--UnSToppable NErvouSness---P@SSion EsTOpel!

Unstable , Unbreathable and Un-sleep-able , I having insomnia recently . The negativity which i always been trying to hide is now leaking from my inner self . I just cant sleep and i wonder why ? Now, i've figure it out though . The faith which my brothers and sisters had given me is really burdening me so much , stressful enough to make me failure in sleep . They are peoples who i respect so much , and i appreciate them too . I don't wanna let them down . I trying to be as stable as i can these days. Indeed , i am not . Depressed . I try to be as busy as possible to make me forget about the A-levels result .  I just cant stop thinking about it . Trying to think of others people and forget about myself. Trying to be more humorous  to make some positivity . Am i happy ? Yes , in a sense that i feel happy for others and it is a NOT from me . I am absolutely not happy for the current me . Remember what i've posted last week ? Yesterday is history and tomorrow is history , but today is a gift , that's why it called the PRESENT . I failed to apply it . I still live in the past since i always thinking of the past "ME" . In others people's view , which included my friends and my family's member , they have an impression that i am a SMART boy who always doing fine academically. Yes , i am not the excellent one but at least just fine ! After form 3 and i did quite good in PMR  , my result was keep dropping . Honestly , i did bad in SPM too , I cant even score 6As man ! Okay , nevermind . I have enough distinctions and credits that can get me into any Pre-U course . Now , A-levels turns . The result will be release soon in this coming 10th August 2008 . My lord Buddha ! I cant failed ! I cant failed ! I must at least got a pass in any subject which i take . SouNds funny ? It is what popping in my mind right now though . My brother asked me once :" Cant u take failure easily?" and i can't answer that question . In the depth of myself , I whispered :" Yes , i really cant take any failure in my academic !" I cant afford that ! I cant take it ! Even a "C" grade is killing me ! What about fail then ? I can easily score well in exams last time(WEll, at least i can take it ) and now i cant .

I really need to get through ! Or else ?????????? Please ! Pursue a law degree means so much to me ! It is my future !  I am damn stressed right now . I love law and i enjoy reading it ! I dont wanna see these expression :" What? Junhong failed ! U gotta be kidding  me ! Impossible !" I am thinking too much now . The me right now is either sleep too much cause of tiredness or CAnt sleep cause of stressfulness . TOTALLY IMBALANCE . NO NO NO , please , not right now , i cant fail any subjects ! My mind is in a mess .... unstable .... My friends will think that i am quite a tough boy since i helped my secondary school's friend to solve their problem. Now , the challenge comes and i cant take it ! No ! It is not the challenge ! Tragedy ! It is however not a tragedy yet since no one know my result yet .I hope it is not gonna be a tragedy ! If i get through , i am sure i wont let it happen to me ! This is the first time ever i say this and it is the last time as well . If i get through , i will do what ever i can to help people in their academic and whatsoever problem they face . People will always promise to themselves in this way to make them feel better . However , it is my vow , it is my promise and it is my destiny to always get ready for help . Thats why, i cannot fail . 

Insomnia is still along me now and i cant take it anymore....Am i tough enough ? and those who always labelled themselves as a tough guy , R u tough enough ? I know only one guy who is that tough and still tough and he is the legend to me . I can hardly achieve that level of toughness . 

Way of lIfe.

Blogging seems to be bcome part of my life since this March . Have you ever think of what lifE do u prefer ? Life is a simple word , Yes , it seems easy but indeed it is not . I wouldnt be scare to say that most of us live in a meaningless life .>>> Ouch !! What a slap i get frm u ! <<<

 I knew it gonna be hurtful enough to admit yourself is actually having a clueless life . You might noticed one sentence and u may be the one who always use it or get used to it , gIVE u a clue : This word is always use to greet someone , u might have a glance of it in friendster , facebook  or any networking website. ErMmm...Yes ? No ? Anyone get it ? Or u r really clueless right now ? All right , the sentence is HOW'S LIFE ?  Without knowing where and how's ur life heading is just as we floating in the sea , where the wind blows then where we goes . One of my lecturer who taught me Sociology in my A-levels give us a quote from a philosopher which is :"I think therefore i am ." What do u think ? I gave my definition on this statement and my lecturer neglected it , then he give the correct one . In my point of view , there are no fix answer for this . For example , i've read one of my friend's blog which indirectly indicates everyone have different point of view . I think it would be a good idea to introduce his blog . Here is the blog , take a look at it . WILENG'S BLOG . Im sure u will at least gain something by reading it. 
I grabbed some pics from his blog , it is not copyright though...
                             
   Take a look at the below pictures, WHAT do u see ?
   
                                                      

Picture A: An oldman with spec Or a word "LIAR"?

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                      Picture B : GOOD or Evil ?


The purpose i upload these pics is to share a simple theory , No matter what you answer u give .We tends to argue that yours one is wrong but mine is correct .  It is very rare that we will think of  WE ARE BOTH CORRECT . According to the pictures i showed in the above , Both are correct , one can see the man and the word LIAR as well . Both is the perfect answer . Both .
As to that , In regards to the quote given by my lecturer , it is opined that both of us is actually correct as long as it means something to us and affect us in a positive way . All right , seems like i've gone to far away from what i want to say . ' I think therefore i am' , Man who never thought of their life is eventually damage themselves , thats my definition . What's my lecturer said before ? I've forgotten , sorry for that . From what i understand from that statement , We should get get rid off the dead chair and start thinking to avoid forming a living body without soul , NOW . I am not command anyone of you to do anything , but just to summon up your realisation on your life. We should at least think of what is the purpose for what i working on , we work for what , Why are we study ?  For those people who never work and keep studying , getting one degree then another degree , even if he/she got tons of Phd , what is his life then ? 
For example , one might earn billions in a days , then he sit there and wait for another billions to his pocket . What do you think ? 

By the way , Anyone of u watched "KUNGFU PANDA"? There's a memorable quote from the honorable tortoise :" Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it 'the present.'  We tend to live in the past , and we tend to curious and wanted to know what is coming is the future and we seldom think of what are we doing now and Is it appropriate to do such a things ? In Buddhism , there's a teaching in Diamond Sutra where is "We shouldn't have the thought of past,now,and future ." What the lord buddha trying to say is :" LIVE IN THE PRESENT."When we are driving , we will try to think of what is gonna happen tomorrow , but then , u know what is gonna result ? I 'll show u ----> BANG ! And ur car is crashed into little pieces . Is that what u want ? As what the tortoise master said in Kungfu Panda , Today is a gift and thats why it is called the Present . Since it is a gift , why don't we get fully use of it and appreciate every moment ? 

Due to the purpose of living , i got a friend who was my classmate in past . She is a girl who is so determined and so clear on what she gonna do . She is very honest and she don't like to pretend, always tells things in a frank way . She is honest enough to tell me that she want to be rich! Last day during exams period , most of us hanging around classes to classes , teacher seems to have so much faith on us and thats why don't really teach in that period . She will find a place to crack those books . She isn't those book-worm type of person but she clearly bare in her mind on what she wanna achieve. I guess , thats what make her scored quite well in SPM . She wont really care what's gonna happen and what had happened , But do better now. As what she told me , she gonna pursue a medic degree after her A-levels . She don't really interested in medic but she do it for her family-her parents . Mans do things for reasons . As long as what she did , benefit herself and peoples . I think it is okay to make that decision . 

What do u want in your life ? Money ? Working position? ...etc...Think and make sure you wont regret forever . You can make a different . You can make changes. You are the modifier , you are the creator and Thats your life . LIVE IN PRESENT.

Here is a movie clip from Kungfu panda where the tortoise master made a conversation with the panda. 

Unexpected

HelO , WeLCome back to my blog ! My holidays started since 31th May , I didnt look for any jobs , i didnt join any trip and i didnt register myself for any seminar ...ermm....YET . ThOse people who dont know me will have an impression which they will think that my life is meaningless and unfruitful . It is true in a sense , indeed it is quite true just IF i stay at home. Life like this is making me halfly dead ! It is has quite a times i do not update my blog . You know why ? I have nothing to write but lots of thinking and dont know where should i start . These meaningless life is handicapping in thinking . Last times , i can easily write a blog but now , I just starred at the pc and think . Keep thinking .... My heart whispered :" What Is HAppenning to me ?" I mean my brain which the usage is less than 10% . 

I feels like i am a blank paper . TotAlly blank ! Brain is need to be train well so that it can be maintain in a fit condition . Or ....oR , what i think is processing in a fast way until i dont know what should i write ? Too much of thinking is making me insane ! No , it should be contruct is this way :" TOO MUCH OF THINKING WITHOUT ANALYSING IS MAkiNG ME INSANE ." Seriously , i feels like manythings which is unexpected had come to my life . Last saturday , i attend the class which conduct by buddhist society and the teacher touch on the issue of brothership . At the moment , the image of my so-called brother suddenly pop out frm my mind . Poor him , if i am now claiming that i went through so much of hardship , what is him them ? He is now facing such a big problem .I wont disclose so much here , but at least you all will get a basic picture on what had happened . I KnOw this friend for almost 10 years ! For the past few years , we shares our thought on studies , method in life , Idea on buddhism ideology .I finally come to understand that Friendship is hardly maintain . It is NOt a simple individual based but two peoples or maybe more . The in common must be achieve in a balance way . Thats Friends. If we follow the method given by the lord buddha . The six ways for people to stay together which will of course result in a calm and peaceful way . Wanna know what is it ? Curiosity in your mind is killing you ? Haha...well , e-mail me and i'll let you knOw . 

These days , swimming seems to be the only healthy lifestyle that i have . I like swimming . Yeah ...thats rather obvious , i know . wHY ? why swimming ? I wont deny if u said that i am a water boy . : i AM not saying that i am a fantastic swimmer or excel in swimming but i feel so release when i get into water , I feels like its my home .> Dont laugh at me ! Its true , it is not a truth in a factual context , but it is just so true in describing my feeling . Blue-y water , white-y beach , windy feeling , warm-y sun . YOu may have a conclusion on what is my favourite colour : BLUE and whIte . You may include Black as well , it does not means mysterious to me but it is the only colour which can contrast the white . I need to know the wrong way in order to know what is right , at the same time , i need to understand what is right in order to establish the wrong . Both of it is overlapping each other . 

Time flies , here come the JULY . Thats how horrible the time is , now u see and nOw u dont . Here come the JULY and August is just right after it . THats fast ! My result gonna come out and i really hope that i'll get through . I am not expecting i can pass it with flying colour but oNly passes . Im so nervous ! Someone please calm me down .  please .... Cold water will do fine ! ...

One more thing which i was and still curious about it .  It is all about one of the closest people in our life ! Our ? Uh..huh ? it hav something to do about me ?  I would answer you : Yea , Definately . It is all about father , dad in another word .  hOW DO u spend your Father's day which just past months ago ? I noticed one phenomena where people tend to have a grand celebration on Mother's day , but , when come to father's day , people will pretend like as if they dont know when is father's day . DOnt ask me how can i notice it . I wondered and now still wondering . 

NIce song with Touching lyrics

当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄无言
看今天更光鲜
别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多倦
在那很美很炫的童话境界
我还拿着青蛙王子的剑
来披荆斩棘驱恶除奸这感人画面
为幸福为明天
梦不一定要实现
心就会有更辽阔空间
用想象才能够飞得高飞得远
当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄无言
看今天更光鲜
别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多倦
在这无悔无怨的内心世界
我遇见了美丽从容的脸
和酸甜苦辣意义长篇
但是我情愿为感动为明天
痛虽然有深有浅
泪擦干那就会好一点
风虽然看不见,但自由无极限

平静的天空，象美丽的图画

我睁大眼睛去寻找，寻找一颗星
动人的旋律，无界限的空间
宇宙中最亮的，就是那颗守护星

有一天，你对我说，童话的梦会成真
请不要再忧虑，这个天空属于你
明天曙光依旧会来临

有一天，我对你说，你是我的守护星
未来的日子，不必害怕
你将真情给我，我会用心来回应你”

We have seen a lots of news about the situation of the victims who is now suffering by the cause of natural disaster .Especially the childrens there , how are they going to continue their entire life without parents or dissapearance of their closest relatives ? 

Children , Dont give up.

孩有明天,所以还有明天.

HOlidays ....WHolely dead ?

After 30th of May , my holidays was started . My friends who are going to sit for economics papers will only finish theirs paper on 13 JUNE , i guess . The result will only release on August . This indicates that i'll have 2 months holidays approximately . I knw someone might ask me :" Why dont you search for works , it is a good way to spend times and can earn some money ." Yes , i agreed with that view . However , i plan to improve myself in another way . I will start my english course which i stopped for months , i knw it is a waste of times to attend that course . It is a waste of money too if i dont go for the class . It cost >RM3000 FOR the whole course which the durations is 18months too . I will train myself in badminton playing skills and also swimming . Questions then come . WHy badminton ? Haha...how psychic am i ? haha, ermm... My little brother is a badminton fans and a good player in badminton , so-called an active guy ! He is an arrogant and he got some kind of ego attitude . As a brother , i think i got duty to guide him to a right path . iN order to do that , i must impress him in many ways . ( I goTTA beat him in badminton's skills !)... Last times , he played china's chess quite well , and i know nothing about china chess . So , he tend to laugh at me when i lose . So i tell him :" i am not a loser , just that i dont used to play chess and dont knw the skills . " So , i played with him and i lose  quite a rounds . I speak to myself :"it is okay to lose , as long as it is a way for my to improve myself . It is fine !" At last , i won . He is like amazed by my winning ! haha .... Now, another game turn - BADMINTON . So i will follow the same method . Failure in the way to success ! As long as i can assimilate into his world , it is okay for me to be a LOSER .

wELL,Holidays is always the most relaxing period . For me , it is not . I got a lots to think about and plan ! I might be seems so relax , but it is indeed one of my planning to achieve my mission  . The outcome is coming soon in the future ! Last Sunday , I went to Genting Highlands . It was not a planned trip ! But an trip that out of my expectation , it is purely an coinsidence . On the same day, i have a gathering with my primary's school's friends . We dont get to meet and see each others for years . Seriously , it is a rare chance ! I must now express my appologise and appreciation to Lai Tin Wei who organised the gathering . It's sad that i cant attend that gathering . I was forced to go by my siblings . I might not a good friends or student , but i am a Good brother ! No one can deny that ! You know what i good brother will do , right?

I think Tinwei may  sue me in breach of Contract . First , it is opined that there's a bilateral contract between 2 of us which is a promise for a promise . So, i am indeed the offeree who asked for the gathering , then Tinwei is the Offeror who accept my promise to organise a gathering .Patridge v Crittenden .There is a valid consideration even thereis only orally promise , i am however got the practical benefit .William v Roffrey Bros. In fact he organised the gathering so that i get the chance to meet with my primary school's friends . There is no misrepresentation and any mistake since everything made clear in phone . However , he might sue me . But , i can argue that the act of him is not a valid consideration since it is not specifically for my benefit . Besides , there's no intention to be bound legally since it is only a party . It means at the early times ,the contract is not even exist ! In fact , I do not promise him that i'll come . It is just purely his assumption for my attendancy . The claim will however fail at last !  

However, I do feel guilty for that . I will organise another gathering to show my confession and my faithfulness . Take notes that i do not state Where ,When and How .

All right , whatever ! It is in fact i went to GENTING with them . ....THEM?? My aunt's family and her friend's family . It has been years i dont go to Genting ! As all of us know ,This place is cool & Cold tourism destination. We reached there by around 8pm and then we check in . I like the hotel the most , it is so comfort ---a nice place to rest & sleep ! --- I am a sleeping addictor . 

  Highland's Hotel outview

Upperview from the Room

After we checked in , we had dinner at a classy restaurant , the decorations there is attractive and it is comfortable. It gave us a very good first impression . The food there will only get a C from me if they need me to grade it  . Not to say it is bad and disgusting but it is just not up to the standard , it is just totally opposite with the atmosphere of the restaurant. Anyway, i will still thank my aunt for giving us such a comfort dinner (not applicable to say it nice ..hehe...sorry...). After that , we then go to watch a magic show (so-called) . I like the lighting effect and the music there . For the show , it is just SO-SO (comme si cOMMe sa -french) .It is not that i am so critique but the show is just bad ! I fall asleep when the show is going on . On that night , Me and my siblings went to starbucks and enjoy the cappucinno there . The main purpose is of course to surf net there . Haha....cant spend my days without checking my mail.

Show time- DREAMZ

The day after the show , we went to outdoor games . Seriously , the price is rather unreasonable for me , it cost RM 190 for 4 persons . The games is fun and exciting , Especially the wAter boat , that is so risky ! Besides that , the indoor games is so boring . I am wondering why those people can stay inside with those boring games for hours and hours . I think i prefer the Snow House ! It sounds and look so new for me , White snow falling from the top . Wow , the feelings is so Syok ! As what people do inside , we play with the snow . I felt so cold , however i am not shivering as others do . I am wondering why is it my immunity system become stronger than usual ? Maybe i get used to the coldness already since my college is just extremely cold and i still be able to stand with it without my jacket . 

My Younger Brother is undercover 

The Coffee Terrace

The most exciting period is when i get back to the hotel and get to take some sleep . The last day in Genting , we all had breakfast at Coffee Terrace . The Buffet there is okay , not to say it impress me but at least the service there is good and satisfy my needs . I have no idea whether it is a well-known buffet restaurant or not . From what i see , it is well managed . The designs of it do created a comfort atmosphere. Unfortunately , the buffet there is not completely serve yet. The sushi is still not ready yet . Overall , everythings is average. Right after that , we all straight away rush to hotel and then halfly dead lying there - SLEEP !!!!

Maybe u will say that GENTING is a nice place , why i descibed it as if it is a nightmare to me ? It's a very subjective matter where it really depends on each individuals . This place is just not belong to me , not my place . I prefer beach !!! tHE sun , the beach with white sand , the sea !! This Holidays is almost make me wholely dead . GOsh ! mOnths to go ! 

It IS still not done yet ... HOLIDAYS!

FiNallY or What ?

       

FiNally ? Done ? 

You might wondering what am i heading with ? What is the purpose to put such a title ? 30th MAY 2008 , That day is just suppose to be the happiest day i ever have . Ermm , am i saying that i am sad ? Argh...huh ..... NOt realLY . Instead of saying that i am sad , i am disappointed . I think i am a negativity absorber recently . Why is it ? I think i prefer to be bitten by a spider and have super ability . However , by having the grateful and appreciation , i think those negativity can at least neutralise . All right , lets back to the main topic . 

 

Notes + Laptop=preparation?

 

Coffee & I for the exams

Yesterday is the last day for my exam which i sat for the last paper - TORT LAW . This law is deal with negligence(form of injury suffered) , Trespass to land , Escape property , Private Nuisance , Occupier's liability and Trespass to person. Well, it is not all part of the tort law but at least what i stated is within my syllabus . Amongst all the law that i studied , Tort law is my favorite law subject . In a common understanding , it wont be suprise if i master this law . Not to say that i mastered the topic already , at least i understand the topic quite well . I prepared and i memorised most of the relevant cases . When i sit in the exam hall , i have the feeling to answer the questions confidently . It is sad that i spend too much times on the first question , so i dont have enough time to finish the third question(which is the last question) . I just roughly wrote down all the points or relevant cases . It is however not enough to score a high band in the question since i do not juxtapose every details of the fact with the law . I guess an 'A' just pass by with me but then it left . I think i can score better in Contract law if compared to Tort law .

Outcome of exam = panda eyes

Okay , law is done . Now , another subject i took which i dont understand the subject at all ! - SOCIOLOGY. It is a subject which study on the society in varies of perspective - for example Marxist theory ( I think you heard of Karl Marx , right ?) . For 5 months i attended the sociology lecture and i do not really flip on the sociology notes. I admit that i always study last minutes . I dont study unless the exam is coming . I attend for the lectures and i do assignments . Thats all . I do not have enough times to study all the chapter packs . So , i'll do what i always do - SPOT QUESTIONS . I flipped through all the pass year questions and do some Analysis , so to speak . As a result , i just read on the answers on the questions which i spotted . In fact , i dont have the answer but i prepare the answer by myself . I am not saying that i am smart , okay ? I have no choice but to prepare the answer ! The point is it might be wrong ! Haha , you will really suprise for the risk i taken . Yeah , i am a risk taker ! Dont ever think that it is good . Thank god that i manage to answer the questions . What i spotted do come out . Out of 12 questions , i need to answer 3  and it is just nice that the 3 questions i studied came out . WOOO....Only 3 man ! I am so lucky ! However , i dont think what i have written is what the examiners expected .

Yes , the exam is finally done . I just hoping for 2 principle passes . If i failed for sociology ! I cant imagine that i gotta re-sit it in this November . I dont want to see those sociologist anymore. This is why the above title stated as "IT IS STILL NOT DONE YET !" . It might seems like everything is finished , it will only finish when i got 2 passes . I am just so worry ! PLEASE , LET ME PASS AND I WONT BURN MIDNIGHT OIL AGAIN ! 

Today is the 31st MAY , it means that i have almost 2 months to go ! My college mates suggest that we'll have a trip to travel . Where ? In theirs options , there's a lots places ! Redang , Bukit Merah , somewhere with hotspring , they even suggest to travel in Thailand ! Seriously , i dont like thailand . It just full with mysterious in my point of view. Hehe....of course i prefer Redang , it is my dream island ! Wherever they planned to go , i will surely join them since after that we will all separate . Some of them will back to JB . All of us is future litigator !!! So , when is it going to be ? haha.... Some negotiation still going on there .

It is now i have to think of how am i going to spend this 2 months . Most of my friends is working but i dont think i am going to work even i hope to . In this coming 2 months, i will have to deal with Library Management , work on Yuan Rong's society's website and also i'll improve myself physically and psychologically. I promised to play badminton with my brother and i promised myself to swim once in a week . Besides , the most complicated things i have to settle is Buddhist Society SMK TMN CONNAUGHT . Such a problematic badge i have ever seen ! Selfishness is always the biggest problem . Also , i have to read on SPM notes so that i can guide my sister in her SPM ! Seriously , It is tiring to be a brother internally or externally( the world outside) . They are most likely not going to appreciate what you have done . That is the things. After everything you have done , they'll just say:" thats your business ." They will defence themselves by apply the rule of " VOLUNTI NON FIT INJURIA", this defence is very likely to be succed in the court . This means you consent to it . They will blame us at the end . Yea , where is justice ?? It is however i will keep going to take care of people around me . I might not have the ability but i have the willingness .

I have no idea whether what i planned is workable or not . Hopefully it will . To all , please pray for me ya! So that i can get through in my exam ! I believe by having the positivity of you all will summon the universe to arrange a happy ending for me . 

 

bATTLE WITH tiME!

一个无私的情怀 Mother's heart

母亲之日已消逝，

母亲之节已过去，

这一切一切似乎已经在世俗眼光离去，

世人感恩之心似乎也只是幻象。

当天，

我们聚餐庆祝，

孝心煞是显眼，

可是，

我们都把眼光放在桌上的珍肴，

您没有一丝毫怨意。

然而，

在您的眼界中，

每一个角落，

都有我们。

母亲，

您把我置放在阳光下，

深怕我受到黑暗的恐惧。

当阳光稍微灼热，

您只身挡之，

也不敢让我们离开阳光，

因为，

您要给我们一丝丝的温暖。

母亲，

若把您与阳光做对比，

似乎不当，

因为您所做的都超越阳光。

阳光只能温暖我之形体，

而您的细心照料，

却能冷热兼备，温暖十分。

母亲，

您好比母鸡但亦超越母鸡，

当我遇到挫折以及遭到不平，

您犹如路见不平的侠者，

为我伸张正义 ，

呵护我，深怕我受到伤害，

老鹰也见状而逃。

母亲，

我知道您在面对老鹰之时，

内心恐怖万分，

可因我，

让您使出您那无私的情怀。

宁可让自己受伤，

也不愿让我受伤。

因为我，

您曾经在地狱门前徘徊，

与阎王斗个死活，

为的是让我这个小生命平安的来到这里。

本来的一双玉手，

为了我，

经过污物的洗涤，

现在也逐渐粗糙，

无论您怎样的遮掩以及保养。

您手上的痕迹，

对于我来说，是清楚可见。

我没有一个精明头脑，

让您在亲朋面前沾光，

我没有一个英俊的脸孔，

让您在戚友面前赞扬，

可是，

我可以确定得是，

我有您的基因，

我同样可以无私的奉上孝心。

也因为这份孝心，

造就了今天的我，

为了让您满足，

我与先天性蠢拙的我奋斗，

为了让您放心，

我与先天性体弱的我并搏。

今天的我，

不算完美无暇，

但又晶莹剔透的心。

一切一切，不会搏红颜一笑，

且只是慈母的满足。

堂上佛二尊，

弟子奉心礼。

谢谢您，母亲。Thanks .

Friends , when mother's day is coming , we all celebrate it. Nowadays, a mother's day is more likely to be a grand dinner which to satisfy our tongue but not a day to express out appreciation to our lovely mother . It is a fact . Try to think about it . I am sure that you will more or less agree with my view . 

EX@m,exam,and Exam ; Future,future&FuturE .

Exam is just around the corner . Well , we tend to compare between STPM & A - level . Well , it is sad that i am also one of them to put STPM&A level into comparison . This is one of the reason why i finally choose A-level. People said , people said and people said , everythings is hearsaid statements which is not reliable indeed . STPM is very difficult! Thats what i heard.

All right , i am now studying Cambridge A-level and going to compete soon . It doesnt seems as easy as people thought . In fact , i think it is just so difficult since we do not have any model answer for any subjects . We only have guidelines . Besides , the Cambridge examiners also very strict in term of marking essays . We cant even really forecast or predict our result accurately. Also , the usage of vocabulary in the question is really freaking me up !( I have poor language proficiency, well , thats why...) I am not saying that STPM is easier or simpler . Please take note that i am not taking both of it for any comparison . It is just 2 different scheme or mode of exam . An easy conclusion: Nothing easy in this world . Whatever you have decided , if you dont put any effort on it , it wont result in a good way . 

Just let you all know my exam timetable : 

20th May - Sociology paper 2 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

I have to answer 2 questions out of 3 . Each question have 4 sections . This paper will total up as 50% of my marks . 

22nd May - Sociology paper 1 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

I have to answer 2 questions here as well but both from different sections . This paper will take 50% weight of my marks .

27th May - Law paper 3 - from 10 am to 11:30pm .

This is a Contract law's paper where all the elements of the contract comes here. Formation of a contract , Intention to create legal relations , Vitiation , Remedies . It is a tough subject where i have to answer 3 questions out of 6 choices in just 1 1/2 hours . Time management and writing speed is very important here . Of course the most significant one is the law & the cases .

               - Sociology paper 3 - from 2pm to 5 pm .

You might know how depth the Cambridge wanna test us by seeing the time given. 3 hours .I need to answer 3 questions out of 6 sections . Since my lecturer wont have time to complete the syllabus . So what he taught is just enough for me to answer 3 sections which means there's no backup .  The 3 areas are Crime & Deviance , Religion , Family & Household . To memorize those sociologist & the studies or the research is creating an havoc in my head !  

30th May - Law paper 4 - from 10am to 1pm .

This is an exam on tort law , which i interested the most . The areas being covered are Negligence , Occupier's liability , Private Nuisance , Rylands v Fletcher ( Escaped property) , Tresspass to Land , Tresspass to person , Defences . Eventhough i think it is interesting to study , but it is very tough when come to exam . 

I did not go for the mock exam today , my lecturer did not inform us yesterday or last week . I dislike those last minutes works from him . I knew i gonna get zero mark for that . As long as i dont get zero in the real exam is okay then . 

After 30th May , i am free . I hope i can score well . Law - A , Sociology - C is enough . If i get it through , then i can choose which university or college i wanna enter . The questions comes again ---- UK (2+1 twinning) or Malaysia ???? I am now standing in both sides . It is a tough choice . I dont deny that i am willing to go overseas to get the experience there , i dont deny that i have a lot of things which i cant easily just leave like that . In fact , my dad have the intention to let me study abroad .  

All right , today is 13th May , a weeks more which is so short !!!! JunHOng . You can do it !!! erMM....I can do it ! I am now finding a place where i can really study . My house is suppose to be the best , but after my cousin sister came . She is totally affecting my study life . 

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LUck Or FaiTH . cAuse & EffECT .

What is happening ? What is going on ? Wow.....I am wondering why is it bad luck keep following me ? Even if i stay away from it by using what " The Secret" had taught me , It still be able to track me  ! Maybe i should say , my mindset is still not stable yet , the negative taught get started after i dont get the chance ( refer to previous post of my blog). It cant be stop man ! I think it eventually attract many bad things happen to me . First accident by Grand Livina , Nissan , Second accident by Camry , Toyota . Both of it have similarity where i met with an unreasonable driver . Of course the recent accident is much more worst , it is indeed cannot be consider as an accident . I am innocent !!!!!

Haiz...It is an unforgetable incident . This tuesday, 6 May 2008 , i fetched my brother to tuition centre nearby . After he got out from the car , i left as usual . I use a small road ,where most driver likely to use that road to leave the tuition centre. Since i am not use to the camry yet , which it is such a big car for me . So , i drive it very carefully that and always be aware of cars around me . When i turned left , a motocycle with a indian driver suddenly appear in front of my car and asked me to stop . I saw his face expression , i have a feeling that this guys is with bad intention . I can understand his body language which he meant i cause the injury of his motorcycle . It is just weird and awkward since i dont think so i bang any vehicles . It is in fact i drove very slow and there should'nt be enough space for another motorcycle to fit at my left side . He keep asking me to stop and i dont because i did nothing wrong . I ignored him and drive to my house then . When i am on the way back , i noticed he was following me . I finally stopped and ask him what he want . He then shows his fierce face and mumbling some words which i dont understand . He speak malays and i comes to understand that he said my poor driving caused him to bang his motorcycle to a rocks which results some form of damages . His broken Malay lauguage is really annoying me , and i dont used to talk malay . I replied him and said:" I ....saya ...go back to rumah ....ayah ....." Oh my Gosh , i cant even really speak Malay properly now ! I REBUT him by saying that i did not bang him . So his motorcycle shouldnt be that badly injured. He mumbling again and raise his hand and turn off my car ! I am totally shock !!! Just that moment , my hands and legs is like shivering already . I am so nervous  and freak out . So , i ask him directly how much he want to repair . I gave him RM20 and he said all right . When i reached home and parked my car . He then appear in front of me with another indian guy . He is claiming that RM20 IS NOT ENOUGH . He act as if he got the Oscar award , his acting skills is really good man!!! I am really afraid that moment since i dont know what they will do to me . When i nervous , my mind is totally blank . All my law knowledge is gone , only one word appear in my mind : HELP !!! It is an ashamed for a law student ! 

After that , my mum, my cousin sister ( who i borrowed car from her - the camry is owned by her ) , my neighbour ( who is so close to my mum) came out and started to talk to them . He said i am the one who " SALAH"!!!  My mum is like so believe on him . My cousin sister then say her car dont even have anything crashed if i bang the motorcycle. The indian then changed what he said , and say that i over turned left and cause him to avoid from my car which caused him bang to some rocks . 

In my mind , i then think that why is it he can still drive after bang to the rocks . I mean he can get up so fast ?????  In fact , my car dont even have a small touch with the motorcycle.  Now , he said that he gonna give me back 20bux and want us top repair for him . AFter 30 minutes discussion , my mum decided to repair for him in a reason that afraid he will disturb my family if we report and do nothing . The head of the gangster then want us to go to the motorcycle service shop nearby. We are okay with it. Before we go there , my indian neighbour come back . My mum then ask him to accompany us to go there and talk to them . All right , finally i have someone who understand English . I explained everything to him and he trying to talk to them .

WOw , you know what ? It is do ridiculous ! The motorcyclist is like taking advantage on us and claim everythings on us !! Want us to repair here and there. ....In a logic way , his motorcycle suppose to have injury on the left side . He is now claiming for the right side too . The head of the gangster then arrived and said that we do not need to repair that much for him . He said :"Just the head of the bike ONLY." whO will know that the HEAD will cost us for RM480 ?????

I THINK the repairer also in their's side and taking advantage to earn more . It is now very obvious that he trying to put me in wrong which indeed i am not . My mum then get to know that i am innocent . woHooo.......I take a deep breathe . However , i am there and just dreaming . Almost no feeling . What am i dreaming there ? Well, i am thinking that why am i the one ? Why is it me again ? Me again ?? That night , my brother choonfei dont really revise for his exam but listen to my story . That night , i having insomnia , cannot sleep well. My heart is bumping so fast . Oh My buddha ! dEPresssion is killing me ! I am depress because why am i still a small little boy ? Why is it my mum protect me but i am the one being protected ? I want to be a man who protect people i love . Now , it is proven that i am not able to do that. I dont have the wisdom and not stable enough to face these. Can you imagine a lawyer get terrified when deal with client ? IT IS SO funny ! 

The day after that , i went to find my brother at his office . Although he dont have law qualification but he do have legal background with his political experience . He taught me the right way to handle this which i should make police report because i am in fact innocent and cannot be liable . I felt so release after talk to him. He also remind me the purpose i want to pursue a law degree . Yes , the reason i wanna pursue in this field is because i wanna ensure justice ! dOnt be afraid of darkness and evil ! 

After i stable psychologically , i think of it again . The motorcyclist doesnt wear any helmet , and most probaly he dont have license . In another hand , i have license and i gave signal before i turn left . bESIDES , if i want to take action in court , i can even sue him through tort law in tresspass to person ! God !! NOW oNLy the law i learnt come back !

Anyway , i think this kind of incident rarely happen to young teenager like me . So , i got the chance that people dont have . It might seems harsh . But , it is a very good experience for me . A very good lesson for a person who wanna get into legal field . 

It is a bad luck of me because of cause & effect.It is a faith and a destiny . I think my way on law field is getting more precise and interesting now . I will get ready ! 

Thank YOu

Thank you

Taken from a lyric of a buddhism song . Which had awaken me . 

Last week , One of my sister read my blog and understand that i am having some hardship . She then send me a message with parts of a buddhism lyric . Well, it just a simple message . Just one message ! I feel so released . Why am i forgot what my teacher - Buddha had taught me ??

But ,The negative thought  keep running in my head . Erase it , it then comes again . Last times , i wont even spend time to think about what is my problem when i having hardship. I will always ask my brothers . I just being too rely on them . For now , i think i have to grow up . It is not that they are not needed anymore but they will only lead me to what i want. Indeed , i am the one who walk in journey . If i am wrong , i will still take their advise . You know what , after this incident , i finally realise that how weak am i . Time to take it and erase it ! It can only be explain in 2 words in chinese - 执着 。Why am i so take it so seriously as if like i cant get it , i will be dead ? Wow , now only i realised that 1 stupid creature was born . Thats me . 

I am a big dreamer who always want the best for my life . As to what i have read from "IF" poem , i forgot who is the author. In the poem , the father give advises to his son where one of it is dont take dreams as your master . Yes , i think i made dream my master . Thats why i am now still unmovable and stopped there . I rule my dream ! In fact , i just shouldn't be a dream but a mission to be complete . Ermm.... you might not know whats the meaning of the lyric . It actually meant that :" Hurt is a process & a journey where everyone will go through , Dont give up because of it ; Sadness is only a feeling , Dont let it drop you down into a deep hole . " 

Everyone will experience it . Everyone will feel it. Get and fail . Gosh ! thats what i learnt from buddha ! Why i cant remember it when i was so down ? I will now however let it be whatever it had happened . It is kind of late for me to start again . It is never too late for me to realise it . Rush !Rush!Rush!Hurry !hUrry!! Junhong ...............You are left behind!!!!! Go Go Go !!!

Thanks . What can i said besides thanks and express my appreciation ? Just a simple appreciation . But Fully from my heart . My gratefulness . Thankful . 

Do my best ! 

Lost my direction - A mistake

The earth will never be as round as we thought . The Fullmoon will never last long, It is not as beautiful as we always think it be  . As to what Shakespeare stated in" Life Brief Candle " , Life is just like a walking shadow. In another words , it is just like a candle . Within a second ,it's life is already shorten-ed. Haiz , a sentimental person like me , has such a sensitive sense . Sometimes ,it just makes me become irrational . You know , what is the result if you being so irrational ? Maybe u would say that :" Come on , we are an ordinary man , a common human being ? What is wrong if we did a mistake ?" Well , i will come to answer you that i cannot afford any mistake . It will damage everything i planned for my family . I cannot be so common as if i want the best for my family and people around me . I cannot be so ordinary in order to protect the people i used to spend times with . A mistake has been commit anyway. 

What is happening ? Your natural curiousity will automatic-ly lead you to that question . I cannot disclose 100% here. If you are my close friends , ask me then . It is not a big deal . It is just merely a simple disappointment . It just shouldn't affect me so much ! In fact , a simple disappointment just made me go through a few meaningless weeks . I dont really study and i dont really prepare for my exam. The assignments is still there which i never touch it . It might be stress symptoms. I am a student who always take and run my duty as much as i can . Last times i used to think that i just want to be a normal and average student . I dont want to be so outstanding. Now , i comes to know that if i being so low-profile . Opportunity will not come to me ,even i have to ability to handle and do well if i given such chance . My brothers and sister always tell me that this world is so cruel . I know it ,but i dont really understand it . People who always act so "cool" is actually cruel . (It refers to someone i know,not applicable for world at large) . I tend to always see what people actually think of  or maybe the reason for such an act . All right , if thats what that person want , i'll give him then . Showing off  and so on .  I cant stand with it . Instead of showing off , trying to be so low profile. People around is like cant see it . It is totally fake ! What happened is that , i am not given a chance to do what i desire .Before that, i was told that i got the chance . So , i prepare for it and even dream about it . At the end , I am too late ?? COme on , i had expressed my willingness on that before anyone else . I do everything crucially . I feel like what i have done is actually a waste . So , for weeks i am in a bad condition. I watched at least 2 drama series and movies , surf net and so on . Something that meaningless. I feel like even if i do everything i should do , still someone who run strategy will get it . Oh my gosh , i feel so unsecured . Yes , this is what the real world . I really need time to get used to it . I always think that i will only happen when i am working in the future . It is not true , just false . It happened anywhere , anytime ,any field . In addition , i have no one to talk with . First , i dont express my feeling to my family. I dont want to let them so pity  for me . I just dont want them to worry about me . Well , thats what i do . I always keep problem inside me ,beyond me . I always solve it by myself. However , i got my brothers who always give me counsel and share everythings with me . He is 30yrs old businessman , experienced in many fields. Since i know him , my problems getting less and lesser . He always know when i am hiding something. Now , i seldom go to meet him since i am on the holidays to prepare for my exam . My best friend who i always spend time with is gone .So, i am alone. If u ask me . Do i have any friends ? Friends? I got a lot , but those who i can actually share thought. Few...... And yet i have to perform my duty as a brother . Siblings now getting so stubborn and have their own thought. Not mature enough to talk with . Thats so stressful . Trying so hard to be a good brother , and yet they are not appreciate it . Honestly , i do everythings to everyone for everyone is without any selfishness or self-benefit. I can even swear that i give my sincerity for anything i have done.I dont need any pay back , just need a simple appreciation. 

The first mistake , i shouldn't promise my dad that i will spend all my time to prepare my studies .So i no need to stay at home and dont get the chance to meet my fellow brothers and sisters . I will surely wont be so down. I will have better motivation to study ! These fellow brothers and sisters , i will appreciate them until the end  of my entire life. I wont forget those who helped me . Thats really true. I wont forget and will never forget . Besides if i have memory loss medically. Seriously, i really take them as my bros and sis. Now , i having a conflict between myself. Whether i wanna go to UK to read law ? I will not see them for years. 

Second mistake , i should not spend most of my time in front of my computer just to watch . It is not a good way to express my dissatisfaction and my sadness. I should study more harder to prove that they are wrong .As to what my brother said , once you very busy and without good base to handle , you will have problem . Now, it is proven . I am having problem . 

Yes , life is so challenging . For me , what had happened around me will not change my personality. But, i do learn a lesson. The sun will not be seen for long . But it always there. Just like justice . Maybe its not representable , but it is there .Maybe what i have done is not being appreciate by people , but it doesnt mean what i have done is a waste.

Junhong , Come on. YOu are tough enough ! I always said that it is not a big issue if u fall down , but it is a serious matter whether you can stand up or not . I am a boy who keep felling down and stand up . The process will keep running. I believe that after everything a little junny boy will finally bcome a man . A man who is protective and help people around me .

 

当我老了 <>


--- --------我的婆婆My Grandma.----------



当我老了，不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。


When i am getting older , It is not who i am before .
Please understand me , Be patience when you are facing me .　　





当我把菜汤洒到自己衣服上时，当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

When i accidentaly fallen the vege-soup on my shirt and
When i forgot to tie up my shoelace ,
Please do think of how i taught you hand-by-hand those days.





当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。你小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，直到你进入梦乡。　　

When i keep repeat and repeat the things that i have said ,
Please listen to me in patience , don't stop me .
Do remember that when you were young , I have no choice but to repeat the story for times until you are asleep .




当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责备我。还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？　

When i need you to bath me ,
Please don't be mad at me , Do you still remember the scene where i keep convincing you to take shower when you were young ?　





当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。　

When i am lost and ignorance on latest technology and the recent stuff ,
Please to laugh at me ,
Do think of how i answered you for every"WHY"which you have asked .




当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。　　

When my legs is getting tired and it does no allow me to walk ,
Do give me your strong hands to help me ,
It is just the same way i did when you take your first step.




当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。　　

When i lose memory on the thread of our conversation , Do give me times to recall my memory.
It is indeed not important of my conversation with you ,
It is enough for my satisfaction to have you beside me and listen to me .





当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

When you looking at me who is getting older ,
Please dont be sad and down about that , but ,
Do understand me , support me , as how i treat you when you were first starting to learn the way of living .





当初我引导你走上人生路，如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑，这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

Last times i led you the way to step up your life ,
please then accompany me until the end of my life ,
Give me your love and patience ,
and I will pay you by the lovely smile , where the smile full with the immense and unlimited love that i always had and have for you.

_______________________________________________________

当我读了这篇简单的字句，这篇简单的文章，就直接打入我的心房。简单的字句，且流露出一位年老父母的心声。那么的直接，十分得贴切。无常，就是它让我们的父母逐渐苍老，然而这是任何人都无法改变的原理。叶儿终会干枯而落，花儿亦会枯萎凋谢。徐徐而来得年老，随水而来的时间，那么无情。如今，他将会让我们的父母以及大家都逐渐随着岁月老去。
试想，各位：“以上的，不就是你们打从心底的心声吗？”

静下来，看下周遭，都无时无刻的表现着生老病死。
听不到?静下来，聆听那潺潺的水流声，你会感觉到：“很多事情就那么一刹那。”
就在呼吸之间。

珍惜。爱惜。知恩。感恩。报恩。绝对不是怜惜，就算是，就怜惜自己为何不珍惜。

Fellow friends , when i first read this passage ,this such a simple and easy passage . I was touched. I stopped and stand still . It is just so true . I was being amazed by the author. I read it in chinese originally and i translated it . It might be not good grammatically. I tried just to share with you all.

Look at your dad and mum , isnt they are aging in terms of psychologically and physically ? We tend to blame everything to our parents. They do have mistake ,and we might dislike it . They do it all the way just to prepare the best way to our life. Come on , we are human , mistake is always happening ? How do u define mistake ?

Think of it . It is so true . just so true ......

Is justice being served ?

All right, sometimes we cannot see something from outview. We have to see from others sides as well. We must prove the probability.
Yes , brothers and sisters , i dont really have time to spend with you all now . I really missed u all . Everytime i got upset and depressed . I always have you all beside me . Why is it i am so sentimental ? Well...no , it is just an appreciation .

I just had a lite car accident . Yes, it just happened a moment ago . What had happened is .....

First , when i am driving and wanted to cross another side of the road . A malay women who drove her car in fast speed eventually banged my car. Yes, she did ! she bang my car! and yet , she claim that i am the one who is fault . Oh my god , how the hell am i gonna to bang her car when i am stopping there ? Since i am living in this such a wonderful 'malay'sia . I have to tolerate with her , All right, i admit that i am fault. She is a 30+years old women. Maybe she is now having imbalance of her hormon . She makes a fake to a fact . Yes and of course my parent will believe her words than mine. From outview , it is my fault.

Her car is cant even said that it is injured severly.Just abit of painting loss. Indeed my Livina front bomba is in bad condition . Mygosh , my dad will surely screw me up . I think i dont wanna drive that luxurious car anymore . Maybe a nissan sunny will do good for me. Okay, back to the topic , first she is speeding to fetch her daughter to school. Secondly , she did not try to avoid from my car when my car is out.

It can be argued that it is my fault since i do not aware of her fast speed. She said that she want me to pay for reparation . Come on , if i bang her car, her car wont be just a painting loss. Her kenari will eventually being crashed man ! I am driving slowly and yet stil have this kinda accident. I am a new car driver , i should be aware of anything and everything.

I learnt a lesson today. If here is not Malaysia , i will surely speakout! This accident is now strengthen my determination to read law and become a lawyer. The reform of malaysia's law is needed and necessary ! The quota system need to be abolished ! I know a lawyer cannot do anything , since those who speakout is now enjoying their life in ISA jail .

I am wrong okay. After this , i dont wana drive the Grand livina . I prefer a nissan sunny then. My grandma-in-law said that she will give me a nissan sunny . Maybe i'll take that into consideration.

Have you guys ever think that , is justice beings served in malaysia?Or justice is just merely for decoration ?or an anology can be use that the earth is is sphere and will never be circle ?

Brothers and sisters and my fellow friends . Thats basicly what happened just now.

I am a lucky boy .

Why am i still a boy? Don't you think that i should have grown up ?

As i said, life is inevitable, we dont really what is gonna pass and what is coming soon in the future? I am a lucky boy by still have the chance and have the opportunity to meet my brothers and sisters. Compared to them, i am just a small little tiny peanut . Which in another word, i am still a boy .

First and foremost, i have a family which is taking care of me so much. Being spoonfeed for around 17years. Such a pampered guy!!! All right, what i need to do is just study . My mind is being socialise by that kind of mindset . Maybe it is kind of childish to say that i am a boy who have a big dream . However, i am now living in a limited small space that i cannot even do what i wana do. It would not be too much if u said that i am a daydreamer, well , it is indeed i am.

I have a hand but i dont know how to use my hand. I have a lot of dreams but dont know how to make it comes true. I have a big vision. I come to understand my life is not only ordinary, but it is meaningless . The patriachy system is still function in my family. I have to listen to what my dad plan for me. If , just if , and if i dont know how to express my feelings and decision . I can tell you honestly, my life is just a merely for decorative. When i realise what i want in my life, i tend to become deviant in my dad's view. In fact, i am not . Well...yes, i am rely to my family. Now, it is time for the changes come. The revolution should come .



I want to become someone that is actually help this society. Which can help those people with low ability , no matter financially , physically or psychologically. I dont need to be outstanding. But i need to improve and upgrade myself in order to do that.

In my heart, i have the feeling that i can actually do and work out a lot of things. It is however some barriers and limitation. I cant figure out what is the problem though.

Now, recently and gonna be in the future, i am very lucky, honoured to have a bunch of brothers and sisters . They all make me realise how weak i am ? how stupid i am ? They showed me my problem . We dont really have secret. Maybe you will wonder, what? It is just impossible to have 0 secret. Yes, it can be argued that way.Indeed, secret might be just something that protect us . And it cant be a secret since it is not the matter that we are not being exposed to the issue, it is just the matter of time. We will slowly come to understand when it is the time to do so.


Okay, with no doubt, i am weak . Weak in a sense of physically , and psychologically as well. I dont need to be hiding that many think that i am soft. Which mean that i am not tough enough.They taught me how to become a man. Yes, sounds funny ?? WEll, take it seriouly then.

I am on the way to find my way and will find my way .

Do u have enough tIMe? buddy....

Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday, Thursday and so on .... Time keep passing by , and sometimes i just feel like it actually doesn't exist! Why? It is too fast . With just a blink of eyes, it just passed and pass and passing . What about present ? Is there ever a present ? Arhhhhuh...it is still being argued in the world of science , philosophy , and also religion . Maybe some of us might think that: "Hey! u r insane! You are thinking too much !" All right, i will admit that i've thinking a lot .However, it doesnt mean that i am insane ! Okay...let me make everything clear to you.

I heard of 1 interesting quote which is : " i can never tell a lie , since the truth is never true ."
I have no idea who did i quoyed from . But, i am sure that , those who ever think of it is a great thinker just like Plato. It is all about time , when i am now pointing something and say said this is this , in another second i can said this is actually that . Ermm...complicated huh ? Not so.

For examples , last times the sciencetist said that the earth is square . Now, the new discovery is that the earth is actually sphere . Everything everywhere everything and anything is keep changing all the time and anytime.

Many people will always said that their life is complicated and painful.

I would say that life is simple and nice .

Well...why is it my life again ? haha....what else can i talk abt besides my life??

Is there an existance of destiny ? I mean everythings is fixed ? I dont agree.

We can actually control and even change our life. Recently, i have msn with one of my secondary closest friend. His academic achivement is really shinning right now. Salute man !!!

He said to me before, he will do better and do his best ! nOW He proved it .H e is now in Form 6.I believe he will do great and score well in this coming STPM.

In contrast, Im only doin okay which is just fine. I am aiming for exellent now.

Exellent ! Great! Good !...that what i wanna hear !!

I might take part in a mooting competition. If i do take part on it, I will make sure that i'll win . I will do my best !!

Wish me luck . I will also score well in law and sociology. WHich is As !!!!

COMe ON, jUNhong. U can do it !!! I will quote frm Adidas....Nothing is impossible......

SIMPLE LIFE

IN A

COMPLICATED WAY.

Haha..it has been a long while i dont really update my blog.Yes, LOng long times ago.Maybe i would hav to say:" Once upon a time..."..WEll ,I hav a busy life.Errrhum....did i ?

Time keep passing on , and i keep complaining that ,my time is actually not enough. I complain abt this and that . coMPlain abt my family , friends, and my lecturer.Its akward that i always see the bad side of them . Now, i think it is my turning point. No complain anymore( Oops ! did i say no?haha..ignore it) maybe i should say, decrease my complain level, its hard and difficult for me to hiding something that i wanna say. It's a MUST for me to express it .

From last year till now, i feels like it' s juz a blink of eyes, time is so powerful man. I dont even realise i actually pass through 1 year already.I think i learnt a lot and gone through a lot last yr. And of course , almost all of it is really challenging. Luckily i hav a bunch of brothers and sister behind me.I know that they will never hurt me, even they will scold me. SOmehow, Now i feels like i really grown up.Because of them.

Lawyer?am i the suit the personality of a lawyer? Apparently, i always the quiet one in frnt of ppls, and honestly i hav manything to say in my deeply heart. Just that sometimes i got no chance to say or rebut .Why? i knew what is goin to be the result. I'll see how's the thing goin first. It will nvr change even i said it out. However, i think now is the time for me to break the wall.

Life is inevitable, its the truth. How r we goin the predict our future? Yes, we cant. We can however plan for it. Recently, i heard a lot of ppl talking abt " THE SECRET".*ITs noT REFER to jay Chou's movie*....Its actually a documentary programme. At first, i dont believe on it, i think that its somehow ridiculous in a way. How can someone make their future by just imagine and visualise it? Its so unbelievable. Okay, maybe u'll wondering why i use "MAKE". According to the secret, what we want or we can actually achieve our dream by visualise it.What do ya think?Do u believe it?

To verify my stand, i downloaded the video frm internet purposely. Im trying to prove my hyphothesis.haha....At the end , im wrong. Im wrong because i said the statement before i understand the theory of it. Its actually all abt the Law of attraction . Never heard of it before huh? well, hear it now. iTS a theory between the universe and the law of attraction.Its something like cause and effect but its rather complicated . In another word, its actually our mind power. I think u guys hav heard of the brain of einstein, right?The usage of the brain by him is only a small part of it. He is 1 of the most intelligent people in the world.How can he actually discover sth that is so new ? Its all abt the mind power. How we use it? We live in a society where we actually a form of atom, molecule or cells and almost all f it is moving evryday. ANd its result energy . We live around energy.Its untangable of course.Those ion-ion /positive and negative energy will eventually changing by our mind.Our mind is the best messenger to the universe. WHich we'll ask for it and the universe will answer it. However, we hav to work it out so that we can receive it. As a result , its not a stupid theory. mAYbe u'll think that its unbelievable, but believe it. and I saying frm a buddhism point of view as well. There r no overlapping or conflict between the law of attraction's theory with the buddhism.

"THE SECRET"

Chasing for my dream.I used to be a positive minded person when i was form 3 ( the age of 15), i think its a result frm swimming. I train my mind power by swimming. I got a strong willingness and determination that time . Its so sad that i lost it now.I easily get affected by ppl . The negativity keep go into my mind. So, it results a lot of negative things happened in my life. What's that?My fellow brothers and sisters will know. A lot....

I lost manything last year. I lost my determination , i lost my concentration , i lost my motivation, and , and i feels like i lost a friend. WHich is really A FRIEND. What a tragedy happened on my friend. Sometimes , i just feel lonely. The loneliness inside me is still there. Am i alone in the pathway of my life? We r brothers. and now, nothing . I will nvr giv up. I will let u stand up one day and i will become successful . What again? yes, Chasing for dreams. It might be a lame word to use. Its work and just get used to it. U 'll find that helpful.