons. “(i) If the Minister is satisfied that the detention of any person is necessary with a view to preventing him from acting in any manner prejudicial to the security of Malaysia or any part thereof or to the maintenance of essential services therein or the economic life thereof, he may make an order (hereinafter referred to as a detention order) directing that that person be detained for any period not exceeding two years.” Criticism from within The late Tunku Abdul Rahman, former Prime Minister of Malaysia commenting on the mass arrests of 1987 to a British newspaper, said, “This is becoming more or less a police State … I never dreamt they would resort to those methods of dealing with our citizens. The opposition has the right to talk against the Government, now he (then Prime Minister, Mahathir Mohamad) has arrested all of them.” This aptly sums up the attitude of the government towards popular causes and the opposition.

 

本焕长老之闭关

本焕长老之闭关

My fellow friends , brothers and sisters . 

Here they are , a buddhism movie clip . 

No offence for those who against or others religion believer. 

Failure

History was made , everythings had been recorded by time , and i failed . Thats fact and i couldnt do anythings about it . For the first time in Junhong's academic record , the word "fail" has been dropped down . How sad ! =.= So, everyone here listen up . I failed , Junhong failed . Dont be suprise . What you need to do is remains to be silence and i will find my way. Please dont ask me why and how since i really have no idea . Not enough of hard work ? or maybe smart work ? Not brilliant  enough ? Not enough of coursework ? Not enough of lectures ? or Maybe not enough of oxygen. There are lots of possibilities . 

Seriously , i was speechless when i saw my result silp . It is stated beside sociology - UNGRADED . " WOw , ungrad....ungraded....!"  I know i failed only 1 subject , and that is enough to stop me from pursue a law degree . Generally , i suppose to be very sad . However , i just take 10 second for the sadness and i step out from college . To find a solution . Problem is right in front of me , and i have to find a way to solve it and make it better .

sOrry , dad & mum . I knew you gonna be very disappointed . At the same time , both of u dont wanna hurt me . I am so sorry . Just one step , and i'll be stand in the LLB stage . However , i failed to step on that stage . Please forgive me . 

I hate the way my bro look at me . He look at me as if he is damn happy with my failure . Oh my God ! Thats hurt ! My own brother look down at me ? I cant take it . Nevermind , i will take that freaking smile and i will surely break that smile in the future. I know i am not stupid ! How dare you looking at me in that way ? Im sure u'll be regret very soon . 

                                  笨小孩

哦～ 宁静的小村外 有一个笨小孩
出生在陆零年代
 十来岁到城市 不怕那太阳晒
 努力在柒零年代
 发现呀城市里 朋友们不用去灌溉
 花自然会开

 哦～ 转眼间那么快 这一个笨小孩
 又到了捌零年代
 三十岁到头来 不算好也不坏
 经过了玖零年代
 最无奈他自己 总是会慢人家一拍
 没有钱在那口袋
·）
哎哟 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
不用心情太坏
哎哟 向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开
老天自有安排

哦～ 他们说城市里 男不坏女不爱
 么想也不明白
妈妈说真心爱 会爱得很精彩
结果我没有女孩
笨小孩依然是坚强得像石头一块
只是晚上寂寞难耐
　

哎哟    ! 往着胸口拍一拍呀 勇敢站起来
        管它上山下海
哎哟 !    向着天空拜一拜呀 别想不开

    老天自有安排
                     老天爱笨小孩

>>>>>>>....我不是笨小孩....<<<<<<

BirthD@Y BIrthday BrithdaY!!!

" Oh ! My Birthday Is comING Soon ! Cant wait for it ! "<=Well , i dont have this kind of feeling . I am not that excited for my birthday . Instead of feeling happy or exciting , i am moody and feeling down in my birthday . I still cant figure out why am i that weird and so different than others . It can be contrast between me and my lovely sister . She was damn happy that day ( Yea, it was yesterday ) and hoping for some kind of celebration for her birthday .A month before her birthday , she is the one who keep remind all of us that her birthday is coming soon in this 5 August . Well , it is irritating when someone keep asking for present from you. I cant really stand with it actually , it was so fortune that she is my sister . Or else , i will just ignore her . How mean am i huh ? Haha ... Dont you think that keep asking birthday present from someone is not the right attitude ? It is just sounds so wrong . Very wrong indeed . Maybe i can think in another point of view , she is brave enough , isn't it ? She must be took lots of guts in order to do that . Ermm...i am not that brave since a present dont really mean that much for me . Anyway , she is my sister and i must try to understand the reason behind it . Maybe she want some attention from us ? Not enough of care ? or what she want is just a purely a celebration . You know what ? I think i got it right for the first guess . She want family's attention , what she want is just a care , a love from all of us . 

How can i notice it ? August , August , what a busy August for birthday celebration . My family had 2 celebration for my sister's birthday both in last sunday and yesterday . Last Sunday, i just back from temple with tiredness and i was exhausted .  When i back to my house , i just given 30 minutes for a bath and of course some basic grooming . After that , my dad brought us to a shopping mall . Oh , maybe a better word is shopping centre , not as comfort as a mall . Did you heard of Niu che sui ? A place nearby damansara or subang i guess . That place is such a boring . I wonder why so much of tourist come over since not much of stalls is open for business . However , it will be nice if u have a seat on Starbuck , Apple Donut Caffe and so on . You can have a luxurious lunch there if u want . What i wanted to say is , it is not a right place to shop . Boutiques there take at least 50% of the place . My mum , my sister and my aunt can shop one by one , that was so amazing ! I was suprised that pirated dvd can be found there . So, i go there and have a look there to find The Mummy 3 . (Note: I havent buy yet , just a look) . You know what i saw ? 80% is Homosexual's Dvd ! GOd ! When i went there and have a look , the promoter said is Cantonese :" All these is Gay movies ."  Those naked men in the cover , act like licking each other body . That was so Yucks ! How can they sell this kind of dvd that openly ? It is legally , morally and ethically wrong . You might ask :"Why do u still stand there since you know you are so offensive to it ? " Well , I am a boy who born with fantastic curiousity . Strong curiousity drive me to stand there and have a look . At least i must have some knowledge about it as a General knowledge . I read about a case of few professionals doctor commited an offence which apply pain on each other body and pin their testicles and penis on the wall . The case is R v Brown(1993) .  Apparently , they are all homosexual or maybe bisexual . Thats make me wonder why people like to be punished in they are all consent to it . Here is all about the case , if u interested , try to read it . It is a very long judgement . R v Brown (1993) case judgement . 

All right , done with that and we back to the topic . After that , I and my brother together with my dad went for lunch and leave those ladies enjoy themselves  . I was starving at that time man ! Okay , let makes everything short, my sister finally bought a skirt and yeah , after hours of walking and just 1 skirt ?  Hahaha ... is that worth it ? Maybe , maybe not .On our way to go back home , we passed by a Neway Karaoke building . An idea suddenly fly through my dad's mind , and he suggested :" Why dont we celebrate the birthday in Neway Karaoke box ? " Haha..all of us agreed and my aunt called to neway and booked a K-box . 

Yes , we then have a buffet dinner at Neway Cheras Plaza by around 7pm . I am nOw 19 years old and thats the first time i step into a Karaoke Box .  The first time , and the environment there is not bad , quite classy and comfort as well . The buffet is quite delicious too. We take only around 30 minutes for the buffet then we all started the main activity - SING . Frankly speaking , I can now sing . Haha... The modern song somemore . Haha...My cousin was drunk and he cant even put down the mic . He brought the mic along him even he get into toilet . What a funny guy . Seriously , i rather to sing myself but not listen to his voice . He was ShouTing ! My eardrum was suffering that time !  My grandma was feeling sick that time , she felt so sick  , so my uncle fetch her back . Then , a call from my grandma reached to my uncle and she said she need to seek for medical check up . The Happy atmosphere suddenly disappeared . My parent then said they will go back and bring grandma to doctor and ask us to continue . How can i having so much of fun when my grandma is now suffering there ? I was totally in an unbalance feeling that time. Then i realise that i should continue since i should know that my parent will do their best for grandma . So , we continue and sing again . Please dont ask me what song i sang , i cant really remember , numerous of songs . Yeah , quite a lot , for me . Song by Jacky cheong , Leehom , Yoga and etc... My uncle who is now 40 years old will always challenge those high note type of song even he cant really reach that. I went in and out to get the recent updates on my grandma and i cant concentrate on those song's lyric . When i get to know that my grandma don't have much of problem and stable , i felt so relief . The guiltiness inside me is however still struggling with my mind . I must at least accompany my parent to the medical centre but not singing there .  It was so fortune that my grandma situation is optimistic now after she got the injection from doctor . She lost her appetite to eat , i can only get her to drink a little bit of milo and thats all . 

Nevertheless , I think my sister has become more mature ( I mean her thinking, she is still a young teenage girl though. ) . I asked her :" Is it okay that we stop everything if something bad happen to grandma ? " She answered :" It is totally okay ! no problem ." I tell you , thats without deep thinking . Finally , she grown up . Yeah , thats my sister . Hopefully she wont let me down and room for improvement . However , it doesn't mean that she has the ability to protect herself yet . At this point , she is still my little sister and i'll still do my best for her. Overall , everything going smoothly that day besides my grandma . Quite frustrated that day actually. Yes , it was fun at the same time ( i mean the karaoke session). I am not karaoke addicted though . Everything come to the end finally and i was shock when we make the payment . It cost us a RM555.50 . Oh my God !!! Thats too expensive , the nuts which i think it would be cheap and it cost us 60++ for that .  Dont you think that it is unreasonable ? 

On my sister's birthday which is 5th August , we had another celebration as well . ( Huh? I thought u all hav celebrated it ?)... Yea , indeed . HOwever , it will be rather awkward if there's nothing special in the actual birthday. So, we bought cakes . Yes , right, cakes . We had 2 cakes that day coinsidentaly . My so called brother & sister , choonfei and suiling sis bought us a secret recipe cheese cake . That was so wonderful . 

--UnSToppable NErvouSness---P@SSion EsTOpel!

Unstable , Unbreathable and Un-sleep-able , I having insomnia recently . The negativity which i always been trying to hide is now leaking from my inner self . I just cant sleep and i wonder why ? Now, i've figure it out though . The faith which my brothers and sisters had given me is really burdening me so much , stressful enough to make me failure in sleep . They are peoples who i respect so much , and i appreciate them too . I don't wanna let them down . I trying to be as stable as i can these days. Indeed , i am not . Depressed . I try to be as busy as possible to make me forget about the A-levels result .  I just cant stop thinking about it . Trying to think of others people and forget about myself. Trying to be more humorous  to make some positivity . Am i happy ? Yes , in a sense that i feel happy for others and it is a NOT from me . I am absolutely not happy for the current me . Remember what i've posted last week ? Yesterday is history and tomorrow is history , but today is a gift , that's why it called the PRESENT . I failed to apply it . I still live in the past since i always thinking of the past "ME" . In others people's view , which included my friends and my family's member , they have an impression that i am a SMART boy who always doing fine academically. Yes , i am not the excellent one but at least just fine ! After form 3 and i did quite good in PMR  , my result was keep dropping . Honestly , i did bad in SPM too , I cant even score 6As man ! Okay , nevermind . I have enough distinctions and credits that can get me into any Pre-U course . Now , A-levels turns . The result will be release soon in this coming 10th August 2008 . My lord Buddha ! I cant failed ! I cant failed ! I must at least got a pass in any subject which i take . SouNds funny ? It is what popping in my mind right now though . My brother asked me once :" Cant u take failure easily?" and i can't answer that question . In the depth of myself , I whispered :" Yes , i really cant take any failure in my academic !" I cant afford that ! I cant take it ! Even a "C" grade is killing me ! What about fail then ? I can easily score well in exams last time(WEll, at least i can take it ) and now i cant .

I really need to get through ! Or else ?????????? Please ! Pursue a law degree means so much to me ! It is my future !  I am damn stressed right now . I love law and i enjoy reading it ! I dont wanna see these expression :" What? Junhong failed ! U gotta be kidding  me ! Impossible !" I am thinking too much now . The me right now is either sleep too much cause of tiredness or CAnt sleep cause of stressfulness . TOTALLY IMBALANCE . NO NO NO , please , not right now , i cant fail any subjects ! My mind is in a mess .... unstable .... My friends will think that i am quite a tough boy since i helped my secondary school's friend to solve their problem. Now , the challenge comes and i cant take it ! No ! It is not the challenge ! Tragedy ! It is however not a tragedy yet since no one know my result yet .I hope it is not gonna be a tragedy ! If i get through , i am sure i wont let it happen to me ! This is the first time ever i say this and it is the last time as well . If i get through , i will do what ever i can to help people in their academic and whatsoever problem they face . People will always promise to themselves in this way to make them feel better . However , it is my vow , it is my promise and it is my destiny to always get ready for help . Thats why, i cannot fail . 

Insomnia is still along me now and i cant take it anymore....Am i tough enough ? and those who always labelled themselves as a tough guy , R u tough enough ? I know only one guy who is that tough and still tough and he is the legend to me . I can hardly achieve that level of toughness . 

Way of lIfe.

Blogging seems to be bcome part of my life since this March . Have you ever think of what lifE do u prefer ? Life is a simple word , Yes , it seems easy but indeed it is not . I wouldnt be scare to say that most of us live in a meaningless life .>>> Ouch !! What a slap i get frm u ! <<<

 I knew it gonna be hurtful enough to admit yourself is actually having a clueless life . You might noticed one sentence and u may be the one who always use it or get used to it , gIVE u a clue : This word is always use to greet someone , u might have a glance of it in friendster , facebook  or any networking website. ErMmm...Yes ? No ? Anyone get it ? Or u r really clueless right now ? All right , the sentence is HOW'S LIFE ?  Without knowing where and how's ur life heading is just as we floating in the sea , where the wind blows then where we goes . One of my lecturer who taught me Sociology in my A-levels give us a quote from a philosopher which is :"I think therefore i am ." What do u think ? I gave my definition on this statement and my lecturer neglected it , then he give the correct one . In my point of view , there are no fix answer for this . For example , i've read one of my friend's blog which indirectly indicates everyone have different point of view . I think it would be a good idea to introduce his blog . Here is the blog , take a look at it . WILENG'S BLOG . Im sure u will at least gain something by reading it. 
I grabbed some pics from his blog , it is not copyright though...
                             
   Take a look at the below pictures, WHAT do u see ?
   
                                                      

Picture A: An oldman with spec Or a word "LIAR"?

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                      Picture B : GOOD or Evil ?


The purpose i upload these pics is to share a simple theory , No matter what you answer u give .We tends to argue that yours one is wrong but mine is correct .  It is very rare that we will think of  WE ARE BOTH CORRECT . According to the pictures i showed in the above , Both are correct , one can see the man and the word LIAR as well . Both is the perfect answer . Both .
As to that , In regards to the quote given by my lecturer , it is opined that both of us is actually correct as long as it means something to us and affect us in a positive way . All right , seems like i've gone to far away from what i want to say . ' I think therefore i am' , Man who never thought of their life is eventually damage themselves , thats my definition . What's my lecturer said before ? I've forgotten , sorry for that . From what i understand from that statement , We should get get rid off the dead chair and start thinking to avoid forming a living body without soul , NOW . I am not command anyone of you to do anything , but just to summon up your realisation on your life. We should at least think of what is the purpose for what i working on , we work for what , Why are we study ?  For those people who never work and keep studying , getting one degree then another degree , even if he/she got tons of Phd , what is his life then ? 
For example , one might earn billions in a days , then he sit there and wait for another billions to his pocket . What do you think ? 

By the way , Anyone of u watched "KUNGFU PANDA"? There's a memorable quote from the honorable tortoise :" Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it 'the present.'  We tend to live in the past , and we tend to curious and wanted to know what is coming is the future and we seldom think of what are we doing now and Is it appropriate to do such a things ? In Buddhism , there's a teaching in Diamond Sutra where is "We shouldn't have the thought of past,now,and future ." What the lord buddha trying to say is :" LIVE IN THE PRESENT."When we are driving , we will try to think of what is gonna happen tomorrow , but then , u know what is gonna result ? I 'll show u ----> BANG ! And ur car is crashed into little pieces . Is that what u want ? As what the tortoise master said in Kungfu Panda , Today is a gift and thats why it is called the Present . Since it is a gift , why don't we get fully use of it and appreciate every moment ? 

Due to the purpose of living , i got a friend who was my classmate in past . She is a girl who is so determined and so clear on what she gonna do . She is very honest and she don't like to pretend, always tells things in a frank way . She is honest enough to tell me that she want to be rich! Last day during exams period , most of us hanging around classes to classes , teacher seems to have so much faith on us and thats why don't really teach in that period . She will find a place to crack those books . She isn't those book-worm type of person but she clearly bare in her mind on what she wanna achieve. I guess , thats what make her scored quite well in SPM . She wont really care what's gonna happen and what had happened , But do better now. As what she told me , she gonna pursue a medic degree after her A-levels . She don't really interested in medic but she do it for her family-her parents . Mans do things for reasons . As long as what she did , benefit herself and peoples . I think it is okay to make that decision . 

What do u want in your life ? Money ? Working position? ...etc...Think and make sure you wont regret forever . You can make a different . You can make changes. You are the modifier , you are the creator and Thats your life . LIVE IN PRESENT.

Here is a movie clip from Kungfu panda where the tortoise master made a conversation with the panda.